hi :/

i recommend you listen to the song

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nothing could stop me from my current actions.

tears spill out of my eyes as i grab the nearest suitcase, shoving all of my clothes into it.

i don't bother taking everything considering i'll probably come back later and get it.

i should've known.

i should've known.

i should've known.

i should've know better than to fall in love with him.

it was all a mistake.

the tears are coming out faster and i grab a smaller bag, packing my necessities.

i don't bother sending a text to austin.

i've purchased an air bnb that i'll stay out for now, because currently i don't know what's happening.

i sniffle, wiping the tears away.

i guess we're breaking up.

the tears come out harder and faster as i think about it.

jesus i love him.

and he hurt me.

i will admit, the article probably exaggerated things to an extent.

but i didn't miss the part where it said she was leaning close and whispering in his ear, all while constantly smiling.

after packing up my belongings i stomp down the stairs, heading to the foyer to grab keys to the car.

it seems like everything has been timed so perfectly because in comes austin, he walks in the front door and runs his hands through his hair.

i don't think he's noticed me yet but when he looks up i know he has.

i know he sees my red eyes and puffy cheeks.

my swollen lips and messy hair.

i sniffle and he steps forward, frowning.

"baby what's wrong?" he asks and i scoff.

the audacity.

"no don't baby me right now austin." i spit out.

he stops dead in his tracks, "what did you hear?"

i stop breathing all in all and i let a sob escape,

so he's not denying it?

"that you and vanessa were out on a little date." i say and his mouth opens but nothing comes out.

"no baby no it wasn't like tha-"

"austin i don't have time for your shit, i'm leaving." i say and i reach over to where he placed the keys, grabbing them.

i pick my bags off the floor and i walk out of the front door that was left wide open, not even bothering to say goodbye or anything.

i stomp all the way down the steps and towards the car where i just toss my bags in the back seat.

the engine comes to life and as i turn around to reverse out of the driveway austin is standing in the doorway.

he's obviously crying and my heart almost breaks but then i remember the current situation.

looking away, i pull out of the driveway and i head in the directions of the airbnb, all while sobbing uncontrollably.

while in the midst of summer traffic, i press his contact on messages and i mute it, not wanting to deal with his shit right now.

when i arrive at the airbnb i place my bags on the small bed and i fall down, sobbing into the clean pillow.

it doesn't smell like him.

i had gotten used to his scent all over my sheets and when i inhaled, now all i smell is fresh cotton.

standing up, i head towards what i think is the bathroom to take a shower.

i start the water and i begin to undress.

why me?

my heart physically hurts, and i get into the shower.

i drench my hair but i have absolute no energy to do anything so i just sit down on the cold shower floor, hugging my body.

i let my head rest on my knees as the hot water cascades down my body.

the sobs turn into whimpers and soon i'm pretty sure i'm out of tears.

standing up, i turn off the water and i grab the nearest towel, drying my body off.

i look at myself in the mirror and my face is still red, but the tears and snot have washed away.

my phone that's on the counter buzzes with its hundredth notification of the hour and it's a text from my dad.

unfortunately my face id unlocks the phone so i have to read it.

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❤️

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his text brings a smile to my face but i don't have the energy in me to reply.

i walk into the bedroom where i set my phone on the dresser, and i brush my hair.

millions of things are running through my mind right now.

but one question sticks out particularly.

what is austin doing right now?

i scoff, he's probably with his darling ex vanessa.

i don't stop myself from what i'm about to do.

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hours after the article about vanessa hudgens and austin butlers date had been published, althea girard had deleted almost every photo of her and austin.

almost like they're relationship never even existed, she doesn't even follow him or his sister anymore.

but he still follows her, so does he know?

or does he just not care?

stay tuned for more at celeb gossip!

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sorry two short chapters for the day but i didn't like the fact i left you guys on a small cliffhanger.

:)