Dedicated to all of our fans! I seriously can't choose who to dedicate it to, because I'll be missing so many of you! Xx Niki

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Jake's POV

"Hey, babe," I smile into Cas's neck as I nip at it gently. She's officially been my girl for three weeks and two days, and I am jubilant. Yes, jubilant. It's lunchtime, and we're at our secret place again, as we do every school day at lunch.

"Well hello to you, too," she runs her hands through my hair a few times with a faint smile on her face, but her eyes seem distant and she grimaces.

"Is your back bothering you again?" Cas's been complaining of a sore back and headaches for a little while, but insists that it's nothing to worry about.

"Yeah, it's worse today I think."

"And the headaches? Have they gotten any better?"

"Not really." I sigh and pull back from the embrace enough so that I can look her in the eyes to show her I'm seriously concerned about her.

"Cas, it's been over a week. I'm really worried about you, okay? What do your parents say?"

"I told you already, Jake; Mom says the back pain's probably just cramps and Dad says he 'doesn't do the feminine talks.'"

"I know you've said that before, but how does that explain the headaches?" She sighs and I can tell she's about to argue but before she gets the chance, she kneels over. I jump up, startled, and throw my tray onto the ground.

"Cas!" She's vomiting, and sways slightly. I hold her with one arm and use the other to pull back her hair. My heart is pounding, and I grab my phone from my pocket when she finally stops puking and leans against me.

"I don't feel so...I'm dizzy...Oh God Jake, I..." Then my girl starts moaning and grabbing her belly. Suddenly there's blood and my heart stops.

"Shh, it's okay. It's going to be okay, baby girl." My hands are shaking as I dial 911.

"911, what's your emergency?"

"It's my girlfriend, she, shit she's throwing up and grabbing her belly and there's blood everywhere. I need an ambulance now."

"Sir, I need you to try to remain calm. Where are you?" I explain where we are to the man on the other line, and he says he is sending an ambulance over now.

"Cas, stay with me, baby girl, it's okay. You're going to be okay. I've got you and I love you so much."

"Jake..." she moans and a sob catches in my throat.

"Hang in there, Cas, the ambulance is on its way." I dial my mom's cell and let out a gasp of relief when she answers.

"Jake, is everything okay? I'm teaching-"

"Cas...ambulance on way...lots of blood...hospital, please come to the hospital...so much blood..." I hear the sirens in the background as Cas continues to bleed and thrash in my arms.

"Jake?" My mom says into the phone, "it's going to be okay. I'm leaving now, and will meet you at the hospital. I'll be there as soon as possible. Do you want me to stay on the line?"

Cas's moans mash with my sobs as the sirens get louder as they come closer.

"Yes, please."

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It's two o'clock when the doctor comes out with news about Cas. I'm in the waiting room with my mom, Chris, and Mary; the latter two holding onto each other for support. This is all too familiar.

"Cassie Waters?" We jump up and the doctor makes his way to us. He takes in our blood-shot eyes, and his gaze fills with sympathy as his eyes linger on me.

Fuck.

"Who is the family?"

"We are her parents, but you can say anything to all of us," Chris says and I'm both grateful and terrified. Mom grasps my hand, and I notice we're both shaking.

"Is she okay?" I croak.

"Yes, Cassie is going to be okay," the doctor responds. I let out a huge breath before I realize he has more to say.

"However," my mom's hand tightens once more. "I am very sorry to say the baby did not make it. I am afraid Cassie has had a miscarriage."

"Baby?" I whisper.

"Yes. Cassie was seven weeks pregnant. I am very sorry for your loss."

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A/N

Question of the chapter: What is your biggest fear?

Pst...Sorry for the sucky chapter:(..Better ones to come!

Xx Niki