Everything was different feeling. And yet nothing was different. I sat in the kitchen as Finn was making me something to eat. His face contorted into a look of deep thought. Kol and Nik were sitting on either side of me while Elijah was standing on the other side of the counter across from me. I felt surrounded. It was nice- but a bit suffocating at the moment.

I was still angry at them. Especially now that I knew the story. My mother going to them and wanting them to keep it from me. They agreed to it. I realize it was my mom who wanted them to not tell me who I was. But my Soulmates should have been the ones to do what was right.

They bonded with me- without me even knowing who I was. How could I even be legitimately bonded to them if I wasn't even who I was supposed to be.

"Nik?" My voice broke the silence pulling all of their attention even if I was only talking to Nik.

"Yes, love?" Nik asked with a small smile.

"How did it feel when you didn't have your wolf side?" I asked him, causing his smile to drop nearly instantly. All of my mates seemed to have lost their smile. Finn turning back to cooking so he didn't have to witness this moment.

"I- what do you mean?" Nik asked, unsure how to even answer me.

"Well you at least knew who you were- knew what was locked away. I was just wondering, how it felt. To know you had another side and not being able to release it." I reworded. Kol cleared his throat from behind me, probably running dry from nerves for his own brother. They all knew that I was upset with them at this moment. Less so at Finn- I saw how much he didn't want that.

"I- I wasn't happy." Nik admitted. "Octavia I'm sorry." Nik tried, frowning as he pushed out his puppy dog eyes. Like he was trying to get me to forgive him easily.

"It's alright." I shrugged, standing up. Nik's eyebrows furrowed as they all looked up at me, confused. Shocked. But most of all, relieved.

"Really?" Kol asked, not even trying to hide the shock in his voice. I smiled, turning to look at him.

"Well I can't be upset forever. But-" I came up to Finn, wrapping my arms around his torso as he faced away from me. "I can make you suffer." I felt Finn stiffen in my hold. I didn't have to turn around to see the looks they all shared. "I mean it's only fair- right?" I questioned when no one spoke up.

"I-sweetheart.." Kol tried. I released Finn, facing the others with a small smirk on my face.

"I'll be in my room. Finn will you bring me my food?" I asked sweetly causing him to turn to look at me.

"Of course, Princess." Finn agreed. I smiled before leaving the kitchen and heading up the stairs on my own. I moved around my room, changing into something more comfortable. I had no idea who had washed me up and changed me after the accident but the shorts and tank top was not what I wanted at the moment. Tearing the tank top over my head and finding a nightgown I had gotten at a lingerie shop.

Gold satin covered my body. Caroline actually had helped me pick it out. Sighing, I moved to my bed as I waited for Finn to come in. My fingers ran along the soft fabric that showed off my every curve. I felt like it had been forever since I had been with any of my mates. Even if it hadn't been that long really at all. My eyes closed as I imagined it was one of them running their fingers along my body.

"Octavia?" My eyes snapped open to Finn's breathy tone. My hands had hiked my nightgown up considerably and his hazel eyes were heatedly scanning over my smooth legs that led up to a treasure he yearned for. I watched as he gripped the plate in his hand. His eyes moving up my legs to my torso, before moving further up my body until his eyes met mine.

"Finn.." I breathed out. His name coming out as a soft moan as my fingers slid along my thighs. His eyes darkening as my leg moved up to allow myself a better angle as my fingers found my center. I stared at him as I ran my fingers along my folds. His eyes flickering between my eyes and my fingers. His mind seemed to be trying to figure out what to do. What I wanted. Wondering if this was his punishment for keeping something from me- or if he was even meant to be here for this.

I watched as his eyes darkened to a near black color- which was a major change from his green swampy hazel eyes that I loved. The veins trailing out of his eyes, displaying his inner struggle to contain himself. He placed the plate down before turning away from me. Seemingly taking a deep breath. Which apparently didn't help since he stiffened at the smell of my arousal. My head tilted to the side as he went over to his dresser, pulling something out before turning back to me.

That was when I noticed he had released control to his inner self. His eyes showed that he was giving in to any thoughts in his mind as he walked over to me. Grabbing my hand that was about to slide into me, he held it up before tying it to the bedpost.

"Finn-" I whined as I arched my back, needing some kind of friction. My other hand went to touch myself but he grabbed that one next, tying it to the other side of the post. My eyes flickered to his, watching as he took in my vulnerable position he had just placed me into.

"Octavia.." Finn whispered as he dragged the back of his fingers along my side. Following the curve of my breast down my ribs to my hip. My lips parting as the goosebumps spreading in his trail. His fingers were warm and light- leaving a trail of cold. His eyes flicked from where his fingers were admiring me to my eyes. A smile spreading across his sweet full lips. "Now you can't hide your need for me." My eyebrows furrowed in confusion before he reached over to lift a hand mirror to my face. My eyes showing an eclipse of emotion. Clouds of lust moving by.

"Are you just going to admire me?" I asked in a teasing tone. His eyes darkened. His hand coming down and smacking against my thigh. A moan of surprise leaving my lips at the impact. His eyes left mine to look at the light red that blended into my caramel skin.

"Admire? No." Finn looked back up at me, a smirk on his lips that made him look a bit more sadistic than he usually looked. He walked around to the foot of the bed, grabbing my foot gently before rubbing his fingers into my calf. "I'm going to worship you." I bit my bottom lip to hold in the moan from his words alone. "I'm going to show you how much you mean to me-" His finger nail slid down my inner calf. Causing a small drop of blood to pull out of a small slice. His eyes on it before he leaned down and dragged his tongue flat against it. "I'm going to make you never want to run again." He told me with determination. Pressing kisses along my leg as he looked up at me.

"I'm going to show you just how much I love you."