《Badly Written Poetry From A Fucked Mind》I Want To Hate Him
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I don't know if I can hate him.
I want to
I really want to
I want to hate him because he made me hate myself
I want to hate him because he hated me
I want to hate him because he acts like my childhood didn't happen
He acts like the things he did
That were questionable
Didn't happen
He wants to forget
But I can't fucking forget
He didn't have a childhood ruined
He didn't have to deal with the shit he did and said to me
He acts like half of my childhood wasn't ruined by him
I spent most of my time with him
He was the only one to influence me
He fucking ruined me
He had to of
Because if he didn't
Then who did
Who ruined me and my childhood
Who hurt me to the point that I can't look at myself and be happy
To the point where I'm not normal
To the point where I hate me
Who did that
I want to know
I want to fucking know
Because I can't stand this
I can't stand any of this
My family
Myself
Living in general
Everything is so hard
Life is hard
I hate this feeling
And I desperately want to hate him.
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