We finally got to Six Flags, I gripped Gilinskys hand and we got out of the car, we got in through the back which was kind've weird. We were escorted to the actual park, there were a ton of people, a few fans noticed us and started along pictures. "That slut thinks she's worth him, ugh look at her she's so ugly, her legs look swollen" a few girls muttered as we walk down the street. My grip loosens up at bit, the last one got to me, your just some fat girl who no one loves, no those same sick words crept back into my thoughts, "Um, I need a second" I whispered too Gilinsky, he nodded and I pecked his lips, but it wasn't the same. I walked to the bathroom, the group waited for me. I walked in the bathroom and looked into the mirror,

"breathe Karma, promise me that you'll be strong, promise me you'll do something good with your life, don't let the world change you, never let a man hurt you, I love you" my mom said, she handed me the bus ticket and a gold necklace with a small heart locket and kissed my forehead. I hopped on the bus and watched as my mom slowly faded out into the distance.

I inhaled and exhaled, I've got this, just push through. I ran my fingers through my hair and walked back outside. "You okay?" Gilinsky asked, I interviewed our fingers "when have I ever been okay" I muttered, "huh?" He said, thank god he didn't hear me "Fine, I'm...fine" I said smiling. He nodded and we continued walking down the street.

We went on a bunch of rides, Matt filmed the whole thing for a YouTube video, "it's so cute" I said, we were looking at the tigers, Taylor handed me the bottle and I fed the white tiger. I took a few pictures then we walked to the Dolphins, I came up begind Matt and yelled "MATT LIKES HIS BOOGERS EXTRA SALTY" while he was filming "if you edit that out your getting smack camed" I whispered, he laughed nervously. I laughed and nudged him, we changed into wetsuits and hung out with the Dolphins.

"Hey" I said walking over to Taylor, he put his arms around me "hey" he said smirking "why so flirty Caniff" I said raising my eyebrows "me, flirting?! You wish" he said, avoiding eye-contact. I laughed and nudged him. Bart coughed and gave me a death glare "gotta go, the boss looks like he's ready to bite my head off" I said going back to Jack, I nudged him and he looked down, he put him arm around me, but it was cold, he didn't even glance at me. I yanked him to the side and pulled him to a tree "what the fuck Karma" he snapped, rubbing his wrist "sorry, Jack..." I looked at him, he understood what I meant "Sorry, this situation is weird, I still love you" he said looking at him, love, that word hit me like a train and something really scared me,

I loved him, and I think I still do.

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