Hi, this is Emily again. I just recently wrote two entries about my story, but a lot has changed these past couple of months. This will probably be long, but please read it. It would mean a lot to me.

People call me stupid, ugly, dumb, annoying, weird, slut (even though I have never dated, kissed, or sent nudes and I am still a virgin. I absolutely HATE when people don't use words correctly). It is pretty much everybody, except for my few friends.

My friends don't get bullied much. Occasionally, they will get picked on by somebody, but not constantly like me. My one friend is kinda depressed like me, and when something happens, she is always willing to listen.

But people don't realize what they're doing to me. I'm so lonely and sad and self consious that it depresses me and stresses me out. My sister picks on me a ton. She's always in a terrible mood and takes it out on us. My parents don't really care. When I'm mad, though, or if I'm a grump because my sister was picking on me, they yell at me and scold me.

It really annoys me when my friends complain about their little siblings. All my friends are the older sibling except for one, and she's the one I can always talk to. My friends always say they want to stab their sibling. They say that their sibling is so annoying, but they tourment their sibling and pick on them and call them names. This really hurts because that's exactly what my sister does to me, and they never stop to think of that. I always say, "Did it ever occur to you that they act like that because of the way you treat them?" But they just don't answer.

My parent don't know of my depression. Nobody does, except maybe my friend (the one I tell everything to). Even with her though, I don't tell her most of what I do.

Thanks so much for reading. If you can relate to my story, then pm me at emily_anne2003.