i could never stop loving you

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A year ago from this moment, Taeyeon wouldn't care.

She wouldn't care about the consequences of her actions.

She wouldn't care who would get hurt and if she herself would get hurt.

And all of those changed when she walked in her life, demanding to release her father before she blows Taeyeon's brains off.

She was different.

From all the whores and sluts she's taken to bed, the bastards she's threatened to kill and anyone she's ever known to be acquainted with.

She challenged her, wasn't scared of Taeyeon.. did all the impossible things.. including loving her as she was.

"Taeyeon-ah."

Taeyeon looked up from her desk where she was working, "Yes, Yoon?" her previous frown, changing into a smile at the sight of Yoona.

Yoona takes a seat infront of her desk, fishing out a small envelope from her jacket and handing it to Taeyeon whose features immediately changed into one of concern, sensing the distress in Yoona's energy.

"What is this?" She asks, as she opens it, taking out a letter tainted— wait, tainted?

With blood?

Taeyeon looks up to Yoona and sees an expression that mirrors hers; worry and fear.

"Have you read it?" Taeyeon asked Yoona, who shook her head.

"I was about to," she answers, gnawing on her lip and Taeyeon nods.

She braces herself for the worse when she opens the letter, a strand of blone hair falling down to her desk when she opens it.

Your Hyoyeonie here, is quite the woman she is, huh?

Don't worry, I'll train her for your stupid little Son Nyeo Shi Dae mob and bring her back to you..

I'm not sure in one piece though.

Have a good day, Lim Yoona, Kim Taeyeon. Tell Jessica Jung I say hi.

And a red heart that looked suspiciously like blood was next to it.

After reading it, Taeyeon felt something stirring up within her, a mix between fear aTaeyeon . She clenches her fist as her eyes find the blonde strands that had scattered on her desk.

"Have you told them?"

"Not yet."

Taeyeon's jaw clenches, as well as Yoona.

-

"We can tell them later, okay Taengs?" Yoona backhugs the older, who leans into her hold.

"I'm just... I don't know." Taeyeon sighs, "I don't think I want this life anymore."

Yoona expected it.

Taeyeon was starting to get less dedicated to her work, started saving up more. Less killings, tortures.

"Yeah?" She probes Taeyeon to go ahead.

"After all this.. I'll tell you." Taeyeon chooses to answer instead, "but for now.." She turns around, placing her hands on Yoona's hips, guiding her to the couch. "I wanna cuddle and nap.."

Yoona chuckles, "okay, you overgown baby." she snuggles into Taeyeon's chest, breathing in the older's calming scent.

"We can tell them later.." Taeyeon murmurs before her eyes give up on her and she falls asleep.

-

"Well.." Sunkyu trails off, throwing the letter on the table after she's had her round of reading it. "I sure as hell is not going to be the one telling Jessica about this." if you think she's joking, she's definitely not.

Sooyoung rolls her eyes, "of course not. Can't have the princess dying on us."

Sunkyu frowns, "is that sarcasm?"

Tiffany sighs, "Girls!" She raises her voice, "we have a lot more important matters to address. Like, I don't know? Rescuing Hyoyeon before that LOXE bastard kills her?" She sarcastically asks, raising her left eyebrow in a sassy way.

Ahh.. Always had been the dramatic one.

"Drama queen's got a point." Yuri says, not even bothered by the glare Tiffany directed on her. "Hyoyeon's not going to break. That tough bitch. She'd rather die than submit."

Yoona puts both hands on the table, "We know, Yuls." She sighs, then looks behind her at Taeyeon, who gives her a reassuring look. "But the first step, as Sunkyu had implied, is telling Jessica first. She might have left our group already, but Hyoyeon's her girlfriend and she still cares about us."

Taeyeon nods in agreement.

"But," she emphasizes, "there's a reason she's called the Ice Princess on the streets. She's going to rage when she finds out. She's reckless when angry."

"This is why I'm not going to tell her, Juhyun can go." Sunkyu comments and then drops Juhyun under the bus, the peaceful young woman who has kept her mouth shut throughout the meeting, glares at Sunkyu and opens her mouth to retort something.

"Well, since you're so hell-bent on not going, why don't you go!" Juhyun hisses.

"I already said I'm not going!"

Taeyeon rolls her eyes, probably the fifth time she's done this ever since she's called the meeting, "and since you're both morons, why don't you two go?" She casts an irritated look at them.

The others immediately agree, leaving Sunkyu and Juhyun defenceless.

"This is not fair!" Sunkyu whines, stomping her feet.

Juhyun tries to throw a shoe at Sunkyu, where she got it, I don't know. "You always drag me into your mess!"

Yet the older dodges it and sticks out her tongue at Juhyun.

"How mature." Yuri drily comments.

-

A little while later, Jessica stomps her way in So Nyeo Shi Dae's hideout, with Juhyun and Sunkyu silently trailing after her.

The door to the meeting room where the other girls had been hanging out, slams open, the door making contact with the wall behind, a loud sound echoing around the room.

The girls didn't even flinch, having expected it from Jessica.

"Once all this shit is over, Hyoyeon and I are quitting this fucking gang and moving out of this damned country." She hisses, putting down her gun on the table.

Sunkyu and Juhyun quietly get in the room, pale and traumatized with what they've been through, with Jessica.

Taeyeon claps her hands, "Great! We're all here!" Yoona hands her a file, "now.. My Yoona here has a great plan."

The others try not to cringe at the PDA.

Jessica however, ignores it. "And that is?"

"Simple; ee go in, have a few men of ours fight his goons. We go where he keeps Hyoyeon and decapitate his head!" Yoona smiles widely, proud of her plan.

"Great plan." Yuri comments.. dry.

"What?" Yoona asks, an ignorant expression on her face. "Loxie is a dumb bitch. We don't need an extravagant plan to outsmart her. We'd be wasting our brain cells on her." She rolls her eyes.

"Ouch. I'm not even Loxie, but that hurt." Tiffany winces.

"True." Sunkyu purses hrr lips, shaking her head, as if mock-pitying Loxie.

Jessica sighs, the girls haven't changed at all, it was a good thing but Hyoyeon..

"When do we leave?"

"Right now, of course." Sooyoung says, pulling out a dagger from her waist. "She thinks we'd be concocting a super smart plan right now and will attack in a few days or something. If wr attack now, we take them off guard!" She claps happily. "And we get to decapitate heads!"

"What is it with the decapitating?" Yuri sighs.

As usual.. Everyone ignores her remarks.

They get up, leaving the room to get ready.

-

"What kind of plan is this?!" Hyoyeon shrieks as she gets dragged by Jessica.

"It was Yoona's." Jessica answers, sitting Hyoyeon down on the ground, taking a dagger out from her boots, cutting the ropes off of Hyoyeon, who rubs her wrist once she's off.

Hyoyeon scoffs, still rubbing her red wrist. "Of course."

"Come on, Sooyoung's with the van, they're waiting outside for us." Then Jessica grabs a gun from her waist and hands it to Hyoyeon, "after this.. you're quitting. We can live a life in America, you could pursue dance, I know a guy who owns a studio there."

"And you decide this without me?" Hyoyeon glares at Jessica, as she gets up from the ground.

Jessica starts walking, both her hands on her gun, firmly gripping it. "I don't need to, I know this was what you were thinking when you got abducted."

Hyoyeon scoffs, again. "Whatever." Yet was endeared that Jessica knew her that well.

They find the van, Hyoyeon gets in first, and then Jessica. Once they got in, Jessica suddenly notices someone was missing.

"We all got here earlier, waiting for you two, but then Yoona was missing, so Taeyeon went back." Yuri explains, leaning on her seat. She had a few cuts and gashes on her face but still looked relaxed.

Jessica nodded.

-

Good news;

Taeyeon found Yoona.

Bad news;

She was badly bleeding.

Taeyeon immediately rushed to Yoona's side, taking off her jacket to cover the wound on the younger's stomach.

"Oh my god." Taeyeon gasps, when she saw the blood pooling underneath Yoona. "Don't fucking lose conscious." She wipes a stray tear from her eyes, and then puts her hands underneath Yoona's body, in order to carry her.

The younger kept on coughing, gasping as she tried to get a few words out.

"Don't." Taeyeon firmly states, trying to fight back her emotions, speed walking to the direction the van was.

The door to the van immediately opens when the girls saw them, they gasp when they see Yoona's condition, Jessica gets out from the back to get in shotgun where Taeyeon jad originally intended to sit but now, she wanted to be as close as possible to Yoona.

The girls try to make space for Yoona, scooting as far as they could.

"Come on! Get in! I planted a few bombs around the lot, we need to go now! Besides, I don't think Yoona will last long if you keep taking long!" Sooyoung growls from the driver's seat, Taeyeon glares at her but does so anyway.

And they leave the place just as the bombs started to explode all over.

"Guys.. Is it a bad time to say.." Sunkyu suddenly speaks up, making everyone's attention go to her. Then she raises her hand holding Loxie's decapitated head.

Tiffany groans, "seriously?!"

"Great!" Sooyoung sighs as she drives faster, past the speed limit. "More blood on my van."

-

Months later..

Yoona survives.

Of course she does.

Yet Taeyeon was still worried.

Worried so much that she decided to quit on the gang.

Yoona sighs, leaning her head on Taeyeon's shoulder. "You know, you didn't have to."

Taeyeon shakes her head, "It's not the ideal life that we both can safely settle down with, Yoona."

"I'm content as long as I'm with you, Taeyeon-ah." Yoona breathes out, "Besides, we were both born in that kind of life.."

"I was born into this. You, however, were forced into this by your uncle." Taeyeon lifts her hand up to caress Yoona's hair.

Yoona rolls her eyes, yet leans more on Taeyeon's shoulder.

"I just can't lose you okay." Taeyeon murmurs, "and you worry a lot whenever I'm out doing gangly stuff. This is a win-win situation, Yoona-ah. We don't worry about each other anymore once we're in America."

Taeyeon feels Yoona smile on her shoulder, "Taeyeon-ah.. Earlier, you said settle down."

"Hmm?" Taeyeon feels a smile creeping on her face.

"Does it mean you want to marry me?"

"And have kids with you.. How does 3 boys and 2 girls sound?" Taeyeon pulls her right hand away from Yoona's hair and uses her left hand to clasp Yoona's right hand.

"It sounds really good.."

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even if i wanted to, i could never.