Thankfully, I’m already seated in my seat in maths class by the times Noah himself walks in through the door, with his ‘followers’ I like to say as they are the group of friends that he hangs round with, and this is a good thing because with me already seated, I can easily avoid eye contact....

And with Seth and Abby here, it’s easily done as Abby’s chatting away already, my attention already on her....

“Sooo you free this weekend then?” She asks grinning

I raise a eyebrow confused, lost at what she’s saying “Huh?”

Rolling her eyes, a faint smirk playing at her lips as she realises I wasn’t paying attention, her eyes slightly casting over to the back of the class...then back to me...

“The carnival?....in town. It’s this week end, that happens every year, and apparently this year’s gunna be the best!” She grins eyes sparkling in excitement...

I tilt my head to the side smiling lightly at her at how she gets excited easily.....hmm....a carnival...?

I remember only ever going when I was little, not much of a memory though, just bright lights, people screaming on rides and people dressed up as things.......or possibly that was the circus...

“Yeah...” Seth suddenly interrupts “We’re free...” He smiles glancing to me “I think we’ll give it a go....”

I raise both eyebrows at him, huh? Really now? We will, will we?.

Scoffing at him, rolling my eyes I turn back to Abby, and shrug “Yeah.... maybe..” I give her a small smile, ignoring Seth’s eyes on me. We haven’t talked much....not like we normally do, I know he’s trying to keep it as it was before, but it feel different!...I don’t like it....not since he’s started dating......her....

Internally cringing, I straighten up in my seat at the sound of the teacher entering the class, straight away silencing us and starting the lesson....

Well let’s just hope this lesson goes well.....

“Lexi?” I frown trying to ignore the quiet whisper of my twin sat beside me, as he tries to get my attention, but I force my concentration on the work task set, staring blankly at the equations in front of me....

“Lexiii? Pleeeasee...” He whispers almost feeling pained.....and at this I can’t help but flick my eyes in his direction once....

“What?” I snap/hiss a bit too harshly, eyes darting back to the paper....

I hear him sigh, “Don’t be mad at me.....please?” He whispers/begs and I clench my hand tighter around the pen in my hand “Please Lex? Don’t try denying it, because I can you are.....but please....nothing has to change, me and you, we’re still good.....”

Shaking my head I drop the pen on the table, tilting my head towards my twin...

“Seth....” I sigh out looking up into his matching eyes “Just answer me one thing..” I look him in the eye and he nods not breaking eye contact... “Why her?” I ask simply....

Blinking a few times, staring back at me...Seth eventually makes a move, leaning against the desk and speaking.... “Because I like her.” Is his simply reply...

I nearly groan out loud frustrated....how can he like something like that?! How could anyone!? They don’t see beyond her fake, smile and pretty looks.......

Dragging a sigh again I hold back my frustrated sigh shaking my head and frowning “But se-“

“No, no...” He cuts me off “Lex I’ve heard it all before okay?.....I get that you don’t like her, but you don’t know how I do. You don’t know what she’s like when it’s just us...she’s...different....”

Sighing heavily, I stare straight ahead, yes I want him to be happy, but seriously....with April?...and different? ...Ha...yeah, she better be a hell of a lot different then....

“Lex?” He whispers softly as I look to the top of the desk “Please.....you’re my twin, I don’t want anything to be different....I don’t want to lose you....”

I clench my jaw at his words, swallowing hard, bastard! He knows using those words would get to me.

Breathing deeply I face him again, seeing the emotions in his blue eyes, he means it...I can tell...and feel...

“Alright...” I whisper quietly lowering my head slightly..... but knowing he still heard...

Feeling him smile, he takes my hand briefly squeezing it as to say ‘thanks’ because you can’t exactly hug sat in these desk, so he’ll have to wait...

I lift my head to meet his gaze and lightly smile, it may be a light smile...but I mean it.

I wouldn’t risk anything to lose him, so if that means I’ve gotta man up and put up with icky, fake April....then so be it.

Oooh...god. This will be hard.

Smiling to myself I set my attention back to the sheet in front of me, everyone else in the room working quietly, but not silence....so that’s why we were whispering....and as I pick up my pen...I suddenly feel the vibration of my phone from my pocket.....

Eh.....who could that be.....?

Maybe mom?

Or Charlie?

Secretly and quickly I pull my phone out, unlocking it to see a text, and as I click to read it.... I wish I hadn’t....

‘Made it up with your twine then? ;) x – Noah’

Frowning at the text, all sorts of questions fill my head.

Why is he texting me, when he’s sat right in the same class?.

What the hell?!...

He’s acting as if nothing....happened....as if that was just a normal text.....without no contact since last night..and suddenly this?....

Like nothing happened.....

I can’t help but feel a wave of disappointment wash over me as I think that, but as quickly as it comes, I quickly brush it away.

Frowning, I shake my head to myself, pushing my phone back in my pocket, not wanting to reply. I don’t get it......why suddenly do this?

Waiting only a few minutes, I feel my phone vibrate again....

Pulling it out quickly to stop the noise, my eyes skim over the text....

‘You can’t ignore me forever ;) x– Noah’

This text get’s my eyes widening, what the actual hell?!

My face turns into a scowl as my grip tightens on my phone..... what is he playing at?!

Grrr! Why is he so confusing!

Turning around in my seat, I set my scowl on to that very familiar face across the classroom, who just grins/smirks back with a wave, a almost sarcastic wave....

Growling under my breathe I turn back around, before stabbing out a reply.

‘Go. Away.’

Sending it, I notice Seth’s curious gaze, but just shake my head at him......damn...if there’s one thing I won’t tell my twin about, it’s this!......he’ll just tell the...and then god knows what will happen....

My phone buzzing again alerts my attention, and I cast my gaze down reading the message...

‘That’s harsh :( I’m wounded x – Noah ’

Rolling my eyes, knowing it’s another sarcastic stupid comment, I reply again.

‘Good.’ Is all I reply with, who cares if it’s ‘harsh’ on him?....not me! No not me!

‘*Gasp!* :O....that hurts Lexi :(. And I thought you cared......... x – Noah’

I can just imagine the smirk on his face as he types this others out, I shake my head in disbelief, once again typing a reply.

‘I never cared Noah.’

As soon as I send that, I instantly feel a twisted feeling in my stomach......that’s a lie I tell myself, I shouldn’t have said that.

Biting my lip, I wait the same amount of time as I did before for the texts to come, a couple of minutes....but I get none.

Swallowing, I shift position slightly and sneakily glance over my shoulder to the far side of the classroom, eyes settling on that familiar figure, that’s not facing this way anymore, is half turned away, phone carelessly shoved in pocket and is making conversation with friends around.....but I can see that, that smile...seems...fake?.....

I frown turning back around...

No text back?

No cocky, sarcastic comeback?

What happened.......?

~~~

The rest of the afternoon went by, normally....well as normal as you get on Monday’s afternoons anyway....

But, I still couldn’t get rid of that feeling..... what it was, I’m not sure....but it stayed with me since maths....

Shaking my head to myself, I open the door to my locker, shoving a few books in as I hear people walking pass, the bell just rang, signalling the end of the day...

“Hey there!” A voice pops up beside me, I instantly know who and smile lightly

“Hey Charlie...” I close my locker door turning around to face the grinning girl who’s leaning up against the lockers beside mine...

“Sooooooo....” She drags out causing me to raise an eyebrow again suspiciously....

Laughing she shakes her head “I’m only messin...” she grins “But no....seriously.... me and Abs we’re wondering.....how do you fancy a girls night Friday? We can go to the carnival, bring Nath, so okay, maybe not a girls night fully, but it’s only Nath! He won’t mind!”

I crack a smirk at that shaking my head in amusement, but smile at my friend.... “Yeah....that sounds good...” I smile...

“Awesome!” Charlie grins happily causing me to smile again “Can’t wait!...well let’s walk!....” She grins looping her arm through mine, dragging me from the lockers towards the doors....

Smiling to myself, feeling something I haven’t felt in a long time, feeling that I actually have people, other than my brothers, that are there for me.....

But this happy feeling soon goes, as something further up the corridor catches my eye......

Familiar dark brown hair...and more importantly, those dark brown eyes that are the first thing I catch....but they don’t lock with mine....

White blonde hair is the next thing I see, that white blonde hair that’s no doubt belongs to the person I bumped into a few weeks ago...

But that isn’t all that I see.....no.

Once a rush of people pass me....it becomes clear.....and at what I see.....it causes a heavy weight to push down on my chest, cutting off my breathing, making my stomach twist, and a lump to rise in my throat.....

Because at what I see.....it certainly does not look like those two are just ‘friends’ as Noah so wrongly put it a few weeks ago......

Because friends don’t touch each other like that,

Friends don’t kiss each other like that.

But then again....why do I care?!.....Why do I feel like this?!

This just gives me the answers I needed.....

Last night ment nothing.....