I woke up in a bed surrounded by white and blue, the room smelling distinctly of my boyfriends aftershave, so I knew instantly that I was at Ryan’s apartment. I tried to remember why I was there when the pain in the back of my head gave me a firm reminder. I rolled over to meet the beautiful blue eyes belonging to Ryan, who was propped up on his arm next to me, watching me intently.

‘Were you watching me sleep again?’ I mumbled, rubbing at my eyes.

‘Uh, urrr, no, why would I do that? Your ugly in your sleep, your mouth is like open a tiny bit and you like moan when you roll over and YES ok? Yes! Can’t a guy watch his-‘

I effectively stopped his rant by rolling on top of him and pressing my lips to his. He seemed to not mind the action, because he immediately wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me closer.

He paused and pulled away, gently touching the back of my head, ‘How does it feel?’

‘eh, a little sore, not too bad,’ I shrugged, the pain was scarcely there, and I hoped that it would fade further as the day went on.

‘Good’ he smiled, and I watched the worry disappear from his eyes, ‘So Ben and I had a little talk last night’

‘What about?’ I rolled off him, I had forgotten that his brother was staying over here. What happens when he comes in and sees me?

‘You.’

‘Does he know about us?’

He smiled and nodded.

‘He took it well?’ I asked and he nodded again.

‘Yep, was happy for us.’

‘That’s amazing Ryan,’ I knew how scared he was to come out to people, but to know that his brother was so open about it was great news.

‘I know! And what he said about other things, it really made me think about us going public’

‘And what did you decide?’

‘I want us to do it, at some point, but not now.’

He had no idea what a relief it was to hear him say that. Just the thought of us being able to be open about our relationship seemed like a dream, but to hear that he wanted it too, well that was amazing.

I leant back down to kiss him again but the door opened a tin bit and so I rolled off of him.

‘Hey, can I open the door?’ Ben’s hesitant voice came from the slightly opened door.

‘No we are having sexy time!’ Ryan yelled out and I slapped his arm playfully, causing him to roll his eyes. He was such a child sometimes, but I found his light-hearted personality quite humours.

‘Yes, come in Ben.’

There was a pause, ‘Well which one is it? Because I would really rather not come in if it’s the first one.’

‘Come in,’ Ryan sighed and the door opened to reveal his older brother.

He had changed from last night, now wearing jeans and a dark button up shirt.

‘I made breakfast if you guys want to come out?’

‘Sounds good, we will be out soon,’ I smiled at him and the man nodded and left.

I was suddenly hit in the arm, ‘Why did you do that? Now I actually have to get out of bed!’

I simply kissed his cheek and got out of the bed, throwing some shorts and a white shirt over my boxers, thank-full for my drawer here full of spare clothes.

I walked out into the kitchen where on the table was three plates with Bacon and eggs.

‘Your brother is going to love you forever’ I laughed taking a seat across from Ben.

‘Oh, I forgot about his intense love for bacon.’

‘How could you forget? There’s a photo on the wall!’

We laughed, looking at the random artwork my boyfriend loved so much.

‘BACON!’ was suddenly screamed and Ryan ran to the seat, scoffing down bacon as fast as he could.

‘So Ben, how long are you in LA for?’ I asked, picking up a fork.

‘I leave tomorrow, so just a short trip’

‘You going to Ryan’s concert tonight?’

He smiled proudly at his little brother before answering, ‘Yeah, I am really looking forward to it.’ Ryan confirmed, nodding his bacon filled head, ‘Will you be there?’

I wished that I could, but I had to work. I couldn’t have gone anyway, maybe as a random person in the audience but I wouldn’t have been able to go backstage or see Ryan before the performance to wish him good luck. I longed for a day where I could do that.

‘Filming some scenes for a television show this afternoon and it won’t be finished until at least seven or eight.’

‘That sucks.’

‘Yeah.’

‘Thank-you Ben! You’re amazing,’ Ryan pushed away his empty plate and patted his brother on the head, ‘Good brother’

He then walked over to me and kissed my cheek.

‘Am I a good boyfriend?’

‘Very good boyfriend’ he patted my head and I smirked at his cuteness. Ryan walked out of the room and I had no clue where he was going, but I was more focused on the food in front of me, wait. He did not!

‘RYAN!’ I yelled and his head popped around the corner, a piece of bacon sticking out the side of his mouth. My bacon.

‘You ate my bacon,’ I pouted.

‘Nooo it wasn’t me! It was uh’ he looked around the room before pointing to something out the large window ‘It was that bird! Evil bird! Anyway love you!’ he smiled and disappeared around the corner.

Ben laughed, ‘He is a weird one, always was.’

‘Yep’ I laughed.

‘I’m pleased you guys are together, I can tell that he is really happy.’

‘Thanks Ben.’

‘Can I say something? and please don’t take it the wrong way.’

I was a bit sceptical, ‘Uh yeah?’

He looked at his lap for a few moments before meeting my eyes, ‘Please don’t hurt him.’

‘I won’t,’ I told him seriously, I would never hurt Ryan, ever.

‘I know you think that, but I’m serious. My brother, he has some serious abandonment issues, he doesn’t really let people get close to him. Our parents died when he was young and I was only eighteen. We had a rough time and he took it hard. I just want to make sure that if it gets tough, that you won’t leave him.’

‘I promise you Ben, I love him more than anything, and there is no way that I would hurt him like that.’

Ben smiled at me, ‘That’s good to hear.’

I thought about that while I finished my eggs, was that the reason that he didn’t want to come out before?

Was we worried that I would leave him if it got too hard?

Was that the reason that he didn’t want to leave Claudia? Maybe he feels like he has a duty to protect her and that leaving her would hurt her?

I wished that I had thought about all of this before, it would have been so much easier.

I decided to talk to him about all of this another day, and just let him focus on Ben today.

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‘Good luck tonight’ I kissed Ryan’s cheek, but he wasn’t happy with that, so he pulled me back in for a longer kiss, pressing his lips to mine and wrapping his arms around my waist.

‘Alright, no sex in the hallway boys,’ Ben muttered from inside.

‘Ben ruins all my fun,’ Ryan pouted and I pressed a quick kiss to his cheek.

‘Bye.’

‘Bye,’ He waved me off as I walked down the hallway to the elevators.

I was going to head home to get ready for work this afternoon, and Ryan and Ben were going to drive to his concert venue to do his sound check.

I walked out of the back exit to the building and was hit with flashes and the awful sight of Karly Grayson, a smug smile on her face.

Oh shit.