Finally after four days,ram came home in the evening..I was looking like a zombie,dark circles around my eyes because of lack of sleep..

Ram looked even more worse than me..he looked very tired,in the same dress he left home and the dark circles too...I immediately knew something was wrong...

I prepared him coffee and some cookies...I asked ram,"is there something worng ram? whatever it is please tell me and lets handle it,you didn't come home for four days now..please tell me what is wrong ram".

I don't know what I said wrong but ram angrily slapped me and asked me to shut up and stop being such a winny wife and questioning him everytime and this is the very reason he didn't want to marry..

Tears started flowing freely down my cheeks and I ran to my room and cried a my heart out...even my parents have never laid hands on me..this is the first fight we are having and he just slapped me..I didn't even know what i did wrong..

After one hour,ram knocked my room..I was still sobing..I wiped my tears and opened the door.I couldn't even look at ram's face,instead I looked down..then an unexpected thing happened..

Ram apologized to me..he told me that he was having some bad time and since as soon as he came home,I was asking him questions and he got angry and slapped me..when I looked at him,I could see the sincerity and regret in his eyes..he told me sorry again and again and that he had mo rights to slap me and he will never do it again...

Though ram apologized to me,I couldn't forgive him easily..atleast I should know what caused him this angry but I was afraid to ask him..so I just nodded and closed my room...

That night,I didn't go out of my room and slept without having dinner...I woke up in the morning and went to washroom to do my routine and I was shocked to see the person infront of me..gone the innocent looking ankitha,instead there was a girl with puffy red eyes because of crying and hairs sticking in all directions and tear stained cheeks..I decided not to go to college today because my friend's will kill me with questions at my state..I am not saying anything bad about my friends because they were always there for me without judging me and offering me comfort without trying to just give me advise as how I should have acted in that situation..but I am not ready to face them today...before my marriage,my life was revolving around my friends but know I totally stopped hanging around with them and my life is revolving around ram..if only he could open up to me little and let me in.....

I went down to see ram looking as bad as me sitting and reading newspaper...I just went and started breakfast...ram didn't eat much..I am more worried now but afraid to ask him anything....

After just sitting in my room for three hours,I decided to do something..if ram is not going to open up to me,I will make him...even if he gets angry again,I will face it.. I will do everything to break the wall he built around him...just sitting here like this will not do any good since he needs someone now since there is something wrong and I determined to break him and give him some comfort and take some too...

With new found confidence,when I opened my room,I heard noises from ram's room..when I opened rams room,I was shocked..all the vases are broken and ram was punching the wall...

I quickly ran to him and hold his hand...he had few scratches and cuts all over his hand...he shouted at me to get out of his room and started screaming...but I just hugged him and refused to move...after few seconds he just grabbed my arms and dragged me and pushed me out of his room and locked it....

I was really tired of all these drama and just cried sitting in front of his room...I once decided that I will do everything to make this marriage work but I don't know what else to do...will ram ever consider me atleast as friend and open up to me...

I decided not to move from this place until I get answers...