(Sorry for the wait so here's a long one. I know I kinda half-assed the last MiriTama fic, so I'll make it up to you. I've got an EraserMic fic in the works, so stay tuned for that! Also, this is in a sort of AU where Nighteye didn't die and Mirio still has his quirk, yet the did save Eri. Enjoy!!)

Third Person POV

Tamaki stared at himself in the mirror, hating what he saw. Why should he like it? He's nothing special, just a freak.

this is too much.........

It had been a while since he ever felt like this...

I deserve it, don't I...

He walked outside of his dorm as quiet as he could, so he wouldn't disturb any of the students on his floor.

they won't miss me....

Step after step, his heart grew heavier in his chest, his breath constricted, and eyes watery.

why is this so hard?! I want to do this, why can't I do it..?

Slowly but surely, he made his way up to the roof only to see-

"M-Mirio?!"

There the blonde was, on the roof looking over it, down onto the city below. Strangely though; he was in hospital clothes, yet was still very bloody.

oh god...he didn't do that to himself...did he?

Once he noticed Amajiki, he turned and gave him a sad, but sorry, smile.

w-wait.....is he? no. nonononononono-

"W-Wait, please don't!" he pleaded, running to his childhood friend.

Yet he didn't listen, mouthing the words; "I love you." before falling backwards.

Tamaki's heart stopped. Instead of jumping off as well, he fell down and hit his knees on the hard brick. Fat tears leaked out of his eyes, and he yelled at the top of his lungs;

"MIRIO!!"

He didn't care that his knees were bruised from the sudden drop. He didn't care that he was being loud and would wake up Nejire and Yu, or that his voice sounded so utterly pathetic.

Why would he care about all that?

His best friend was gone.

I didn't even get to say goodbye, or that I loved him....

Maybe he should've kept his voice down more though. His friends heard his cries, and came up the stairs running.

"Amajiki..?"

"Are you alright?!"

The girls kneeled down on either side of him, and tried to softly get him to answer.

"M-Mirio...he.."

They couldn't bring him any further than that. Once he got that out though, he could tell that their expressions changed.

"Togata?"

"What do you want with him?"

Creepily, Hadou and Hara burst into laughter, scaring the shit out of Tamaki. Once they turned back to him, they whispered in his ears;

"Why don't you jump, Amajiki?"

"It's your fault he jumped, after all."

He couldn't believe his friends. Were they really saying this? Horrified, he scooted back, shaking his head violently.

"No? Aww, too bad." Hadou smiled.

"Wh..What..?" Amajiki asked, in total disbelief of what was happening.

But they didn't give him an answer. Instead, they picked him up, and carried him to the roof's edge. Just looking down from that height was enough to make him panic even more. "W-What's wrong with you?! P-Please, stop-"

All of a sudden, they threw him off the edge and ran back inside, still laughing.

I......no, wait..

This is what he wanted when he came up here...why shouldn't he be happy?

I....I don't want this!!

It was too late to turn back now though. Closing his eyes, he started to fall faster and faster. Now moving too fast for him to hear anything but the wind, he readied himself to die. But then-

He woke up.

He opened his eyes to find that he was alone still. But not on the roof, no. In his dorm; wearing different clothes, and perfectly fine. Physically anyways. Emotionally, he was on the verge of a panic attack. A mix of anger and sadness filled his emotions.

It was one of those dreams again.

Tamaki doesn't know when he started having it, it's happened too many times than he can count. But he suspects that it was after they saved Eri.

The dreams are sometimes at varying lengths though.

Sometimes, it's just Mirio dying, and nothing else. Other times it could be Mirio crying because of Nighteye's death, both Eri and Mirio dying, or simply just Mirio having to leave UA due to the loss of his quirk.

It was never like that before though. Neither Hadou nor Yuyu were even at the fight with Overhaul, so why was this happening now?

He couldn't think about that now though. Checking the clock on his nightstand, it read '4:32 AM'. He really should be getting as much sleep as he could, but at this point there was no way he was going back to bed.

Quietly, Amajiki stepped out of his room and instead of going to the roof, he went to the kitchen on the first floor. Maybe something to eat might help him sleep? Or maybe he was just hungry.

Once in the elevator, he started to think about a few things. One; if anybody was awake, which he hoped not. Amajiki hated explaining his struggles to others. Two; how much longer it'd be before Nejire and Mirio found out about this. Granted, he really hated confrontation with these things. But they were his closest friends, he can't keep this a secret from them can he?

Well, maybe. If he just gets some make-up he could pull it off. He could cover the bags under his eyes, and-

"Uh, Amajiki?" he heard his friend ask.

He jumped back, and fell on the elevator carpet. Dammit, he was sure nobody would be up.

As it turns out, Nejire was just going to grab a drink, but she couldn't let her friend look this upset. He was so tired that he didn't even notice her getting in the elevator. To be fair, Tamaki knows for a fact that she always floats around with her quirk at night to not wake anybody up. "Here, let me help!" she giggled, and offered him her hand.

He hesitated, given that she had just killed him in his dream. But to keep all that hidden, he took her hand and they went to the kitchen.

A few minutes later, they were sitting at the counter,talking about Minecraft and Among Us. In reality, Hadou knew exactly what was wrong with Tamaki; he never does this unless he has a nightmare. And this...happens a lot.

Mirio doesn't notice since they're on different floors, but Nejire's room is right next to Tamaki's so she can hear everything. But, he was happy. Does she really want to ruin it for him?

Yes. Yes she does.

Not intentionally, God no. She just wanted to help.

As much as she doesn't want to, she knows that Mirio's gonna be worried today if she can't find it out. "Hey, Amajiki?" she asked, in a borderline worried tone.

"Y-Yeah?" Tamaki knew that tone all too well. Just when he had almost forgotten about the dream too. Maybe he wasn't as good as hiding as he thought-

"Do you....have those nightmares a lot?"

"I-I....."

"You don't have to tell me, I just want to know if you have them, in general."

she just contradicted herself....

"Y-Yes....I didn't think you knew.."

"Really? Not to be invasive or anything-

you're already invasive...

-but I can hear you screaming at night. My dorm's right next to you, you know.

oh, yeah......

Do you, wanna tell me what's been going on?"

"I...

It's gonna bug me if I don't tell her now...

y-yeah, sure.."

~

That morning, the two paced back and forth in the commons (no they did not go back to sleep), thinking. What were they thinking about? A way to break the news to Mirio, duh.

They both knew that this wouldn't be easy.

After Amajiki explained everything to Hadou, it's safe to say she definitely was really sad. But not as much as the blonde would be. Togata and the latter had been friends since third grade, they practically grew up together. It would break his heart knowing that his best friend-and crush-has had nightmares about him dying. But what could they even do?

They ended up giving up for now and leaving to get dressed, hoping that they'd soon find a way to explain all this.

~

At school the next day, the Big Three walked in the halls to lunch. It was a bit awkward for Tamaki, for obvious reasons. Maybe Nejire too, but she surely didn't show it as much.

"Hey, hey, Togata!!" the girl asked, tapping his back rapidly.

why does she always do that...?

"What's up?" he replied.

"Where do you guys think we should go after lunch? I was thinking we should go to a butterfly garden, what do you guys think?"

"Sure, Hadou! That's a great idea!"

She knows exactly what she's doing........

TBC

(Hope you guys liked that! Also thanks to for the lovely idea. It was supposed to be TodoDeku, but I did enough stories for that. I have another Big Three oneshot written, and that'll be out real soon!)