The butterfly feeling that came as a first kick was foreign and at the same time exciting. He was bummed that Louis was at work when it happened. Louis has been working a lot lately, Harry was lonely even though he did have William inside. Harry found himself talking to the little one quite often. Louis' shifts seemed to be getting later but Harry understood that it meant money and a roof over their heads. It was hard to get used to.

He missed Liam in some stupid way, he knew he shouldn't but it was times like this he wished he could call Liam up and get him to come round and hang with him for the night until Louis got back. Harry's bump was kind of big now he was 5 months he had one more month until they saw their sweet boy again. Harry couldn't wait.

"You're mummys little angel," Harry cooed at his stomach "my sweet little boy, I hope you look like daddy." he rubbed his stomach gently.

William didn't move to him rubbing his stomach, he must be asleep. Harry reached to the cushion beside him grabbing the stethoscope Louis surprised him with the other night. He put the ear pieces in and rolled up his shirt. He moved the piece around finding the heartbeat and he did.

Fast like a train. Thump, thump, thump going as fast as Harry could count. He started singing to his bump.

"If I could fly I'd be coming right back home to you," he sung skipping a few lines "for your little eyes only I show you my heart, for when you're lonely and forget who you are, I'm missing half of me when we're apart. Now you know me, for your little eyes only. For your little eyes only." Harry felt one tear fall down his cheek.

He loved listening to Williams heart, it reminded him that he was never going to be alone. He would always have William as a part of him if something ever happened to Louis.

"I can't wait to meet you." Harry smiled.

He phone buzzed cause he put it on vibrate because Liam wouldn't leave him alone. He looked down at the screen to see who it was. An unknown number it was. He picked it up just in case it was some emergency calling about Louis being hurt.

"Hello?" Harry answered.

"Harry? Harry Styles?" a woman's voice came through he'd heard that before who's was it?

"This is he, may I ask who this is?" Harry asked politely.

"I-it's Karen, Karen Payne." her voice was shaking like she's been crying and is fighting to hold back the tears.

"I knew you sounded familiar! Is everything alright?" Harry asked some feeling raised into his throat making it feel tight.

"N-no it's my baby boy Liam, h-he- he was hit by a truck and-" Karen went quiet.

Harry's eyes started burning. He could feel the tears filling his eyes.

"Hello? Mrs. Payne?" Harry said.

"Harry this is Geoff. Liam was hit by a truck while he was out. He's not well off Harry- please come to the hospital we're in the ICU ask for Liam Payne." Geoff's voice cracked and he hung up.

Harry felt his heart break in a million little pieces inside him. He dropped his phone onto the sofa. He was in his pj's still. He quickly slipped on his sneakers and grabbed a small leather pack and stuffed with clothes that were comfortable for him. He grabbed the stethoscope to keep him calm during the stay and put it in his bag. He packed his laptop into it's bag and grabbed his phone charger and he was off. He called Louis.

"Hello princess." Louis answered.

"Lou I'm on the way to the hospital Liams been hurt. He's been hit by a truck." Harry cried.

"I'll be round after I get off okay?" Louis said calmly.

He wanted to remain calm for Harry.

"Yeah okay he's on the ICU floor ask for Liam Payne when you get to the desk and they'll get you directed from there." Harry held back the tears.

"Be careful I love you both."

"We love you daddy." Harry said hanging up.

He got in his car. Throwing his stuff in the seat beside him. The drive to the hospital was nerving. Harry would be destroyed in a way if Liam died. He winced thinking about Liam and death. Liam had been an ass to him, he didn't know why he dropped everything and came as soon as he heard. Pulling into the hospital he sat in the car for a beat then grabbed his things up and went in. He didn't know if he could face seeing Liam hooked up to a lot of machines. The pang of the elevator snapped him out of his thoughts and he stepped off onto the ICU floor.

"Excuse me?" Harry said shrugging a bag back up on his shoulder.

"Yes sir?" the nurse said.

"I'm here to visit a Liam Payne? Uh he wasn't admitted too long ago. He-" Harry couldn't finish.

"Room 2B that way." she pointed.

Harry nodded wiping away tears walking down the cooridor. He found 2B he couldn't see inside.

"Harry?" Karen sounded so horribly shattered.

"Oh Karen." Harry dropped his bags and faced her.

She looked at him silently eyeing his protruding stomach. Harry ignored her staring and hugged her.

"I'm so sorry." he said.

"Come on in." Karen said.

"N-no I- I don't think I can yet I mean I'm not ready." Harry took a deep breath.

"Well I'll show you to the waiting room then." Karen said wiping the tears away.

Harry nodded picking his things up and followed her in there. He settled into a nice reclining chair. He took out his phone and looked through messages Liam sent him.

Harry I'm sorry. I really miss you being here with me in this pathetic dorm...... :/

Harry please I was stupid for saying what I did. I know I keep saying I'm sorry and I'm stupid cause that's all I can really say.

HARRY PLEASE! This is stupid not saying our friendship is.... fuck nevermind.

There was so many from him. All him begging for some response from Harry. There was a voicemail from earlier today from Liam.

"Hey Harry I'm on my way to see you, uh I begged Louis for your address if you don't let me in fine I'll leave but I'd really like it if you did. Dont get mad at Louis I'm the one who wanted-"

It beeped cutting him off. That was the last of anything from him before this. Harry felt tears fall. He brought his knees to his chest. He wanted Louis here but it was still another couple of hours before he got off.

Harry was fighting himself to go see him. He needed to it's been two hours. Louis would be here any minute now. Harry exhaled heavily and stood holding his stomach. He made his way down the cooridor to the room 2B. He knocked softly on the door. Karen and Geoff were on their way out. The door was still blocking the view of Liam. Harry pushed the door open wider with one hand his other hand holding his stomach. William was moving about inside. Harry quietly shut the door and sat down in the chair at the foot of the bed against the wall.

He looked at Liam, his eyes were stinging from stopping only to start crying again. Liam was hooked up to different monitors. His arm had an IV in it a small bruise surrounded it. He had small cuts on his cheeks. His forehead was covered in a bandage. He couldn't really see the damage to his hands. Harry closed his eyes and gathered himself enough to walk and sit beside the bed in the chair that was more comfortable then the other.

He sat down and looked at Liam some more. A dark purple bruise was on his wrist and a few others were scattered on his arms. His right hand thumb nail was totally gone a bandage covered the wound. The blanket covered Liams stomach and below so he couldn't see whether he had any wounds.

Something made Harry scoot closer and grab his hand. Harry was afraid he was going to hurt Liam. The slightest touch he was afraid it would hurt him. He knew Liam could hear him. He was breathing on his own hardly though.

Harry's chest ached.

"I was alone today Liam and guess what happened," Harry paused smiling at his stomach "I felt my baby kick today for the first time. It was the strangest feeling ever, I wish you-" Harry stopped himself and thought.

"I know you Liam, I know you didn't mean any of that. What you said about me. You swore up and down you meant every word, but you ass I know you better. You hurt my feelings when you said that. I was just hoping by me giving you the time to think and realize what you've done," Harry started crying "I want to be bloody mad at you but I can't. You've gone and got hurt, how can anyone be mad at someone who's gotten hurt?"

Harry half laughed and cryed. He stopped talking and remained in the chair. It was a hour past Louis' off time. Was he just off in the waiting area? Was he over time?

"I'll be back soon." Harry said and went out.

He entered the waiting area. Karen was asleep on Geoff's shoulder. Geoff was asleep too. He looked over on the other side of the room.

"Louis." Harry cried.

Louis stood up quickly and hugged the boy.

"I'm sorry I didn't know you were back there. If I did I would have came back."

Harry pulled back and they sat down.

"I've been back there for ages. Did you not see his parents?" Harry questioned.

"No, I didn't know what they looked like?" Louis said grabbing Harry's hand.

"Eh well they are asleep you'll meet them soon enough. I think they think Liam is the father of our baby cause they didn't say much to me when I first got here." Harry said.

"You alright? That's my baby in there. Im sure Liam will tell them when he wakes up." Louis asked.

"Yeah I mean I don't know I don't feel like I should of got here. There might not be a chance he will wake up. Five bloody months pregnant and I wobbled my way over here," Harry paused "I feel like I should just go home."

Louis sighed he could tell Harry was fighting some battle with himself.

"Babe you've done the right thing by being here that's the least you can do, you don't have to forgive him. You care about him enough to be here for him and that's alright. I'm not happy about the way he's been towards you but I'm only here for you. If you want me to go back there with you I will." Louis said squeezing Harry's hand gently.

Harry nodded standing giving Louis' hand a slight tug.

"I-" Harry stopped looking back and forth from the way to Liams room and the exit "I just want to go home."

Louis nodded and practically ran grabbing up Harry's things.

"I got a taxi over here." Louis smiled when he noticed Harry was searching for his car.

Harry smiled faintly and gave him the keys.

Harry grabbed the stethoscope from his bag and listened to the heartbeat like it was music. It was his melody a melody that sent him to sleep when he couldn't go to sleep.

He removed the ear pieces and looked at Louis.

"You missed something big today." Harry said holding his stomach as William was moving about.

"Oh?"

Harry nodded sadly.

"You missed our sons first kick."

Louis stayed silent taking in what he just heard.

"I'm- I'm sorry." the boy said pulling in the park of the apartments.

"It's okay there will be other times I hope." Harry said.

They got out and Louis grabbed Harry's things. Harry stopped walking and Louis did too.

"I hate that I can't be there when you want but it's a job or we are living in our cars." Louis answered.

"I know." Harry sighed looking at him.

"I know your upset about me not being there and about Liam getting hurt, but please don't push your anger on me." Louis said.

Harry shook his head and said nothing and started walking again. Harry wanted to run away from it but what was that going to do? Nothing, just make things worse. He went outside on the balcony as soon as they got in. It was about 6 pm, Harry listened at the horns honking down below and watched the lights from different windows flick on or off. He watched the life London.

"Harry?" Louis stood at the door with a blanket.

Harry looked at him.

"Why did he have to go and walk in front of a damned delivery truck? Stupid idiot." Harry broke down.

Louis wrapped his arms around him tightly.

"You know Liam he doesn't really pay any mind to some things obviously oncoming cars is one of them." Louis said trying to make Harry laugh.

Harry laughed.

"He didn't break a bone in his body yet he's laying there knocked out as if it broke every bone in his body." Harry smiled.

"He's a little shit." Louis smiled at the boy who was now laughing.

"I don't want him to die Lou." Harry said.

"Haz don't you think he'd want you there every minute? Give him something to stay alive for. I'd have something I'd want to kick deaths ass for and that's you and our son."

Harry smiled up at him kissing his cheek before he snuggled into his chest. They sat out there on the balcony for while they threw some pillows against the wall and another blanket on the floor they cuddled there. They talked about everything from what color Williams room should be to what theme they wanted.

"So do you want to go back?" Louis asked as they settled into the bed for the night.

"Honestly tomorrow is Saturday I'd love a trip to the mountains. Take a train after the hospital me and you?" Harry said as Louis started to cuddle him.

He started kissing his bump slowly making his way to his Harry's lips.

"So?" Harry said between a kiss.

"Okay that actually sounds nice." Louis said kissing him again.

"Yeah?"

Louis nodded.

"Now go to sleep." Louis instructed.

"I love you." Harry said closing his eyes.

"I love you most." Louis pecked the top of his head.