In the middle of the scene just as I was about to say my line my manager walks up to me with an unreadable facial expression.

"Hey what's going on". I ask walking off set with a smile

"Lauren I'm so sorry". She said causing my smile to slowly fade

"What do you mean you're sorry what's going on". I ask folding my arms

"Nipsey, he was shot out". She started to say but I was already grabbing my things and out the door

Pulling up into the hospital parking lot I get out of the car and rush inside looking around for Samiel.

"Lauren over here". I heard someone say from behind me

"What did they say". I ask looking around at his family members who all held the same facial expression

"I have to go back there". I said trying to walk to the back when hands grabbed me and I fought against them

"LET ME GO". I Screamed trying to fight out of the persons hold

"Sis calm down". The voice said letting me know it was Samiel but that didn't stop me from fighting against him

"Babygirl it's okay". His father said pulling me into a hug

"They took him from me". I cried into his chest as he rubbed my back

"I know baby girl but you got to be strong not only for yourself but for the kids". His father said as I continued to cry in his chest

"I feel so lost I don't know what to do". I said shaking my head

"You're going to keep your head held high and continue the marathon you hear me".he said and I nod my head wiping my eyes

"Family of Ermias Asghedom you may go back and say your goodbyes". The doctor said holding a clipboard

"Lauren why don't you go first sweetheart". His mother said rubbing my back

Following behind the doctor he led me to Ermias room before walking away. Staring at the door for a minute I place my hand on the knob twisting it and pushing it open.

Walking in I see him lying there peacefully so I walk over and grab his hand.

"Ermias I'm so sorry I should have been there with you". I said lying my head on his chest as I cried

Stroking his bread I just sat there and stared at him.

Hearing the door open I turn around and see that it's his family coming in.

"How you holding up you been in here an hour and your manager picked up the kids ". His dad said as everybody looked at me

"I don't think I will be able to let him go". I said rubbing his braids as I looked down at him

"In a few more minutes they're coming to take him". His mom said and I shook my head as tears began to fall

"Why would someone do this". I questioned wiping my eyes

"Because there are hatful people in this world that don't want to see you make it and will do anything to stop you". His father said making everybody in the room agree

Before anything else could be said there was a knock on the door and the doctor walked in.

"I'm sorry but we have to take him away". He said as nurses walked in behind him

"Let me leave first". I said grabbing my things and in the mist of that I grab Ermias hand kissing it as my tears hit his skin before leaning down and placing a soft kiss on his lips

"I love you". I whispered in his ear before standing back up

Saying bye to everybody I leave the hospital and get in my car. Placing my things in the passenger seat I stare at the hospital before laying my head on the steering wheel.

Getting myself together I start the car up and pull off looking at the hospital in the rear view mirror.

After meeting up with different people for the funeral arrangements we finally finished and he will have an memorial service open to the public at the staples center. And we will have a private funeral later on today.

"Emani are you dressed". I called out as I got Kross dressed

When I didn't hear anything I finished putting his clothes on before walking down the hall to her room. When I walked in she was looking down with her back towards the door. Walking closer I look down and see a picture of Ermias holding her on his neck when a tear hit the glass of the frame.

"You know he's going to always be looking down on you and watching over you". I said scaring her

"Yea I know I just didn't think that morning would be his last". She said rubbing the picture

"I didn't think that it would be either". I said with a sigh

"Get dressed the memorial starts in an hour". I said kissing her forehead before walking out of her room

Stepping out of the limo with Kross and Emani I look around to see YG, Snoop dogg,Cassie,master P, Steve wonder, and more. As we made our way into the building people were stopping me giving me there condolences.

Taking a seat in the family section I watch people come in.

"Hey Lauren how you feeling". Samantha asked taking a seat beside her mother

"I'm doing as good as it's going to get". I said with a fake smile

"Alright welcome everybody the service is about to begin". The man said on the microphone causing everyone to get quiet

After everyone gave their speech and sung songs it was my turn to go up. Handing Kross to Samiel I stand up and walk towards the stage holding the hand rail as I walked up the stairs. Standing in front of the podium I look out into the crowd front behind my glasses.

"Never would I prepare for something like this so bear with me, all". I said looking down at the paper in front of me

" Ermias was asleep one morning and I was watching him because I used to love to watch him sleep and I wrote him a text while he was sleeping so when he woke up he would read it". I said sniffling pushing my glasses up and continued on to read the text I sent him

"I've never felt this type of pain before but I know that God is alive but bear with me all". I said wiping the tear that fell

"He would go to bed and listen to these audiobooks in his headphones and I would tease him but that really was what I thought was the coolest s— ever about him. He would wake up in the morning and play music for the kids and light a sage and burn it around the house, just to make sure that our energy going outside would be uplifting and we could handle the day". I said tapping my ear remembering all those late night he stayed up listening to them

"My pain is from a 2-year-old that probably won't remember how much his dad loved him, This is something that I don't really understand but I know Ermias always used to say that you can't possess people; that you experience them. I'm so honored and blessed to experience such a man". I said with a small smile looking up for a moment before looking back at the paper

"I know everyone's hurting but I'd like to say something to my city, Los Angeles. Y'all from L.A. stand up. Because this pain is really ours. We know what it meant to us, we lost an incredible soul. We lost someone very rare to us, we lost a real one". I said and I saw everybody standing up

"To Ermias, the love of my life. You know what it is. Grief is the final act of love. My heart hears you, I feel you everywhere. I'm so grateful that I had you. I love you beyond this Earth. Until we meet again, the Marathon continues". I said before walking off the stage and back to my seat picking up Kross sitting him in my lap

We're all now in the car getting ready to go to where his body will be buried. The drive cut on Ermias's song and I threw up the rollin 60s gang sign rapping along.

Getting through the large crowd took a while but we finally made it to the burial site. We get out of the car and watch them place his body in the ground. Everybody gets a chance to place some dirt over his casket before the workers did the rest.

" Yo Lauren you ready to go". Samiel asked touching my shoulder

"Yea". I said turning around as he threw his arm around my shoulder

As we walked back to the car I look back and saw them putting the last few piles of dirt in. Getting in the car I take Kross from Samantha and pull Emani into me hugging them tightly they are the last two pieces of him. The car began to move and that's when it became a reality he was really gone.

To the love of my life you were taken away to soon but you were His Missing Angel...