The whole coffee thing was a heat in the moment thing but weirdly enough I don't regret it.

I will admit that I panicked slightly

after I hung op on the phone but now I feel fine or atleast as fine as I'll be.

Now I am sitting in a cute little café only a few blocks from my apartment. Blain hasn't shown up yet.

There aren't alot of people here only me and an elderly couple.

The bells by the door ring and he walks in. Suddenly I don't feel calm anymore. Do I shake his hand? No, we have met before. Do I hug him insted? I don't know.

Why am I feeling so nervous? I have been on dates before and this isn't even a date. It is just two friends drinking coffee.

He smiles from across the room and I wave at him. A smile shines bright on his face as he walks towards me.

"Hi," I breath as he sits down in front of me.

The smile on his face disappears and a look of worry take it's place insted. "" He asks

I realise that I probably looked like an idiot. I didn't even look at him insted I looked down at the table and I kept clenching my fists, a bad habbit I have when I get nervous.

"Yes everything is alright. I just think I should explain why I didn't answer your calls." I say and my eyes meet his steel colored once.

Should I tell him why am the way I am? Why leting someone in is the hardest thing I could ever do? Hell, it's easier to lift a whole fucking train with my pinky. Do I really trust him enough? ...Yes I do.

"I had a plan when we first started talking. We would never have a real conversation and when we would stop talking it would be okay. Because phone calls aren't real. So I panicked when you knocked on my door. I just needed a little break that's all." I chicken out, I wanted to tell him more.

He lets out a relieved breath and mumble something under his breath that I don't catch.

Then we drink our coffee, laugh and talk like we do over the phone. I promise myself that one day I will tell him the rest of the story because this can be the start of something good.

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What's up with Harper? Any Ideas? If so please tell me what you think.

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