"You can sleep in here." I explained as I opened the door to the bedroom that was end the end of the hall. "I have nothing to change in to." Carter says awkwardly as he shuffles in to the room. I pointed to the closet that was at the end of the bed to the left of the room and said before closing the door, "There's some in the closet. Help

yourself." Quickly turning around, I headed back downstairs to wash up the teacups and teapot before heading to bed. I picked up the tray and went to the sink in the kitchen and started doing the dishes. After I placed them in the tray to let them out to dry, I let out heavy sigh while leaning against the counter with my hands.

Why did I do that? I honestly don't know. My brain can barely process what was happening and also the arms wrapping around my waist. I wanted, with all my heart, to struggle from his grip. But right at that moment, with my mind spinning and not sure what to do anymore, I deserved the comfort of my mate.

Even if it was just once.

Letting out deep breath, I leaned against my mate and placed one of my hands on top of his as he nuzzled his face in to the crook of my neck; inhaling my scent deeply as though it would be his last. His chest vibrated against my back as he spoke softly, "You ok love?" Turning my head slightly to the left, I tucked my head under his chin as I mumbled, "I am now." The sparks that I felt from him, gave me reassurance and calmed my heart as well as my wolf. "Want to talk about it?" Carter asked with concern laced in his voice. I shook my head slightly as a sign to him that I didn't. Carter pulled away from me and before I could ask him why- I don't know why I wanted to ask I just did- he gently grabbed my waist and led me towards the living room. As he sat on the couch, Carter pulled me down with him and wrapped his arm around my waist as I sat closely by his side. On instinct, I nestled my head against his chest where I could hear the beating of his heart that made me close my eyes shut as I draped my arm across his stomach.

It was bliss.

"I'm here if you ever need me Jess." Carter said softly against my hair. I let out a dry laugh as I replied, "You're here because you're stubborn." I pulled away from him and asked with my voice quiet, "Why are you here Carter? I thought you wanted to be rid of me and yet you were just holding me in your arms moments before." I faced Carter with my face weary and just tired. I asked him softly, "What do you want Carter?" Carter still had his arm around my waist as he spoke with his eyes were swirling with emotion, "I want to be with my mate."

Letting out a frustrated sigh, I ran my hand through my hair as I hissed out, "For the last time, I'm not your mate." Putting an arm around my shoulder, he whispered while leaning his forehead against mine, "Yes, you are." Closing my eyes, I shook my head as I pulled away from him and said while clenching my hands together on my lap, "I can't." My eyes met with his as he grasped my chin with his fingers as he spoke the words that left my heart miss a beat.

Gazing deep in to my eyes, he said while stroking my cheek gently as the arm around my shoulder made its way to hold my hand on my lap, "I love you Jesse. From the moment I met you I thought you would be special and it turns out, you are. You are my mate and I'm sorry for rejecting you on your birthday. I was only thinking of your safety because being an Alpha has its faults. They would see that I was this brick wall with no emotion and having a mate," He trailed off as he watched to see how I would react but I already knew what I was to him.

A nuisance.

With my heart heavy, I pulled away from him and stood up to get away and hide in my room for the remainder of the night. "Jess?" he asked as I walked out of the living room but I couldn't answer him. Why should I? I was obviously just a loose thread he didn't need and would probably be cut off by scissors as a way of cutting me out from his life. I stopped walking in the middle of the hallway as a hand grabbed my wrist and gently asked, "What's wrong love?"

Swallowing a lump, I shook my head and only mumbled out as I made my way to my room, "Just tired." Closing it shut and locking it, I kept my hand on the doorknob and the other on the door as tears streamed down my cheeks.

Being mated to Carter was probably the biggest mistake the moon goddes could have ever made. He probably didn't like to show weakness and having a mate would make enemies find his vulnerability if anything were to happen to me. Keeping me in check, making sure I was safe, Carter didn't need to do that. He's an Alpha and had a pack to take care of. I can take care of myself but an Alpha is very protective of their mate regardless if she could defend herself when threatened.

He wouldn't need to worry anymore.

As the clock ticked by and chimed till it waa midnight, I packed up my bag and creeped out of my room and walked through the hallway. Wrapping my hand around the doorknob, I walked out of the house and in to the night air as my heart grew hollow when the distance between me and my mate grew by the second.

I had to leave since he didn't see my as an equal. He only saw me as a person who was like a playing card to him. Just toss me in to the pile and I'll go away but come back during every turn. Shifting my bag in to place on my shoulder, I walked further in to the forest and turned back to look at the house one last time. At the top floor, there was light coming from the room Carter was staying in. I hesitated at my choice and planned to go back but, what good would it do?

Shaking my head at any ideas that were coming to mind, I continued forward just as I fell to the ground with my head spinning before black spots covered my vision.

The last thing I heard before I was lost was, "Finally. We'll be together forever Susan. I promise."