i have always started to be called a boy or just other names that are bad, my weight started gaining more and i kept calling myself a fut ugly cow because i just felt and maybe still feel like this, i let all my anger out on my parents which makes people think im the bad person, even my family members close to me say im always being mean to everyone, i have cutted over a year and i blame everything that i do to myself because i just think that its my fault and that i should hate myself, I dont anyone in my position because its hell living like this, but i know i have to keep going until i crash until the floor completely.

i dont talk to anyone one a lot anymore... everything has just been mixed up to me, i dont want no one near me or talking to me or putting a hand on me, i know i have to keep going and going... all this name calling have gotten me i so much mess, i dont even eat in the morning anymore, i dont like telling anyone of my family members because i dont want them to help me, cause they actually dont.

there is people much worse than me and i wish we can all be in peace instead of living a life like hell...