Sunlight stream through the curtains as I woke up. Clutching my head I tried to remember what happened to me. A bang was heard and I was suddenly engulfed with a hug.

Tim bombarded me with questions and suddenly memories rush through my brain. Lifting my eyes, I scan the room but he's not here, only a worried looking Tim and her fiance.

heaving a sigh as I imagined the commotion that must have happened when I pass out. Ashamed for disrupting my friends engagement party I just lower my head to them.

After 5 minutes of waiting, I was pounced by my one and only sister and another round of interrogation happened. I know she's worried, it's been a few years since my last panic attack.

It's been 8 years and it's acting up again.

I say my goodbye to my friend and apologise again for the disruption. My sister's car was parked and I go the the backseat, leaning my head through the windows I tried to arrange my thoughts.

When I first came here I was utterly lost. I got a new family,new friends,new house, and new life. Basically everything is new which terrifies me. There is a large gap of change in the past along through the present. You can't just expect me to accept all the things that are being shoved in front of me.

I was an eighteen years old maiden living in a body of a 5 year old.

There are so many things that I don't know and every one should be sacred of the unknown. After that, I tend to ignore everything and act like the past me. It confuses my family and was worried for me so they tried to give me some space.

School was a lot more scarier.

All I learned all my life was to become a proper lady and be a loving wife to your husband. We are honed to be the perfect housewife. The things they teach you was easy for a mere 5 year old but if you're an adult inside a child's body, it gets more complicated. There are many questions that's been asked by me and it was a little peculiar for a kid to ask these questions. Soon enough my parents were called and was informed about my condition.

Countless therapists and psychiatrist were introduce to me. Asking bunch of questions and many things I was restless. Nightmares plagued me and fear haunted me every single day. My parents didn't give up on me, which I am thankful for. It was a horrible experience for the both of us because of that I decided to live and accept my new life. My bond with my parents strengthen over the years. I was thankful for my new parents.

I was thankful that they don't resemble my previous parents.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Lorena stop, we're already home. Stepping down the ground I hear the crunch of the leaves, fall was already here. My sister help me and trailed after me until we reach my room.

pleading her, I don't want the constant worry from my parents. They're already old and not the young vigorous couple that has helped me through my childhood.

she bargains and I leave a sigh. Thanking her I went through my bed and wash myself.

Sleeping my problems won'thelp me but at least I could sleep for now. Finally sleep descended upon me and I tried not to have a nightmare again. Ever since Sebastian and I met, the nightmares stop and I can finally sleep, I wish that I won't have to wake up drenched with sweat and tears.

I really wish.

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My hand flew right to my heart as I heard my sister. I was speaking out to go to McDonald's, guess I won't be alone then.

Offering a smile to her she just grinned and hooked one arm to my shoulder.

Arriving at McDonald's at 2am there are still some people eating there, some are drunk. Either way, it's a good place to eat and it's affordable and it's 24/7. Me and my sister just ordered a big Mac and some large fries with some coke.

demanded by my sister. I knew she was curious about what happened so I just blurted out some lie to her.

Fully convinced at my lie she just nodded and continue to eat. Relaxing my tense shoulders I look around.

Squinting my eyes at some one certain person I found myself paling more. I didn't hear my sister's chatter anymore, it's like I'm back to the party again.

There he was talking to Sebastian.

Funny how fate works. They were best friends once and look at them now. They're chatting happily like they haven't met each other for years.

Is she here?

Looking around frantically I ignore my sister's question. Trying to see more I stood up and my knees nearly buckle at the sight of me.

There she was.

She's still shining everywhere she goes. A head turner and a lot of people envy here even more. Mostly me.

She goes to Sebastian's table and chatted merrily, I was in a daze for a moment when I was snapped back to reality by my sister.

my sister dragged me by my arm as we walked to their table.

Their chatter instantly stop as my sister's voice.

Smiling charmingly at me. I would feel embarrassed and flustered right know if it wasn't the fact that the two siblings are here.

I was tightly gripping my sweater as my sister and I take a seat. To say I was nervous and terrified was an understatement. I could feel my hands trembling and my heart beating so fast. I zoned out of their conversation and I could feel a gaze towards me. Lifting my eyes a bit I saw blue eyes with a questioning look on them, my eyes widen a bit and lowered my head out of fear.

my eyes wandered through him. I find my sister's concern gaze and a few curious look from the e two siblings.

I avoid his eyes, not wanting him to see my fear. He doesn't know anything. It's in the past, they must be different now, right?

I tried to smile at the two siblings, Liliana, just sent an understanding gaze to me, while his brother, Leonard, is a different story.

His eyes are so clear like I feel his eyes on me, on every part of me. The way his gaze met mine, I was shocked by his eyes. I feel like they know my secrets, my past and present life.

I saw a familiar gaze when I met his eyes.

That gaze he used to follow me everywhere in the past.

Everyone has a skeleton in their closet, his was much more than that.

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