The next morning i woke with a major headache and to my chest hurting

I sit up and look around seeing i was in a hospital room

The door opened and in walked a nurse

"Good morning sweetie happy to see you are awoke" she said

"How long was i sleep" i asked

"Three days" she said as she checked my vitals

"Are my parents here" i asked her

"Parents no, i was told that your parents were dead and a couple seen you lying on the side of the street" she said and i shook my head but went along with it

"Oh...yea" i said

"Look if you need some one to talk to I'm here OK you are only 17 and living on your own i know loosing your parents was hard but you are not alone" she said looking at me with sympathy

"Umm can i leave" i asked

"I'm afraid not sweet heart we have to call authority to come get you once you build up enough strength to go" she said

"Authority, what you mean authority " i said startled

"Authority as in CPS you are still a minor you are not old enough to be on your own so you will be in foster care until you are able to care for your self and you have a job she said

"Can i use your phone" i asked

She nodded and handed me her phone and i dialed my parents number to call them

"Who is this" my mom said

"Its empress um I'm in the hospital and they are going to send me to foster care if i don't have an adult to come and get me" i said as the nurse looked at me

"Let them take her ass she ain't good for shit and she ain't giving up nothing" i heard my dad yell in the background

I closed my eyes as tears ran down my face

"You heard him baby sorry " my mom said as she hung up the phone

I burst in to tears crying my heart out i couldn't take this

"Sweet heart are you o-" she started but i cut her off

"Can i be by myself for a while just ple-please leave" i said crying and she left out

i stood up and paced around crying as everything hit me at one time

I feel to the ground screaming as I pulled at my hair

I hated myself

Everything has always been hell for me even when I was little

I was sitting in my moms lap as she combed through my long thick hair

"Mommy" I called looking up at her

"Yes baby" she asked

"Why do i look so dark if I'm mixed" I asked looking down at my hands as I played the hem of my shirt

"Because you are mixed with a different race" she said

"What's a race" I asked

"Its different types of ethnic groups like black people Mexicans white people stuff like that " she explained

" oh what am I mixed with" I asked

"You are mixed with black and Indian " she said

" then how come I'm darker then the other mixed girls" I asked

" because baby Indians are a little darker they are more like tan" she said and I nodded

"Why did you ask me that" she said looking me in the eyes

"Because they pick on me because I'm darker then the other girls that are mixed" I said with my head hanging low

My mom lift my head to where we were making eye contact

"Listen hear you are as beautiful as they come you are very pretty OK never forget that OK" she said and I nodded

She kissed my forehead and looked at me

"Ill never let anybody hurt you OK" she said

"But daddy hurts me every night" I said

"He's not hurting you baby he is showing you love" she said

"But it hurts when he does that mommy" I said

"Shut up with that talk girl ya daddy loves you he just trying to teach you how to be a woman" she said

I just nodded and looked away from her

I knew good touch bad touch thanks to school and my daddy gives me the bad touches

Later that night my mom gave me a bath and put me on a night gown to sleep in

"Mommy were are my undies" I asked her

"Don't worry ill put you some on in the morning just go to bed she said and I did

That very night in came my very drunk dad

He beat my mom and I know this because I heard the commotion

My room door opened and I closed my eyes tightly

I peeked through them to see my dad looking at me

"Hey baby girl " he said but I didn't say anything to him

He laid in the bed with me and pulled the little cover I did have off of me and lifted my dress

"Please don't daddy it hurts " I cried as he used his fingers on me

"Shhh it will get better baby girl he said

I looked through my teared filled eyes to see my mom standing at the door looking in at me

"MOMMY PLEASE MAKE HIM STOP" I screamed but she just closed the door and left me there

I couldn't handle these thoughts going through my head

I felt betrayal

I was lonely

Why am I hear if people are just going to hurt me

I continued to scream and pull at my hair as I banged my head on the wall

The door flew open and nurses came in and held me down as one gave me a shot that made me black out

Its been four days since I had my mental breakdown and they have been running test on me every since

I can finally be released from this hospital but I'm now in foster care

They are moving me out of town to start fresh and to have some new sensory

I had the clothes I went into the hospital with on as I followed Mrs. Sarah and her wife Diane into a room that I will be staying in

Social services thought that it would be a good idea to stay with females instead of men since I told what happened I just never gave names

"OK honey you can put these on until tomorrow one of us will take you shopping tomorrow to get you settled OK" she said and I nodded

They left out the room and I took a shower and laid down

They took my phone before I came into care and gave me a new one but I don't remember no ones number by heart except my moms

I turned over and went to sleep

Its been a while since I heard from empress. I been over to her house but nobody was there

Grabbing my keys I decided to drive over there and see what's going on.

I Walked up to the door an knocked

"Is empress here" I asked her and she shook her head no

I wanted to blow the fuck up but I just held my peace

Empress mom pushed me back a little and step out shutting the door behind her

"Help my baby please" she said

"Where she at" I asked looking down at her

"He let them take her the social services and I want her back I did some fucked up things but I'm sorry I'm so sorry" she said crying

The door opened and out came esha with tears running down her face

We made eye contact and she looked as if she seen a ghost

"What the fuck was she doing here" I asked

She got in her car and speed off

"Sasha get yo ass back in here" I heard mike yell

She looked at me

"Promise that you will help us please promise me" she begged

"I promise" I said then turned around and got in my car

I got to get my baby back

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