I wrote countless goodbye letters

And I will probably write

Countless more

I emptied out so many liquor bottles

I stopped counting a long time ago

Counting the thoughts in my brain

That make me not want to stay

Saying that I will

Saying that I might

Trying to stop the time

Just so I could decide

Counting people's steps

Everytime they walk away

After they had counted

All my flaws

Saying I'm too much to bare

So why shouldn't I push you away

So the counting can stop

Before it's too late