Dear psyche,

Yesterday I went outside the fence, the fence that I build for years...

I get inside the car and drove myself to nowhere

I don't know where to go

What am I thinking?

Why did I go out?

I feel safer inside the fence

Maybe because I want to find my peace of mind

Maybe because I'm missing something or someone

Do I really miss them?

Do they miss me?

I maneuvered the car and get back

I want to see them

I want to be my old self again

I missed the old me

I missed the feeling of laughing and smiling

But then when I finally reached my destination and saw them again

I felt scared

Their eyes are telling me that I'm not belong there

I stepped back and run

Then I realized maybe going outside is not a good idea...