"Give it heree Y/n." Vanessa whined reaching for the remote.

"No, the hell I look like watching Switched at birth?" I pushed her back and she groaned.

"Please?" I shook my head as I scrolled through Netflix. She huffed and then smirked.

"Please don't do that."

"What?"

"Smirk, that means your up to something." She hummed and climbed onto my lap making me jump. "See what are you doing?"

"Getting the remote-"

I tucked the remote behind me and tilted my head. "What remote?"

She rolled her eyes and placed her hands on my shoulders. "Come on baby let me watch-"

"Fuck off."

She pouted. "Really?"

I nodded and looked up at the ceiling as she "shifted". I gripped her waist and glared at her.

"Nessa stop."

She frowned actually grinding her hips this time. "Stop what? I was just thinking about how fun it'll be when we go on tour." She flipped her hair over her shoulder and hummed bouncing a bit.

Lord help me.

"Sharing a hotel room-"

"W-with Travis, my brother will be in the room with us." I gulped avoiding eye contact.

She cupped my cheeks and raised a brow. "All the time?"

Man, I've seen so many pornos start like this.

"I would um hope so-" She placed her hand on my thigh and gripped it. "Well he really likes Saiyr so maybe he'll be with her s-sometimes."

She nodded and moved her hand towards my...no no spot.

"Well," she leaned closer to my face. "Maybe we can continue this then."

I frowned as she jumped off of me with the remote in her hand. "Nessa, what the hell?"

She clicked on her show and chuckled. "What?"

I looked down at the tent in my shorts and then back at her. "Y-you can't just blue ball me like that."

She glanced down at my lap and hummed.

"Hmmm? The fuck is a hmmm?"

She shrugged. "Go to the bathroom and handle that."

"Come with me?"

She chuckled. "I prefer sex in bed."

I snatched the remote away and threw it onto the floor. She raised a brow and turned to me.

"We can stay right here," I gripped her waist and pulled her to straddle me again. "If your down."

She bit her lip. "I've been down for too long."

She smashed her lips onto mine and fuck, everything tingled. Every time we kiss it's different but, this time I felt everything. Lust, need...maybe possibly the L word but who knows?

I gently laid Vanessa onto her back keeping our lips connected. She moaned softly wrapping her legs around my waist and pulling my torso down onto hers. I gripped her thigh as she grabbed the end of my shirt tugging at it.

I disconnected our lips and pulled off my shirt before quickly sealing them again. She placed her hand on my stomach as I broke the kiss and trailed my lips down her neck.

"Y/n no foreplay I need you."

I nodded and before I knew it we were both naked with me now on my back.

"Y/n." She whispered.

I ran my fingers up her bare thigh as she leaned down. "Yeah?"

"Y/n."

I started to get confused. "What?"

"Y/nnn." She drug out my name and I almost cried as I realized what was going on.

This better not be a fucking-

I felt a sharp sting on my cheek and I jumped up. Vanessa was standing over me smirking and I felt the tears build up in my eyes.

NOOOOO!

"Were you moaning?"

I looked down at the cover and quickly grabbed a pillow quickly wiping away the tear that fell. "Um, no?"

Wait, nothing even happened was I seriously already moaning?

"Y/n your boner is huge." She laughed.

I rolled my eyes as my face got warm.

Ughhh fourth wet dream this week. I don't get why these wet dreams are just now appearing. I scratched my head and looked over at the closed door.

"Who was it about this time-"

I cut her off and got out of bed quickly walking towards the bathroom. "No one, don't worry um, wait for me downstairs yeah?"

I went to close the door but her fast ass stopped me. "You avoiding me?"

"No."

Well, I'm not gonna lie, I've been avoiding being alone with her because I'm afraid one of us is gonna pounce. The sexual tension is fucking insane.

"Your lying, for the past week you've been avoiding being alone with me."

I sighed. "Maybe I just know how much time we'll be spending over tour-"

"Shut up, what's really going on?"

"I'm not ready for sex Vanessa." I blurted out.

She paused for a second and then burst into laughter. I smacked my lips as she shook her head. "W-what?!"

"Stop laughing."

She nodded and wiped her eyes with a huge smile on her face. "What are you talking about baby?"

I shrugged. "Okay, I'm so ready to have sex with you but...Imayormaynotbescared."

"Hmm?" She smiled softly.

"I'm scared."

She snickered and bit her lip. "You scared I'll bite?" I rolled my eyes and started to push her out of the door. "Wait no," she chuckled as I stopped. "Y/n there's no pressure for us to have sex I mean we haven't even gone out on a date and you still don't know if you want me or Jasmine so sex shouldn't be something your worrying about."

"But dammit mama I reallllyyy want you."

She nodded. "The sexual tension has been pretty thick."

"That's what I said."

She frowned. "When?"

"Oh, I said it in my head."

She laughed. "See you keep doing cute shit like that and then I want to kiss you," she shook her head. "Look if we ever decide to have sex before we both get our shit together then," she shrugged. "It happens but, I'm not expecting you to slam me onto the bed and fuck me like...welll." She bit her lip running her eyes down my body.

I shifted. "Stopp."

She chuckled. "Wait are you nervous too?"

"Not too, I'm scared because I'm nervous."

"Elaborate."

"Your Vanessa Moe, a fucking goddess, what if I'm not good."

She shook her head. "You weren't scared to get Jasmine pregnant, who is fucking gorgeous, so why are you so nervous-"

"I've slept with Jasmine before so the nerves are gone."

"Well, I'm flattered."

"You should be," I rolled my eyes. "Fucking cute ass."

She blushed and came closer to me. "Would it make you feel better if we went the traditional route or," she wrapped her arms around my neck. "If we just go with the flow?"

Ohhh.

"Um, I think going with the flow is more natural you know?"

She came closer smiling. "Mhmm."

"Like a period, you have a flow and that shit is natural why disturb the balance?"

She chuckled. "Come here."

I leaned down meeting her lips and of course, it was as if a bunch of tiny people in my stomach were celebrating the Fourth of July.

I ran my hands down Vanessa's back and wrapped my arms completely around her waist lifting her up a bit.

"Mmmm," she pulled away as I set her back down. "Shit that feeling never gets old."

"Tell me about it."

She wiped the lipstick off of my lips and bit hers. "I can't wait for tour by the way."

"Yeah?"

She nodded. "Yeah, especially with Travis gone since you know," she snickered. "He likes Saiyr so much." I threw my head back and groaned as she chuckled. "You talk a lot in your sleep and it's the cutest shit ever because you do a little whisper-"

"I don't careeeee get out."

She shook her head. "Noo I'm sorry baby."

"Bs, you keep making fun of me."

"Because it's fun," I raised a brow as she stared into my eyes. "Gosh, you really make everything better."

"What do you mean?"

She sighed and rested her head on my chest as I leaned back onto the counter and held her waist.

"Remember I told you about that meeting?" I nodded. "Well, it went great."

"So what's wrong."

She scoffed. "They wanted me to take some pictures and I did but...it didn't feel good, I didn't get that excitement or passion and that sucks. Being a model was my dream but, what's a dream that you're not passionate about."

I'm getting tired of something always ruining her happiness.

"Why are you passionate about modeling?" I rested my chin on top of her head and closed my eyes.

"The fact that I could get a message out to girls all around the world."

I nodded slowly. "Right, so it's okay to not want to model anymore. Maybe your dream isn't modeling but it's helping other girls with their problems and you thought of modeling first because it's easy."

She leaned back and looked up at me. "Your a genius," she chuckled. "There are so many ways I can help girls out, fucking YouTube is a great way-" she gasped. "What if I start a "beauty" channel but with a twist..."

I smiled and dropped my hands placing them on the counter as she ranted on about her ideas. Her eyes sparkled and her smile...

That damn smile...

She stopped and met my eyes. "This is what I mean, you either unintentionally make me forget everything and be happy or you say something to make me feel better."

I shrugged. "I like seeing you happy so I try hard to keep you happy, at least when you're around me."

She grabbed my chin and quickly pecked my lips. "Thanks for being you."

I smiled. "Thanks for that kiss."

She chuckled. "Anytime baby."

"Anytime?" She nodded. "Can I have another now."

She playfully rolled her eyes and pecked my lips again causing me to close my eyes taking in every feeling.

"Mmm, that wasn't long enough, one more time."

She chuckled and pecked my lips for a little bit longer. Her lips ghosted over mines and I could feel her smiling as she rested her hand on my chest.

"Another one?"

"Y/nnn."

I peeked one eye open. "Nope, you said anytime now," I grabbed her waist pulling her body flush against mines. "Shut up and kiss me."

Our lips met once more but she couldn't stop smiling which eventually lead to a huge smile breaking out on my face. We both chuckled as she tucked her face into my neck.

I pecked her shoulder and sighed feeling happy.

Fuck I feel super happy.

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"Boo Travis!" Quincy yelled. "How the hell did you let a dog break your ankles."

I laughed and smacked his stomach as my head laid in his lap. "Like you could do better."

"Pfft, don't try me."

"Sorry daddy."

Vanessa chuckled smacking my leg that rested on her lap. "Miss me with that, Quincy's my daddy," she gripped his cheeks. "Ain't that right?" Quincy smiled brightly and nodded.

I scoffed and smacked her hand away. "Don't let your little side piece get fucked up Quincy, let her know I'm your main hoe."

He looked at Vanessa and nodded. "Sorry Nessa," he lifted my shirt and rubbed my stomach. "Look at this six-pack."

I chuckled as Vanessa nodded and rubbed my stomach. "Yeah that's reasonable."

He nodded. "And don't even get me started on that dick."

Vanessa smacked her lips. "Can't relate." I playfully glared at Vanessa.

"Oh we can't have that, let the three of us go up to my room-"

I jumped up and shook my head pulling down my shirt. "I'm going to play with my brother now," I started to walk away. "You freaks."

"Only freaky for you babygirl, with all that ass!" Quincy yelled causing me to chuckle.

I walked up to Travis who laid on the grass next to Dog. I laid next to them and sighed. "I feel like something special is happening this Thursday."

Travis hummed. "What?"

I shook my head. "I know the first day of tour is this Friday but...what's happening Thursday? Five days from now."

"I have no clue."

I snapped my fingers. "Oh I got it, taco Thursday."

He laughed and smacked my arm. "It's taco Tuesday, not Thursday."

I chuckled looking at him. "You turn nine in five days you ready." He shook his head. "Why?"

"Mommy won't be here."

Fuck.

I nodded. "She won't be here physically." He frowned his brows. "Remember when your fish died?"

He pouted. "Bubbles."

I chuckled softly. "What did mom tell you?"

"Ummm everyone and thing has a soul?"

I nodded realizing that our mom was preparing us for losing her all this time. "Yeah and so does mom but, her soul is soooo much stronger than Bubbles. Mom is listening to our conversation right now she just can't reply."

"So, can I hug her one more time?"

"Fuck," I whispered. "Not really but, you could feel it."

"Tell me how."

I nodded. "Close your eyes," he shut his eyes tightly and I smiled softly. "Now think about happy times you had with mom birthdays, that time we went to Honolulu, anything happy."

He smiled softly. "My heart feels warm."

My smiled got bigger. "Now come here."

He opened his eyes and laid his head on my chest. I wrapped my arms around him and sighed. "I might be hugging you physically but trust me, this is one big group hug between me you and mom."

He threw his arm over my stomach and nodded. "It really feels like she's here."

I closed my eyes. "Yeah it does."

"You think she's sad watching me become a man?"

I chuckled. "No, I think she's actually really happy." I opened my eyes and looked up at the sky. "Trust me, she's smiling down at us right now."

He sat up looking up at the sky smiling. "Hi mommy I love you!"

I gulped and pecked his head before pulling him back into me.

"She loves you too bud."

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