'Not on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday

Sunday, but on Thursday, make sure

You are thirsty oh, on Thursday, baby

Get ready'

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Chewing on a piece of bacon I smile to myself watching her from where I layed on the bed.

For the past month every Thursday we'd link up at hotels or my house and mix our energies.

Friday mornings were always depressing cause it was the start of another long week until I could see her again.

So I cherished thursdays, it was the only thing I had to look forward to during the week.

She was still with that droopy lip nigga but on thursdays I made sure she forgot about his existence.

I was feeling a way about her still being with him but I sat back and played my position cause I still had kb on the side myself.

She was feeling a way about that too but never voiced it cause I never spoke on her and dude.

"Why you looking at me like that" She smiles furrowing her eyebrows as she walks out the bathroom.

"Cause I love you" I smirk knowing what was coming next.

"I thought I told you to stop telling me that" She sighs rolling her eyes as she walks over to the side of the bed were her overnight bag sat.

"You don't love hearing me say it no more?"

"You know why I don't want you to say it" She mumbles dropping her towel so she could put on her scrubs.

"Aight you ain't gone never hear me say it again" I look away from her picking up a sausage from the plate of food that sat in front of me.

Looking up she was looking over her shoulder with a mug set on me.

"Make up ya mind nic" I laugh shaking my head.

"Don't say it while I'm still with him because you know I'll feel guilty if I say it back" She huffs putting her undergarments on.

"Then leave him" I speak firmly through gritted teeth.

"You know it's not that easy"

"If you say so, anyways I'm not gone be able to link with you next thursday. I already told somebody I was gone do something that day like a month ago"

"I already know who you talking about, cancel on her" She says in a demanding tone as she pulls her scrubs on.

"That's foul, I already told her I was gone do it way before we started this" I explain as she got all her things together.

"But you love me though right?" She scoffs shaking her head with a small chuckle.

"So I don't love you now because I promised somebody I was gone do something before we was even back on good terms?"

"No it's cool, I'll just enjoy the telly by myself" She shrugs nonchalantly but I seen straight through her.

"Aight bye" I wasn't about to kiss her ass, she was being unreasonable.

"I hate you sometimes" She rolls her eyes picking her phone up off the nightstand.

I could hear all in her voice that she was in her feelings, it really wasn't that big of a deal to me though she was just mad dramatic.

"I still love you"

"You sure do have a painful way of showing it" She mumbles as she walked past the bed to get to the door.

The door shut behind her and I shook my head, I could never please everybody.

No matter what I did it was never enough.

"Ashley make sure mrs. Johnson swallows her pills, I found about three of them under her pillow" I tell my now head nurse, she was usually the one assisting me when I treated patients.

"I really don't understand why she don't take them. I know she be in pain"

"Me either but we can't have her not taking her pills" I sigh reading over her health chart one more time.

"I'm gone make sure she take them, her next dosage should be 3 hours from now if you just gave her some"

"I did, I'm about to clock out though I'll see you sunday"

"Alright bye nic"

Putting mrs. Johnsons health chart in the small basket screwed onto the wall outside her door I turn on my heels walking down the long hall filled with doctors, patients, and visitors.

It had been a long day and I was too ready to go home.

After clocking out I went to the employee parking lot getting in my g63 Benz truck.

Sometimes it was still surreal that I had finally got my dream car. Everybody knew who bought it for me too except quavious, he didn't know anything about me and cardi.

He thought I just had good credit which I do, and was making monthly payments.

Backing out my parking spot I switched gears to drive pulling off.

I had so much on my mind today, I just wanted to take a hot shower and rest my brain.

Cardi had me feeling some type of way since earlier, I couldn't really focus on anything but the situation.

It wasn't even the fact that she couldn't link with me next thursday that had me bothered, it was the fact that she couldn't link because of her.

For some reason it made me feel like she was putting her before me and I couldn't stomach that possibility because that would mean I was losing her.

In the back of my head I knew that wasn't the case but I was still extremely fucking bothered.

I was still going to go to the hotel per usual though and just relax at the spa or something.

I don't know what she had to do for that girl that was so important but I hope it's worth it.

All I want is the same energy back, I never put quavious before her so why put ole girl over me?

I could careless that she told her she would do whatever it is for her months ago because if it was me in the same situation I would've found a way to cancel so that I could be with her.

That's the difference between us though I guess, she's always telling me she loves me but don't ever prove it when she needs to the most.

Can't blame nobody but myself though, I keep running back to her expecting things to be different but I always end up receiving the same results.

Foolish.