I roll my eyes and turn a little pink, "Shush"

He shrugs, "It's true."

About a month and a half

Stokeley and I aren't official yet, there's one slight issue on my side.

I'm really starting to get anxious about all of this really. I haven't experienced something real and that scares me. I need to talk to Stokeley about it.

I just don't want him to be upset about what I'm afraid for. I get up and put my shoes on and go over to Stokeley's. I've been sort of distant because of everything I’ve been thinking about.

I knock on the door and Stokeley opens it, "Hey Bil, haven't seen you in a bit, everything okay?" he asks and lets me inside.

"Yeah I just.. I'm getting really anxious about some things and I thought I needed space but in all honesty space made my thoughts worse." I explain as I sit on the couch.

He sits next to me, "You wanna talk about it?"

"It's just like, you know how I feel about you and I know how you feel, Stokeley, but what if this ruins our entire friendship if we were to break up?" I start to worry.

He sighs, "Billie, you know that wouldn't happen, I care so much about you I wouldn't let that happen to us." he reassures.

"Maybe it isn't a good idea.." I start to stray away from the idea of being with him.

"Billie, sometimes things don't go as planned but you and I, we will never know unless we try things. We have to trust this alright?" he looks at me.

"I’m sorry if I get upset alot it's just sometimes I feel people don't understand." I start to sort of rant.

"Stop saying you're sorry Bil, you have nothing to be sorry for. It's my job to cheer you up. I’ll do anything in my power to make you happy." he moves closer to me.