'Lay your head on my pillow

Here you can be yourself

No one has to know what you are feeling

No one but me and you'

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"I just wish they would've told me sooner" She sniffles but I don't think she had any tears left to cry.

I soothingly rub her back like I had been doing for the past hour listening to her vent.

Personally I thought they had a good reason for not telling her cause she was going through a lot with school, work, and me but on the other hand I get why she wanted to know sooner too.

"You still have time to make new memories with him though and that's all that matters, you shouldn't dwell on what you could've did when you still have time to do it" I tell her trying to stay optimistic about the whole situation.

"I know but I'm scared because I don't know how much time I have left with him" Looking at the dark ceiling I thought about what I should say.

I was terrible at comforting people because I hardly ever showed emotions and it was awkward for me when somebody else was so this situation was difficult for me.

"Don't think about that, just live in the moment" I softly sigh pausing my hand on her back.

"I guess your right" She mumbles and the room falls into a comfortable silence.

For some reason I felt like she wasn't supposed to be here with me, I understood her need to vent but like she said she doesn't know how much time her father has left.

"You should probably go back to the hospital" I blurt, hoping she didn't take it the wrong way.

"I know, my mom is probably worried sick, I told her I was going out for some fresh air" She softly chuckles rubbing her eye.

"I can drop you off if you don't feel like driving" I offer as she sits up.

"No you've done enough tonight, thank you for holding me and drying my eyes though" She looks back at me with a small smile and I send her a warm smile back.

"I forever got you" I mumble and she swiftly turns her head before I could see her blush.

"Why you ain't just go home or call up ole boy though?" I was genuinely curious because this thought had ran through my mind a few times tonight.

"He doesn't understand me like you do, and that's not home. Home is here, with you" She mumbles looking back at me and this time it's me hiding my blush.

"Onika where ha-"

"I know mommy, I had just took a longer drive than I thought. Is he up?" I softly sigh cutting her off.

"Yes, he's been up for about 30 minutes I was just leaving to use the restroom" She says and I nod nervously nibbling on my bottom lip.

"Just go in and talk to him baby, he was asking about you" She lightly squeezes my shoulder with an encouraging smile before brushing past me.

Staring at the doorknob I let out a small breath before wrapping my fingers around the door pushing it open.

"I was worried about you" He weakly smiles as I walk in letting the door shut behind me.

Walking over to his bedside I take a seat in the chair pulled up next to it.

"So what did the doctor say?" I nervously clear my throat, scared of his response.

"That I need to remember to eat something before I take my pills" He raspily chuckles and I crack a small smile.

"He recommended that I stay here if I can't properly care for myself but I don't want to watch life fade away in this dull room, I want to live normally for as long as I can" He speaks and tears well in my eyes at the thoughts of him passing.

"I'm scared daddy" My voice cracks as tears slide down my cheeks.

"Don't be, I lived a beautiful life. You and your mother are everything to me, you two make every little breath I take mean something. Your very strong onika and I'm proud of everything that you've become, I know that it will be hard sometimes but always continue to live for you babygirl"

At this point I had already broken down, my dad was slowly being taken away from me and I couldn't take it.

"Don't cry nika, everything will be okay. Besides I'm still here, I'm not leaving my princess that easily"

Pulling myself together I wiped my tears away sniffling.

"I'm not going anywhere anytime soon nika, everything's okay" He softly speaks reassuringly.

"I love you daddy" I weakly smile.

"I love you too princess, forever and always"