So, I don't really count abuse as bullying but I think it is, honestly I'm not sure... This the second story I'm submitting, sorry just want to get this off my chest and see if there are other people with these problems.

When I was four, my parents separated. My brother called the police on my dad because he was beating up my mom, again. My dad used to beat up my brothers and my mom.

When my dad moved to our other house at the time, we used to have three houses, I switched between going to my mom and dad. When I was with my dad, he would say to tell my mom that it wasn't his fault but mine. They separated because of my dad abusing and his affair, my mom found out he was gay too. He kept saying that it was my fault that I believed him when I was younger. He used to call me stupid and dumb. When I was four, he would leave me home alone a lot. He would have food set up on the table though. I know what you're thinking, how does she remember this if she was four? Well I guess traumatic experiences make you remember. Sometimes, he would slap me. When I was six, I finally started living with just my mom and brothers. My brothers didn't want to live with my dad at all.

I may dislike some people, but I only hate one person. My father. He didn't sign the damn papers that let my brother go to UCLA. All my brothers work 2 jobs and do gigs to earn extra money while going to college. My mom sometimes cries all day because of him. She's so depressed but she finds strength to still take care of me and love me. We lost our two houses. Our main house, we had to go bankrupt so we could get more money... The people who bought it teared my home down right in front of my eyes. They remodeled everything... So yes, I hate my father. He hurt me, but that's not why I hate him. I hate him for hurting my brothers and mom. My brothers always felt like they were never enough.

@Astra-stars-

I just want to ask, do I have right to feel this way about my father? I haven't talked to hi in 4 years. I'm 13 and in seventh grade.

Don't be like me and hold a grudge.