*I'm sorry in advance*

Today is only the second day the boys don't have a show and they already have a meeting with management.

Jayden, Elly, and I are at the park. Having some good, old fashion fun. Out doors. Yeah.

It's been 2 hours since they first left and I'm gonna have an anxiety attack. What the fuck what is taking them so long.

"Hey, it gonna be alright" Elly says rubbing my arm. I smile as I watch Jayden

playing in the sandbox.

My phone starts ringing, I pick it up without checking who it is.

J:hello

L:hey, we're back at the hotel

J:okay, we will be there soon

He sounded really upset.

I tell Elly there back and she goes and gets Jayden.

We get back to the hotel in under 20 minutes. My hands start to get sweaty because of my nervousness. Elly takes Jayden to her and Calum's room.

I walk into my room and Luke's pacing back and forth.

"Hey what's wrong" I say. He looks up and sighs.

"Its management" he says sitting on the bed.

I sit next to him and he takes my hand.

"They....." he says while running his thumb over my knuckles.

"They what Luke spit it the fuck out" I say starting to get pissed off. I love him so much but I can't help but want to kick his teeth in right now.

"They want me to break up with you" he says. I jump up from the bed and start to pace around the room.

I start to bite my nails, "And".

"If I don't there dropping us" he says while running his fingers through his hair.

"Us, like the band, are they serious"

"Yes" he replies

"Are you gong to"

"Jaymee I'm-" he says but I cut him off.

"Okay" I say

I get it, it's me or band. I would pick the band over me too. I don't want to ruin what the have anyways. I love Luke and all the boys but I guess I have to let them go.

I grab my stuff and shove it into my suitcase. I can hear Luke talking but I just

block it out. I walk into the bathroom to get the last of my stuff.

I start to walk out the door but Luke grabs my face and kiss me.

It was the most passionate kiss we have ever shared. So many emotions mixed into one. Anger, sadness, nervous, stress all in one.

"I love you Jaymee and I will never stop, remember that" he whispers against my lips

"I love you Luke and I will never stop, always remember that" I whisper against his lips.

I walk out the door and walk straight to Elly and Cals room. I tell Elly what happened because Calum already knows.

I tell Cal I love and will miss him. Elly packs And kisses Calum on the lips and tells him she will call him later.

I fell so bad that Elly has to come to America with me. She is my best friend. No, she's my sister. I know it's cheesy to say but it's true we have been through so much shit together.

We go to Mikey's room and I hug him for what seems like hours. Ashton was in

there too so I gave him a hug to. Elly packs Jayden's things while I talked to Ashton and Michael.

"I love you guys so much and will miss you guys so much" I say then they pull me in for a group hug.

"Call us whenever" Mikey says. I give him a smile as we walk out the door.

Me and Elly walk down the hotel halls. I have Jayden in my arms.

I just want to crawl into a corner and cry for days. But I can't. I need to be strong for Jayden. He's my baby and I can't worry him or confuse him any more then he probably already is.

It's the end of it all.