"Okay girls-"

"Women," Vanessa said cutting me off. "Close the door and try again."

I glanced at Jasmine who nodded and gave her a high five. "Honestly where have you been all my life?" She smiled at Vanessa.

"Oh my- why do I lowkey ship?" I squinted staring at both of them and then I gasped. "Oh fuck, imagine how hot the sex between you two would be."

Jasmine gasped. "Oh fuck, imagine how hot our threesomes would be."

My eyes widened and I smiled. "Really?"

They looked at each other and then started to laugh. "Oh Y/n, that would never happen." Vanessa laughed out.

"Ah that's hilarious." Jasmine wiped away an imaginary tear.

I scoffed. "Don't act brand new in front of Vanessa Jazzy."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Vanessa hummed.

"Oh nothing, it's just that Jasmine is pretending like she wouldn't sleep with me." I chuckled walking towards my bed as Jasmine rolled her eyes.

"Oh shit, no way Jay," she smacked Jasmines shoulder. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Why would she tell you about the sex she has with me- why would she tell you about her sex life at all?" I frowned laying on my back between them.

"First, the sex life we had," Jasmine said putting emphasis on had. "And second, that's just what we talk about, our friendship started because we were talking about sex." Jasmine shrugged grabbing her phone.

I turned and laid on my stomach propping my head up on my hands. "Ah sex, the beginning and ending of millions of friendships."

Jasmine chuckled and leaned towards Vanessa. "I didn't tell you about it because it wasn't exciting."

I scoffed. "Bullshit, maybe the first time wasn't all that but-"

"Wait, how many times have you two had sex?" Vanessa asked sitting up straighter and crossing her legs.

"Um," Jasmine glanced at me. "Well are we talking about every round or every separate time we've had sex?"

I chuckled as Vanessa gaped. "Oh wow, I definitely want to know now."

"I can just show you." I shrugged.

She frowned. "You mean you'll fuck her while I watch or you'll fuck me the way you fucked her?"

I looked down then back up at her. "Yes."

Jasmine shook her head. "I'll tell you all about it later."

I nodded. "Yeah tell her later because I have something to tell you two." Vanessa raised a brow and I continued."I just wanted to let you both know that I love you two sooo fucking much." I said.

Vanessa frowned. "What'd you do?"

I chuckled. "Nothing, I was just downstairs talking to Quincy and eating my cheesecake, because I knew if I brought it up here her greedy ass would start begging." I nodded towards Jasmine.

She smacked me and rolled her eyes. "Stop being a selfish hoe."

I chuckled. "But seriously, we were talking and then I started to think about how happy and safe and...good you two make me feel and I just wanted to say I love you because I don't say it a lot," I shrugged. "I mean, not as much as I love Quincy because the only people I love more than him are my brother and my mom but, you two are a close fourth and fifth."

Vanessa smiled softly. "I'll take it, I love you too Y/nn."

Jasmine shook her head. "I won't, who comes first?"

"Well, the order of my love goes Travis, mom, Quincy, and then you two." I said

"Yeah but which one of us is fourth?" Jasmine asked.

Oof...

I looked at Vanessa and then back at Jasmine and shook my head. "Nope, I will not answer that."

"Why not?" Vanessa asked.

"Because my answer would probably start world war three." I said.

Honestly, I can't put one of them over the other. I love them both...differently so I can't really compare it. I'm pretty sure I want to marry one of them and the other I can't live without so their both on their on level of love.

"But we need to know Y/n." Jasmine said.

I gulped. "Um- you see love is a crazy thing and I love a lot of things like cheesecake um life, you know the important stuff and I-"

"Y/n," Quincy burst into my room out of breath. "I think Travis broke his arm come quick." I quickly jumped up.

"What happened?" Jasmine asked standing up and quickly putting on her shoes with Vanessa following her actions.

"Don't worry, I just need Y/n you two stay here and talk about girly stuff." He rushed out.

I smirked slightly as it dawned on me what he was doing and I jogged out of the room. Quincy is such a good best friend. Walking downstairs I spotted Travis in the living room playing on my PS4 and sat on the couch next to him. "Watch your back." I said pointing at the TV.

Quincy came downstairs and sat next to me. "Saved by the Q."

I threw my arm over his shoulder and sighed. "Thanks, I was really about to have a panic attack."

He shook his head. "You can't say stuff like that and expect them not to ask questions, especially Jasmine."

I nodded. "Yeah I should've worded that better."

He shook his head. "Who do you love the-"

"Next question." I cut him off.

"I know who she loves the most." Travis cut in still focusing on the game.

I scoffed. "You don't even know who were talking about."

"Yeah but, dammit," he said as he died. "Their cheating."

Quincy and I chuckled as I shook my head. See if my mom were here I would've pretended to be disappointed in him but, when he's with me I let him say whatever because well, I'm his cool big sister.

"Anyways," he looked up at me.

"You love Jaz the most, the way you look at her is the way I think I look when I'm staring at my Belle." He shrugged and started up another match.

"Wow, I swear he's a thirty year old man trapped in a ten year olds body." Quincy chuckled.

I frowned. "But he's eight."

Quincy nodded. "Exactly."

I shook my head and chuckled. Okay maybe I have a tiny crush on Jasmine but, I know I'm not in love with her... I hope.

Dammit I need to stop catching feelings.

"Travis you broke her," Quincy said. "Okay let's take your mind off of that, I have news." I nodded for him to continue.

"Um, I'm going on a date tonight." He said.

My eyes widened. "I hope your not going on a date with the guy you cheated on Jasmine with."

Travis gasped. "Your gay?" Quincy nodded and Travis shook his head. "I called it- wait, you cheated on Jaz?"

I nodded. "Yup he made her cry."

Travis frowned. "You don't deserve to be gay."

I laughed looking at Quincy. "Continue."

He chuckled. "Um no, that guy is just a friend," he shrugged. "You remember that party we went to for the models?"

I nodded. "Yeah with Gigi and Zayn?"

He nodded. "I met him there."

I frowned. "You were with Jasmine the whole time though."

He bit his lip and looked down. "Yes I was, Jimmie was the guy I thought was valet."

"Jimmie? I thought you were in love with Toby."

He sighed. "That's a story for another day."

I shook my head. "Well, tell me how you and Jimmie happened."

He chuckled. "Well when I came back after parking the car he hit me with the lamest pick up line."

I nodded. "What'd he say?"

"He said, before you get in I need your name and number, and I was confused as to why he needed my number and then he said, oh the number isn't needed for the party but, if you want to get pass me I'll need your number." Quincy smiled.

I cooed. "Continue."

"So I asked him how he would stop me from getting into the party and he said, well I probably wouldn't be successful but I'd definitely make it my goal for the night to get your number, and then he smiled at me and I think I fell in love." Quincy sighed leaning back into the couch.

"Wow, that sounds like a Wattpad love story." I smiled.

He nodded. "I know right, so I gave him my number and we've been talking for a while and he finally asked me out."

I nodded. "Well, I'm happy for you," I paused. "Your not going to be scared to let people see the both of you together right?"

He shook his head. "Fuck no, I'm not leading anyone on again."

I nodded. "Good, you learned your lesson."

"Oh you fucking liars," Vanessa said walking into the living room with Jasmine following. "I thought Travis broke his arm."

"Nope I'm fine." Travis said smiling.

Oh you traitor.

Quincy gulped. "Well, technically I said I think Travis broke his arm."

I nodded and pointed at Quincy. "Right, think means he wasn't sure."

"Uh huh, come back upstairs with us." Jasmine glared at Quincy and walked upstairs.

I looked at Quincy who was already looking at me. "Don't do it." He mouthed.

I looked up as Vanessa walked up to me and gripped the bottom of my shirt. "Coming?"

"Um," I bit my lip and stared into her eyes. "I-I, yeah I will I guess."

"Come on then." She smiled and walked out of the living room.

I cleared my throat and crossed my heart. "I'm going in."

He nodded slowly and blew me a kiss. "I'll miss you."

Sighing I walked upstairs and into my room. When I walked in I saw Jasmine and Vanessa on my bed and they were...

Watching Netflix, that's all. Vanessa was sitting between Jasmines legs with her back resting against Jasmines chest.

"Ohh Cat in the Hat." I smiled nervously and sat at the foot of my bed.

"Mhm amazing movie, come here." Jasmine said opening her arms.

I bit my lip and walked around the bed and sat next to Jasmine. "We're not going to do anything to you dummy," Vanessa said looking back from her position. "Stop acting like a pussy."

"You are what you eat." I shrugged.

"So that's why your such an ass." Jasmine said.

"Oh my God, you didn't tell me she ate you ass too." Vanessa gasped.

Jasmine laughed and I shook my head. "You shouldn't put God and- whatever, Jazzy your birthday is in a month."

"Oh shit, I forgot all about that." She chuckled.

"We should have a friend day, I know you don't like being around a lot of people so it should just be you and your closest friends." Vanessa suggested.

I nodded resting my head on Jasmines shoulder. "That is a good idea, let's talk in private later Nessa."

Jasmine nodded. "Yeah I want to be surprised but, I like that idea."

"Of course you do, I came up with it." Vanessa scoffed.I went to talk and got cut off by Vanessa's phone ringing. "Hello," She said picking it up without looking at the caller ID. "Summer, I thought we were going to talk later." My heart dropped and Vanessa stood up looking at me and then she frowned. "Okay hold on, um guys I have to go I'll call you when I get home." She smiled picking up her purse and shoes then walking out of my room.

"Well then," I chuckled. "Let's watch something else."

"You cool?" Jasmine asked.

I nodded. "Of course I am."

-

"Yeah but that's really good." I smiled softly walking into my house.

"Yeah um, who's house did you leave from when I called?" Summer asked.

"Y/n's and before you ask yes she's okay." I chuckled throwing my keys onto the table.

"You said that like I ask about her every time I call." I smiled as I could sense her rolling her eyes.

"Because you do," I said. "But that's reasonable you are in love with her."

She sighed. "Yeah, I still feel like shit."

"You should, you threw me under the bus you ass." I said sitting down on a stool.

"I know Nessa and when I get back I will do everything I can to make it up to you, I promise." She said.

I sighed and looked down at the table. "I really miss you, I mean the longest we've been away from each was a month and now your gone for three and half more months," I shook my head. "How am I supposed to survive without you?"

I heard her shift. "You don't need me to survive you got this," she said. "Just, keep marking off the days on your calendar and I'll be back before you know it."

I swallowed thickly. "The nightmares are back."

She sighed. "I figured that and I'm kind of happy they are."

"Well fuck you too." I scoffed.

She chuckled. "Shut up I didn't mean it like that I just- you don't realize how many people care about you and I hate when your scared and in pain but maybe your problems will help you let people in."

I bit my lip and nodded. "Yeah, I kind of let Y/n in last week."

"That's who I was hoping you'd go to," she said. "You didn't tell her about David did you?"

I shook my head. "Of course I didn't Summer, Y/n would go fucking crazy and try to hurt him and David's dangerous. I mean I'd rather keep putting myself in danger than to let Y/n interfere and end up getting hurt."

"Yeah I completely understand." She whispered.

We both went silent and got lost in our thoughts. I would love to tell Y/n about everything going on with David but, I can't, I can't tell anyone because if I do I'm pretty sure I'll "mysteriously" end up dead.

I heard someone banging at my door and I jumped up. "Hey call me tonight before you go to sleep okay?"

"Yeah, I love you." She said.

"I love you too Summer." I hung up walking up to my door and looking through the peep hole. My heart dropped and I let out a shaky breath.

"I know your in there Vanessa, open this damn door now!" He yelled.

Speak of the devil and he shall appear.