"Hey," the sweet girl I missed a lot brightens up the whole room with a simple word, and my chin raises up. "Hey, come here," I smile, and I pull on the chair that is next to me to make her sit down. "Have you got something to eat?"

"Some dried fruits," she opens the small bag of it, getting a look full of disapproval from me. "That's not the only thing you're gonna eat. Right?"

"Wrong," she swallows a nut of this snack, not listening to me. She giggles at the sight of my face but peeks at Hojun. Not accepting this type of answer, I take the bowl of rice I left on the table and slide it towards her. "Eat this."

"No, it's your meal," she moves it back where it was, but before she could even reach it again, I block the way and keep the bowl still. "It is. That means I do what I want with it. Let's at least share it."

She stares without saying one more word, her jaw moving at the rhythm of each bite she gives into the snacks in her mouth. "Alright?" I smile, uncontrollably, and my eyes drop their attention to her glossy lips. "Hm. Alright..."

"That's what I wanna hear," I provoke her and let my dominant side show off, but Hojun turns his head towards me. "Don't show your dominant side yet."

He is hiding everything inside of him again to not let his emotions show in front of her.

"Don't let anything other than air out of your mouth," I respectfully quieten him, and he laughs but looks at y/n. "Hey," he leans back and opens his arm, then he touches his chest. "See that?"

I sigh at his behavior. I knew he would do it, dammit.

She smiles at him but does not say anything, making me feel a bit like a kid who has been noticed by his crush for the first time. Does she really recognize that piece of clothing?

"Uh. It looks good on you..." she bites on a raisin, the glare she is throwing him but trying to restrain being so obvious that I cannot hold back from giggling.

I hope this is the face she makes when she is jealous, it does look like it, but if I am right, I am going to find it so damn amusing to tease her and see how adorable she is when she gets jealous.

"I know right, my body fits in this so well, it looks so much like I'm wearing my boyfie's clothes, doesn't it?" he smirks at her, but she peeks down at the hoodie and slows the chewing down. "Hm. You're very cute," she swallows. "So cute that I want to punch you."

"Thank you," he tucks some strands of his hair behind his ear, and I stay right between them while enjoying this little fight they have just to show who has my heart the most. "I can share it with you if you want, I mean," he glances at me. "If he doesn't mind."

"She can wear it whenever she wants to," I do not let him have the upper hand in front of her, and he throws me a death stare. "You mean 'Hojun can'. Right?"

"You can both wear it, alright?" I give him one last answer to put an end to this argument, but he does not show satisfaction. "I still get kisses from you though."

"Because she doesn't want mine," I do not even dare to look at her after saying this, keeping my stare on him. Now out of words, he tries to come back with something more but eats first. "Yeah...but still...she just doesn't deserve them. That's why. You have to be precious to have his lips on your skin, okay?"

"Okay," she suddenly flies her hand up to my lips and brushes it with her thumb. "Here. I got them on my skin," she flutters my heart without even knowing, and a fizzy sensation literally warms my whole chest up at the feeling of her fingers on my lips.

"You—" he stands up to the pretend to be picking up a fight and looks down at her. "Don't touch those small lips again."

"They're not—"

"Or else what?" she smiles at him, unable to keep a straight face because of his acting. "Or else I get mad, and you wouldn't want to see the mad me. It's scary."

"Nothing's scarier than him running after me," she pokes my torso with her finger, and her thumb skims my bottom lip again, getting me to wheeze and not believe what is happening.

Hojun goes forth in a harsh manner, acting like he is about to fight her. "You're lucky he's holding me back right now, girlie."

"He's not, you're just scared of me," she crosses her arms under her breasts, but in the spur of the moment, I move forward and forget where my brain is, I press my lips on her cheek while handling the pounding of my heart, then I hurry to pull on Hojun's arm to bring him down and kiss his cheek too.

Regretting this move that was not supposed to be done, I lean over the table and rest my arms on it. "There. You're both square now," I lick my lips, the heat spreading up my neck because of the shyness and nervousness this sent through me.

They do not even say anything, embarrassing me twice more. I clear my throat without wanting to, and I peek down at my bowl that is the only thing I can set my eyes on at this right moment.

"I'll cuddle him after the classes," Hojun saves this with another remark to erase the awkward silence, and I do not interfere anymore. I cannot. I just kissed her for the first time, even if this was just on the cheek, that made my heart beat so hard, I did not understand the adrenaline this shoot through me.

Thank god she did not push me away though, I would have died and disappeared from this earth for sure.

•••

[ hey, what are you doing? >

I send a text to Hojun to make sure he is okay, and after only a few seconds, he answers me.

[ why? >

Before I could even read the next text, someone knocks on the door. Both me and Chiwon peek at it, but I stand up first and drop my phone on my bed to go and open it to the person I hope to be the one I would never have expected to see here.

Once the person behind the door comes within sight, my heart punches my chest, and a smile forms on my face. "Hey, I hope I'm not bothering you, but I just wanted to give you this," she lifts a bag, that seems quite heavy, up to me. "I came back from my parents' house with way too much food, so...I wanted to share it with you too so that you can eat well."

"You're so..." I gaze down at the bag and take it. "You're not bothering at all, y/n. Thank you so much, you can't believe how happy this makes me," I do not hide the joy she just provoked to me. "I hope you'll like and enjoy it," she holds her hands behind her back, gazing at me with a soft look in her sparkling eyes.

"Thanks, I will for sure," I nod but cannot deny the frustration I feel about the fact that I cannot even tell her to come in to spend time together. My roommate is here, so this would be awkward as ever. "You're welcome, try to not take too many days to finish everything, okay?"

"Don't worry, I'll empty this very quickly," I chuckle but take a peek at the Tupperware's there are inside, feeling the weight of all the food. I wonder how much she got to be able to give me so much but still be able to share it with Hojun, probably Kimoon as well, and have some left for herself.

"I..." my hand tightening its hold on the rim of the door, I do not keep quiet but do everything to have her here for a few more seconds. "I heard from Hojun that you gave him some too, are you sure you'll have enough to eat too?"

"Yeah, don't worry about that, my parents thought I had a big fridge," she does exude any type of fakeness while speaking, so I trust her. "And...To be honest with you, I was planning on giving everything to you because I thought that Hojun would find it weird if I was suddenly doing that for him, but after you told me about what happened earlier with him and his dad, I just wanted to try to make his day a little better...I hope he likes food as much as you do."

"He does, no one ever gives him anything other than me, whether this is attention, gifts, or love, so you have no idea how meaningful it is to him. Even if this is just food or a small drink, no matter what this is, he'll never find it weird but feel really happy about it because at least he'll see that you do care, and...that means a lot to him, and to me as well," I speak in a lower voice for my roommate to not hear our whole conversation but get a look of astonishment from her. "To you as well?"

"Yeah...I just..." the words I would want to say without being scared to express my emotions do not leave my mouth easily. "I just wish someone would be there for him, you know. I mean, I'm here, but I wish other people could make him feel worth it."

"Oh...yeah, I see. He's a great person, and he's so funny and cute, I didn't know about that..." she empathizes, and I unconsciously smile at her. "Don't worry about him. I'll always be there to make sure he's fine. So thank you for what you did."

"No need to thank me," she returns the same facial expression, with softness, and we both look into each other's eyes, staring for a few seconds. "I should leave now..." her delicate voice barely escapes her lips. "Yeah..." I agree without accepting. "See you tomorrow and make sure to eat and sleep well," she kindly reminds me of what cannot be forgotten, and I smile but nod. "I will. Make sure to do it as well."

"I will too, see you," she steps back, not even giving me a hug or kiss, and I repeat the same words, then she walks away.

A goodbye kiss or hug would have made this even better, but I guess I cannot have any of those yet.

Once she is out of sight, I close the door and get back on my bed to read the text Hojun left.

[ you have something btwn your thighs, so no, you're mot on your period >

[ you wish >

[ calm down. Only I can use the word "love", and she got me some food too so I love her even more. Did she tell you something? >

[ oh, and what did you talk about? >

]

[ yes I am so tell me >

[ I promise you'll get one! >

[ you did all those things with her?! She stayed for one minute here bro;-; let me text her >

I leave this chat to enter the one with y/n, and I send her a message.

[ why did you leave so fast? I was about to give you a hug, I'm hurt >

I lie, or tell half of a lie since I wanted to do but would never have dared to make a move after the embarrassment I went through earlier, and she is already here to answer me.

[ bcs you were too fast... >

[ I'm not, I was about to do it then you said goodbye and I understood you didn't want another kiss so I didn't do anything... >

Crap.

[ well it's too late now >

[ me?! Shy?! Lmao say that to yourself >

[ screw you :

[ I'm joking :c >

[ yes you are! Come on! I was just joking please don't ignore me and break my heart again:( I kissed your cheek, I'm a sweet guy:( >

[ okay now you're mean, you deserved that "screw you" >

[ you did?😳 >

[ answer me first! >

She does not say anything more, this little brat.

[ I'm gonna spam >

[ y/n >

[ nounours >

[ I wanna know >

[ did you like that kiss >

[ I'm pretty sure you did, who wouldn't? >

[ hm? >

[ 😙😙😙 >

[ sleep tight too and eat a lot >

[ and have a good evening >

[ I forgot >

[

Understanding that this does not work with her and that she probably put her phone on silent, I give up and go back to Hojun who sent me a few texts while I was here.

]

[ she'd have found it weird, and I'd rather not ask than do it and get a refusal bcs I'd never get over it >

]

[ shut up I panicked so hard for no reason bro >

[ no you didn't. Please tell me it wasn't obvious >

[ good :) and you know what? She told me to kiss her tomorrow in the morning, but I can't be a coward and not do it, so I'm gonna die again >

[ she did bcs I acted like I wanted to kids her but that she left too quickly then she said I was finding excuses and told me to just kiss her tomorrow, so I'm screwed >

[ freaking typo;-; >

Good luck for tomorrow tho, I know you can do it, give it all the love you can, but less than when its for me tho ]

[ I know don't worry my baby

[ Ily too :)) >

[ :)) >

I smile but text Kimoon to get to know if he got some food from y/n as well. It is weird that he did not tell me anything though.

[ wdym? Me and Hajoon got some food that her parents cooked, did you really not get anything? >

[ oh >

I cannot help but find this odd. Why would she not give him anything? I mean, I know they barely talk to each other, but still, does she does not feel comfortable when he is around, which might be the reason why she asked me who was with me earlier?

I will try to know tomorrow.