Jax has been sleeping over for a full three months, and I know the kids love having him here. The boys especially love having him at their disposal whenever they want. Including when they run into my room at night before they go to bed and jump on us in bed.

So when we're laying down in bed tonight together just cuddling while watching television I finally drop the question. "Do you want to move back in? Permanently?" I ask him as I look over. He immediately smiles at me as I blush back.

"You know I do." He whispers pulling me at him. I kiss his lips once and pull away, but he immediately pulls me back. We haven't had sex in two weeks, we've been dealing with the kids and working and it's just been a lot. So we literally get into bed and pass out after talking about our days.

That's something I love that we do now. We never used to lay in bed and talk, and now we do. It's keeping us on the same page with a lot of stuff, and I really feel like we're where we never used to be. I think it's because we've matured so much, and we never used to be so mature.

"So what happened today?" I ask laying on his chest while he watches some fighting on television.

"I paid some bills for the gym, trained a few kids, nothing much." He tells me as I cuddle into his chest. "What about you?" He asks rubbing my hip.

"Had a patient with kidney disease, one with constipation, and one with the flu. Kind of it." I tell him as he rubs my hip.

"Do you still like your job?" He asks as I nod. I do, I really love it. It just makes me so exhausted.

"Yeah, why?" I ask looking back at him. "You just look tired. Maybe a few days off would be good for you." He whispers to me. The fact that he knows that is horrible and amazing at the same time.

"Maybe a few days off for you too," I tell him looking back. "Maybe." He tells me as I smile. "Maybe to move in some boxes" he whispers again as I smile. We unpacked all the ones I had packed, and now he's coming back, it feels really great.

"Maybe you might need help," I add as he nods. "Definitely, especially when I have to test out the tub to see if we can still make kids in it." He tells me as I slap his chest softly making him laugh. No more babies for me, birth control is my best friend and I take it religiously, never missing my time.

"Let's not. More sex, no babies." I tell him as he laughs. "You wouldn't want another one?" He asks as I shake my head no.

"Absolutely not. I lose my mind with three now, another one, and I'm starting all over. Plus I hated being pregnant at the end of all of them." I tell him as he nods.

"Yeah big families look nice but having kids is hard." He agrees. "Speaking of them." He whispers looking over my shoulder as the bedroom door opens and I hear little feet. I look over my shoulder and see a very sleepy Kurt holding his superhero blanket in nothing but his boxers, obviously Jax dressed him for bed.

"Mama." He whispers walking in as I immediately get up. He never comes into our room unless he wants to jump on Jax and roughly play with him, and his voice isn't okay.

"What's wrong baby?" I ask bending down to his height before he hugs me. He's my five-year-old baby, and he's still my little boy. I hug him and stand up with him in my arms before taking him into the bed with Jax and me. I set him in between us as I check his head for a temperature and feel nothing.

"I can't sleep." He whispers rubbing his eyes. "Why?" I ask him rubbing his back. "I don't know." He whispers as I look over at Jax suspiciously.

"Dad?" I ask as he sighs. "We might have had cookies and soda before bed." He tells me as Kurt laughs under his breath and I immediately roll my eyes. He's always spoiling our kids.

"Daddy said don't tell you." He tells me as I slightly laugh. "Oh really? He did? What else did daddy tell you?" I ask Kurt while staring directly at Jax.

"Umm, that he bought-" he goes to start before Jax pulls Kurt to his chest and covers his mouth with his hand. He bought what?

"Umm--, I'll take him to bed." Jax immediately interrupts before he's picking Kurt up and making him giggle by tickling his armpits. I'm so curious now. He's probably bought new gym equipment or something that we don't need. That man and his spending habits, he's spoiling the kids way too much and he's always spending money. But we're financially stable, and I know he's got a cap on how much he'll spend as well.

He's gone for about an hour with Kurt, and I'm assuming he's sleeping with him for the night to keep him asleep when I cut off the television and lamps. I'm on my right side looking over at the left side of the bed empty where Jax used to be. I want to sleep, but I can't without him, so I'm stuck waiting on him until he's back in bed. He crawls in softly thinking that I'm asleep before he wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his chest while laying on his left side. That way we're facing each other and he's cuddling me with all his body heat.

I missed this for five years, more than I ever thought I would. Just him holding me, the thought kept me up at night missing it. This is why I love having him here so I can do this, with my husband, because I love him.

It just feels so good.

"I'm not asleep you know" I whisper into his ear as he sighs. "I know" he answers back as I grin. "Then you know I want an answer," I whisper as he sighs. "What did you buy?" I ask him as he starts smiling.

"It's not important Ry" he tells me as I push his chest. "Please tell me. It's so important to me, I want to know. I mean Kurt knows and I don't?" I ask him as he laughs.

"Fine. It's for you. I had the boys with me when I went to go get it. I couldn't have them there and be confused so I told them the truth and told them not to tell you or I'd find out. Now Kurt's trying to tell everything. You tricked him." he tells me as I sigh.

"But I want to know. Come on, what is it?" I ask softly smiling. I start rubbing his arms and kissing his neck knowing I'm his weakness and he can't take it. He immediately gets hard on my thigh when I reach down and palm him over his shorts.

"Babe" I whisper moving one hand to grip his chest.

"Fine. I went and bought you a ring" he whispers as I look up at him. A ring? What kind of ring? I have a wedding band and an engagement ring.

"It's a real wedding band, the one you always wanted with the diamonds and big jewels. I thought maybe since we've been apart so long, that we could renew our vows, and I'm giving you the real band you wanted. Not that the other one isn't good, but it's what you wanted since you couldn't have the big nice one at your job. Now you can, and I really think we should renew our vows." he tells me as I instantly smile and move both my hands to hold his head in place.

"What happened to the dick I married? Because that is the sweetest thing anyone has ever thought about doing for me. I love you. I'd love to renew our vows, but let's wait a few more months until we know we're ready. Plus Kurt's birthday is soon and I don't want to take the light away from him turning six." I tell him as he nods.

"Alright, that'll work," he tells me as I smile. "I love you Rylee, I want you to know that this is my forever, with you. I want this." he tells me as I nod.

"I know that now babe, I do. And I'm not holding anything against you, I've really been trying my hardest to forgive and forget, even if I'll never forget how I felt," I whisper as he nods.

"I know. I'm sorry Ry. We'll get through this, I promise you, I'm here" he tells me as I smile. I lean forward into his space and kiss his lips softly before he pulls away. He pushes me down into the sheets and hovers above me moving his lips to my collarbone.

"What are you doing?" I ask as he continues kissing my chest. "Well I had a pretty amazing fucking idea of driving my head between these thighs," he tells me as I laugh and rub his hair.

"Please do" I whisper back as he smiles and starts kissing down my body. He's in the process of taking his shirt off my body when the bedroom door cracks open and he immediately moves to the side of me so it looks like we're just closely hugging, instead of almost fucking.

"You forgot to lock it" I whisper as he sighs a soft "fuck" under his breath. I look over and see Kurt again as I sigh.

"Daddy you left and I can't sleep!" he tells him as I laugh. "Duty calls" I whisper as he sighs and kisses my lips. "How am I supposed to fuck you sideways when this happens every ten minutes" he whispers onto my lips before getting out of bed.

"Come on Kurt. Tomorrow we're having a big boy talk." He tells him as he nods.

"Tell mama goodnight," he tells him as he tells me goodnight in his little voice. "Goodnight baby, I love you. Night Jax, love you too" I tell Jax as he tells me he loves me and then moves off with Kurt. Kurt might be sleeping tonight but I won't be, and that's okay.

Because I know I have my husband and I love knowing that he's with our son.