I was cooking in the kitchen and I heard the sounds of people talking..

I peeped out from my kitchen holding a spatula behind my back.. Safety...

There was a beautiful woman with a baby in her arms. She was dressed in a long off white Maxi complementing her olive skin tone and blonde hair.

" please sir, help me to find him...

It has been 2 weeks since he hadn't returned home...

I have been going around the police station but they weren't of any help beacause of the lock down...

He hasn't even contacted me once all these days... We don't have anyone to help us sir... He worked for you day and night, he is very loyal to you sir...

Please sir " she said trembling with tears brimming at the corner of her eyes.... It didn't even take a millisecond for me to know whom she was asking about.

" where do you think your husband might be? " as soon as those words came out of my husband's mouth, I was shocked to core... Is he going to tell her the truth? I mean I don't want him to lie but still she dosen't deserve to know from his mouth... From her husband's killer...

" I don't know Sir

Maybe in Italy but he didn't contact me since past 2 weeks... I'm worried sir " she said trying to link the dots of where her husband might be...

" he's already cremated " arjun said nonchalantly and the lady looked at him shocked with the revelation...

" don't speak like that!

I have come here to ask for your help and better mind your words!! " she yelled at him.

He looked cool and stared straight at her face without any emotions nor guilt for making a child fatherless and taking away her husband who was innocent...

Suddenly another man entered, whom I guess I saw previoisly in his study...

He handed her a photo and her eyes watered seeing the photo... She wailed loudly and shut her mouth with one hand but those sobs were loud enough to echo in the whole mansion.

" why!? Why!!! " she yelled at my husband holding his collar with her other hand and he looked at her emotionlessly... He removed her hand and asked that man to throw her out.

Suddenly my eyes fell on the blood on floor where that woman was standing. She is bleeding ! I ran as fast as I can and reached her. She bent down onto her knees and held her baby tightly...

I bent down to her level

" what happened? " I asked assessing her... She is having cold clammy skin and her body was turning pale...

Is it shock?

Crap ! She is in hypovolemic shock!

The blood then...

Postpartum hemorrhage !?

" ma'am do you have any medical conditions? " I asked her... My body is already shaking...

" haemophilia " she answered with much struggle...

Damn! wasn't the PPH enough that she has haemophilia too?

" Help!!! " I screamed out my lungs at both of them but they stood like pillars looking at us....

" she is bleeding! her condition is too worse ! Help her ! " I yelled at them but they didn't move...

I ran inside kitchen and bought ORS water crying all the way...how helpless I am..

I don't know what to do... My half knowledge ain't helpful at all! I made her drink the solution to make her fluid volume increase... I massaged her uterus so that the bleeding could decrease beacuse of the uterine contractions that would produce prostaglandins....

She was gaining her conscious slowly and I could see that she was holding onto a thin thread... Suddenly she started shaking vigorously

Oh my god !

She is having tachycardia! She lost too much blood.. All the blood was around us, on her clothes, on my hands... Damn... What to do?

I was shaking vigorously and suddenly her breath became slow and she she stopped moving. She's having

Bradycardia... Now what to do?

I gave her CPR immediately and raised up her legs to make sure that blood flows into her central system...

I was crying all the way!

Why am I soo helpless? Why is she helpless?

There was no movement...

I checked her pulse in all the arteries that I know and I even tried to hear her heart beats with my ear on her chest.... Null....

I cried out my heart for not saving her.... I failed... I failed!!!....

" remove it " arjun said and I looked at him. How can he be emotionless?

" Sir , child? " that man asked he just waves his hand off going away...

No... No....

" you!

Stop there!

How dare you!?

How can you take away another life?

How can you be soo monstrous?

This woman in my arms had bleed infront of you and was helpless only beacuse you took away her innocent husband's life!

Do you even know what you have done?!

You have taken away lives!

U made her loose her life in my arms..

You could have atleast called a doctor rather than standing and seeing!

You made me a killer....

I have ki....killed someone...."

" No no no !

I didn't kill you

I didn't... I didn't....

But but but

I'm useless... " I cried out loud holding her head in my arms... I have lost a life from my hands.... Her body was soo cold and pale lying in my arms...

Suddenly I felt someone pulling her away from me and I held onto her shoulders tightly and looked up to see that man, he jerked her body and pulled her strongly making me loose my grip... I stood up immediately and went till her body to be only pushed away by that man... Her blood was all over my saree....

I looked at the retreating figure of that man with her lifeless body...

I heard cries from and I looked behind me to see a baby...

Crying it's heart out for mother who has left him alone...

I slowly went to the baby with trembling hands... Each and every step I took towards the baby made me hear the accusations of killings it's mother...

I bent down and sat infront of the baby expecting it to scold me and hit me for being incapable... For killing the one who gave birth to this soul...

I touched it's fingers and the baby suddenly grasped my finger tightly...

The hold made me feel that he wants to show me to the world that I was a murderer.... Who murdered his mother...

I sobbed with pain in my heart and the baby suddenly stopped. I looked with my teary eyes and the baby looked at me staring at my face....

I took the baby in my arms and looked at its face... Innocent... But what shocked me was that the baby had big big sterling grey with specles of olive green and blue eyes...

There were tear stains on his face...

" sorry " was the only word I could say... I hugged him and patted his back softly...

" ma'am " the man from before tried to take the baby away from me and I pushed his hands away...

" I will kill you and make sure that your body wouldn't even be available for cremation!

Keep your hands off him! " I screamed loudly at the man and he stepped back seeing the anger radiating from me... I don't know what they will do to this baby... I have to make sure that he is safe.

" lakshmi " I could hear the danger in the voice of arjun... But I wont step down... I have already let 2 people die in front of me...not anymore...

" he will stay with me for the time being... " I said and left to my room.

I went inside my room and kept the baby on my bed. I put pillows around him to make sure that he wouldn't fall.

I went inside the washroom and stood under the running shower with my clothes on....

Is this how I am going to live the rest of my life? How many people will die infront of my eyes? How many deeds has he committed? Now that I am married to him, half of his deeds will be under my name.... I will have to bare the punishment of my husband killing people....

How can he not have empathy? Emotions?

.... Abuse... I can tolerate but this.... I can't....

I shut the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. I got out of the washroom and went inside my closet. I wore a loose shirt and trousers. I looked at myself in the mirror... The girl in the mirror is drowned and lost....

" uvaaaaa....va...va...uauaua " I looked at the baby who is flying his hands in the air . I sat on the bed beside him and leaned onto a side looking at his face. Innocent soul...

He looked at me for a few seconds and continued talking in baby language.... I kissed his forehead...

I know what to do now.

I took my phone from the table and called the only person who can help me out.

" hello " the person on the other side spoke.

" rahul Anna, this is me

Lakshmi " I said

" who else can it be, I have already saved ur number... Tell me what happened " he asked in boring tone.. Ofc why wouldn't he, when I have eaten his head with my chatter box mouth in his house...

I explained him everything and

the line on the other side went silent...

" Anna,

Help me send the baby to his relatives... Please " I said with a broken voice...

" hey hey

Control kanna

I will help you for sure

U don't even have to ask me, just order me .

I will call within an hour with the relatives details " he said and we bid goodbyes...

I looked at the baby having blood stains on his clothes... I removed his clothes and put them aside safely. I took him in the washroom and bathed him...

" baby

Will you blame me? " I asked him softly... Now he has no mother nor father...

As if he understood my words he looked at my face and then put my finger in his mouth... I laughed lightly feeling his teethless gums and cute chubby cheeks...

I wrapped a soft towel around him and laid him down on my bed... He started yawning and I patted on his belly softly.... This should have been his mother doing it with love...

As soon as he came into the world, he lost his both parents... Who will give him the undying love of mother? Who will give him piggy back rides like a father? Who will tend to his pain? Will he be able to sustain without love from them? I couldn't even imagine myself in that position..

Without my parents.. I would be nothing... But then what about this baby?

Tears rolled down my cheeks and landed on his fingers... I wiped them carefully making sure that he won't wake up...

I heard my phone ringing and I looked at the caller...

" haan bhaiya " I said wiping my tears...

" lakshmi

The kid doesn't have anyone " he said in a sad voice...

"What? How can it be possible?

He must atleast be having grandparents! " I yelled....

" no

Both of his parents are orphans, they settled here " he said and I cut the call holding it tightly to my heart...

What to do now? He has no one...

He is a lonely soul now....

Only because of my husband! He became alone ! My hands shivered...

I looked at the baby and remembered his father's screams saying 'I'm innocent... Please..... ' and his mothers

eyes filled with pain for her husband while holding her baby to her heart...

They could have been living happily if there was no misunderstanding... If my husband wasn't a psycho... If I would have helped them....

Now all is gone...

Why god why!!!????

I sat on the floor at the corner of the room and cried...

Maybe I should give him whatever is taken away from him... This is the only way I can rectify my mistakes and live without guilt... I will give him love and care which maybe less than his mother but I will give him everything I can... So what if he wasn't born from me...

He is the one that god has sent me but not in a pleasent way...

God wants me to do this

The little baby needs me....

He is my responsibility now

Yes that's it.

" take that away " I heard my husband's voice and looked at him standing along with the same man from before...

I went running to the baby before they can reach and I held him tightly in my arms.

" no " I screamed glaring at the 2 people infront of me.

" he is mine

My responsibility!

For what my husband has done

He lost his parents! Now he has no one! I will try to undo the deed that my husband has made! Take another step then I will kill you mercilessly! " I yelled at the man who is coming towards me.

" stop " arjun said and the man went away leaving us in the room...

" follow " he said and I follwed him to his study... I can't escape from him , he can catch me where ever I am... So I will fight with him...

He sat in his large walnut colored chair behind the table and I stood on the other side opposite to him.

" why would you think that I would let you keep it? " he asked boring needles in my eyes...

" why would I think what you would think? I want to , then I will ! " I answered him looking back with the same intensity.

He opened a box on the table and took out a gun. I looked at him shocked for a moment... Is he going to use that on me?

" I have only one place left in this mansion.... So how about we play a small game?... In this gun there is one bullet. The one who gets shot in their head will die and other gets a chance to enjoy the royalty of life...

What do you say little wife?

Ready to play the game with your baby? " he asked and I was mortified on my ground... How can he... How can he....

I should have delt the matter in another way! I knew that he was psychotic animal who drew pleasure from pain...even if I get killed and the baby survives, I'm not sure of its safety after I die... I have to do something!

" li...listen ji

He is still a baby

Please... It was our fault that his parents are killed... His parents were innocent too but they have been killed.... Let's keep the baby with us.. I will make sure that I will take care of everything... I wouldn't get a single complaint!....I....I promise.... " I said trembling and sweating , holding baby in my arms....

" oh so you have eves dropped again.

Fine fine

But as you have asked for something, I will grant it only if you could give me something " he said looking at the baby in my arms and I clutched him more tightly...

" okay okay

I will listen and do watever you say " I said immediately before he can change his mind...

He nodded smirking at me and I got scared seeing his face...

" let's do the pending wife and husband duties " he said and I looked at him trying to analyze what he meant by that sentence..

" oh my little wife didn't understand... No problem I will explain u...

I'm asking you to pleasure me darling.... in my bed " he said near my ear and the ground beneath me slipped away...