My bullying story started just about in 4th grade. I had just moved to a new town in said grade, but I managed to make a few friends to go along. Nothing too drastic happened in 4th, though there was an incident where I nearly had no partner in class until the teacher stepped in. Now, it all changes in 5th grade. I had a few friends that helped me go on, but it was still pretty hard to go through said grade. There were a few times where I was insulted and I did end up crying in the girls bathroom once because of it. Until one day, in about the middle of the year, it really kicked off. One of my friends came in from the bathroom and said,

"Someone wrote something nasty about you on the bathroom stall."

Now I was skeptical at first, I mean, why would someone go through the trouble of writing smack on the stalls? But I checked anyways. And what I saw made my heart break and nearly made me go home,

"I hate (my full name)"

"(My full name) is fat."

It made me cry and be upset for the rest of the day. I'm not even sure I got justice, as they did have a bathroom sign-in sheet, but there were very few girls, many of them in 6th or even 7th grade (5th grade was in middle school). Thus after that I became a crybaby for a while, crying at even the most ridiculous things. Then I moved once more in 6th grade, and I still live here to this day. I had recently became an anime fanatic because of said friend who told me of the writing on the stall, thus I was a very hyperactive and geeky girl, not making a very nice impression. But deep down inside I was pretty depressed, barely doing any of my work and ending up going to summer school. 6th and 7th grade was the worst in my bullying experience. Many people insulted me, and didn't want to be my friend simply because I was the class weirdo.

7th grade rolled around, and if I had to choose between which grade was the worst, it had to be this grade.

I nearly got into a physical fight, people mocked me because I wasn't physically fit, saying that I was "Bigfoot", etc. I even ran out of gym one time because I just couldn't take it.

8th grade was the turning point, where I actually had true friends. I met some other anime fans, and I even made some guy friends. Like, that was super rare, because boys back then didn't like me too much. 9th grade rolled around after and it seemed like the bullying was over.

Until a new "friend" came into my life.

We bonded over the newest movie that year, and I did actually know her from 7th grade cause one of my other friends introduced me to her, but we really didn't have any sort of friendship. She got me into all these fandoms and such, and we were really hitting it off. We even went on vacation together.

But then she changed, and suddenly because I liked the same things as her I was "copying her" and "trying to be cool" and "trying to be funny like her", even though none was true. She even yelled at me for not having any "unique" interests, even though that was not true either. She started to insult me, including calling my face "ugly", claiming that my eating habits were stupid, and that I was overweight and retarded. She tried making excuses that she only did that so I would "leave" her alone, but I didn't believe any of it. I tried keeping my interests secret, as I didn't want to lose her as a friend at the time, though I hated how she kept on claiming these stupid things. Finally, we broke off our friendship after one really bad fight, then we sorta made up only to brake off our friendship again because she accused me of being a "liar". Then again we sorta made up, but since I've moved on from the fandom that she got me into she called me "different" and hated that I moved on, even though just a few weeks ago she was claiming that I was copying her.

Thankfully we barely talk anymore, though there are a few chats here and there. I thought she could change for the better, I still do think so, but until that happens I'm certainly not going to let her in my life fully ever again.

Let me tell you during this whole faze of bullying (though thank god it has died off) that I had thought of doing suicide.

Until I realized that it will get better. And that I'd most likely hurt the people that are very close to me. Sometimes the thought lingers, but I always push it away. I'm thankful for my real friends now, the true friends I've made.

ADVICE: Honestly my advice is to just ignore the bullies. They're most likely doing it because they just want to get a reaction and make themselves feel powerful. Heck, talk to someone you trust, like an adult if they really start to get under the skin. And if you ever, ever think of suicide, call the hotline 1-800-273-8255. It'll help you, trust me.