(so only for you guys updating this fast either I would have taken gap for 2 days what should I do your comments and votes are making me update)

(okay now let's stop talking and you start reading)

Parading on the balcony I was waiting for Hussain at the midnight and thinking about these six months I've stayed with him

After the incident at samara's wedding he hardly talked to me even Amyra is now in no contact with Hussain and he blame me for that, things are now not working out between us I still remembered each and every harsh word he spoke to me in these months.

I've done everything wear what he want, I made myself a totally different Amaya but still he is same even now I'm wearing this damn short dress up till my thigh only for him but still he is the same.

Each and every day the news flashes on news channels about Hussain in relation with another girl, every second person share their pictures with Hussain on social sites that they saw him chilling out but I believe him, when I asked him he beats me up or hurt himself. It's a hard time I'm in but I will carry my relation to the end we are family we will be together.

I was in my thoughts when I saw Hussain's car entering from the main gate, quickly going down I opened the door and he came in.

"aaj deir hogai hussain"

(you are late today hussain)

I tried to talk

"shooting pe tha main, ab 8 to 12 tak ki lokhndwala pe shop to hai nahi meri jo time pe ana ho"

(I was on my shooting, I don't own a shop from 8 to 12 at lokhandwala that I will come on time)

He answered again in his harsh tone

"No, I was waiting for you on dinner, let's eat together"

"tum khalo I've already ate mai bus pani peounga"

(feed yourself I ate already water ill do fine for me)

He said and left me there thinking that why he had changed so much when I heard a loud voice yelling in pain quickly going there I found Hussain's leg bleeding and the pieces of glass was laying in kitchen

Oh shit! I forget about this broken glass

Quickly going there I made the broken glass side and put some ointment on Hussain's feet and the bleeding stopped but then he jerked me up to his level and again hurt me with his harsh words

"janbujh kar takleef pohchati hona mujhay bolo"

(you do things to hurt me on purpose right)

"jee....nai hussa...."

(What... no hussa...)

I was in the middle of my sentence when Hussain grabbed my jaw with one hand tightly and said

"tum aise nahi mano gina, tumhain sabaq sikhana parega"

(you will not understand like this, I have to teach you)

And with that said he pulled my hand and took a piece of glass from floor and tried to cut my hand but then a hand came making Hussain stop from doing so and a body came hugging me and wrapping the hands in my shoulder

We arrive at the midnight only to surprise the couple on their 3rd wedding anniversary but arriving at Hussain's place we found surprise for ourselves the door was totally open.

Frowning to Shehry we entered together when I found Amaya in a short dress, seeing this Shehryaar shifted his gaze to the floor.

"shehry... hussain hath kat raha hai"

(shehry... hussain is cutting her hand)

I said and Shehry fastly ran towards Hussain moving him back and I wrapped my hands around Amaya's shoulder and hugged her.

For a while we stayed like this and then Shehry spoke

"hussain ye kia kar rha tha tu"

(hussain what were you doing)

"wohi jo is ne kea mere sath"

(same what she did to me)

We all saw Hussain's leg finding the ointment on It and we understand the situation

"pata nahi kab se glass para tha utha leti to mera paoun salamat rehta"

(don't know from when this glass was lying here only if cleaned it up my leg would've been fine right now)

He spoke and the anger which I was controlling busted up

"to iska kia matlb hua ab tum bhi iska hanth kato gay? Or bhi kitna sab karti hai ye tumhare liye aur amaya tum itna sub kuch horaha tha chup chap saha q tumne? Bataya kiyoun nahi, dikho apne upper in choton k nishan"

(so what does that mean you will revenge upon it? She does a lot of things for you. And amaya you, why are you enduring this torture, why didn't you tell us, look at these marks upon you)

I said but no one spoke and then shifting my gaze to Hussain I asked

"kiyoun kiya tumne ye hussain "

(why did you do it hussain)

"kiyoun k nahi karta main is se pyar, jis se karta hun us k sath nahi reh sakta. Ap sab ne mil kar mere sir pe daal di hai is ki zimidari"

(because I don't love her, the one I love I can't live with her, because all of you have burdened me with this responsibility)

Listening to this my eyes got teary and I asked to Amaya

"tum kiyoun ho ab tak iske sath amaya tumhe to sab pata tha. Mere samne tumne suna tha k kaise ye tumhain bwakoof banata hai kiyoun rahi tum iske sath bolo?"

(why are you still with him amaya you knew everything you heard everything with me, then why are you still will him tell me)

"qk mai kariti hun pyar shifa bhabi, mai karti hun inse pyar"

(because I love him shifa *shehry's wife* I love my husband)

With that said Amaya ran towards the guest room and locked herself inside when Hussain said

"kiyoun karti ho mujhse pyar han? pecha kiyoun nahi chor deti mera?"

(Why do you love me? Why can't you just leave me?)

And with that he also left to his room when Shehry and I stood there dumbfounded when I started cleaning the glass and Hussain came holding a bag in his hands.

"kahan jaa raha hai tu"

(where are you going)

Shehry asked hesitantly

"Next shooting Malaysia mai hai 6 baje ki flight hai ja raha hun10 din mai ajaounga"

(next shooting is scheduled in Malaysia I have my flight at 6, will be back in 10 days)

With that said he left and I started making tea for us and Amaya.

"kiyoun k mai karti hun pyar bhabhi, mai karti hun inse pyar "

(because I love him shifa *shehry's wife* I love my husband)

With that said I started running towards the guest room when Hussain spoke

"kiyoun karti ho mujhse pyar han pecha kiyoun nahi chor deti mera?

(Why do you love me? Why can't you just leave me?)

Going in I shut the door tightly and opened the television so no one can listen me crying but this stupid machine played against me playing the emotional song to make me cry more

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.

Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye.

Tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na

(How do I tell, Why I love you, O friend, I'm unable to tell..

See, whatever talks of hearts, is remaining.The eyes explain to you

You don't know...you don't know...)

Milke bhi, hum na mile, tum se na jaane kyun. meelon ke, hai faasle, tum se na jaane kyun. anjaane, hai silsile, tum se na jaane kyun. sapne hai, palkon tale, tum se na jaane kyun.ooo ooo..

(Even after meeting, I didn't meet-you, don't know why, of miles-

there are distances from u, don't know why, unknown series (of say, links) are there, attached to you, don't know why, dreams are there-

below the eyelids, because of you, don't know why..)

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.

Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye.

Tu jaane naa..aaa... tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane naaaa...

(How do I tell, Why I love you, O friend, I'm unable to tell..

See, whatever talks of hearts, is remaining.The eyes explain to you

You don't know...you don't know...)

The song started dedicating each and every word to me as if the song is specially made for me

Nigahon mein dekho meri, jo hai bas gayaaa..

Woh hai milta tumse hubahuu..

Ooo, jaane teri aankhein thi ya, baatein thi wajaaa..

Hue tum jo dil ki aarzoo...

Tum paas ho ke bhi, tum aas ho ke bhiii, ehsaas ho kee bhi, apne nahi...

(that who's living (can say stuck) in my eyes, that looks exactly like you, I don't know whether your eyes or talks were the reason, that you became the wish of heart, you, even though near, you, even though wished for, even after being a feeling, are not mine)

The words made me realize about the old Hussain he was in the beginning time of our marriage when he was trying to get in bollywood, he was frustrated

gussa rehta tha par kabhi mere pr nahi nikala. Aur ab...

(he was always angry but never made me suffer and now...)

Aise hain, humko gile, tumse na jaane kyun.

Meelon ke, hain faasle, tum se na jaane kyun.ooo...

Tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na

(Why do I have such complaints, against you, don't know why, of miles, there are distances from u, don't know why, you don't know.. you don't know.).

Ooo jaane na jaane na jaane na .. aaa tu jaane na ..

Khayalon mein, lakhon baatein yun tu keh gaya...

Bola kuch na tere samne...

Ooo, huea na be-gaane bhi tum hoke haar kein... Dekho tum na mere hi bane.

Afsos hota hai, dil bhi yeh rota hai, sapne sanjota hai, pagla hua...

Allah ji kiyon dia apne husssain ko meri jholi mai kiyoun banaya uski biwi mujay Soche ye, hum the mile, tumse na jaane kyun. Meelon ke, hain faasle, tum se na jaane kyun. Anjaane, hai silsale, tum se na jaane kyun. Sapne hain, palkon tale, tum se na jaane kyun.uuu....

(o, don't know- don't know- don't know, you don't know, in thoughts millions of things (I) said though, Didn't say anything when in front of you, You didn't get alienated even after being of someone else's, see you didn't become mine either, there is grief, the heart cries too, it cherishes dreams, gone mad, it thinks why I met you, of miles there are distances from you, unknown series are there, attached to you, don't know why, dreams are there- below the eyelids, because of you, don't know why..)

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.

Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye.

Tu jaane naa.. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na

Tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaaaane na...

(How do I tell, Why I love you, O friend, I'm unable to tell..

See, whatever talks of hearts, is remaining.The eyes explain to you

You don't know...you don't know...)

The song made me cry and I cried a lot sitting there when I remembered Shifa bhabhi and Shehry bhai is here, quickly changing myself in shalwar kameez *tradional clothing* and washing my face with water I came out of the washroom when I saw this guest room.

Ab toh lagta hai ye guest room he mera room hai qk Hussain Anaya k sath nahi soo sakte aur mai Anaya k bagair

(I think now this guest room is my room because hussain can't sleep with anaya and I can't without her)

Smiling I moved out finding bhabhi with a big tray and I go near her and she put a morsel in my mouth.

"khao mujhay pata hai tumne kuch nhi khaya hoga"

(eat, I know you haven't eaten anything)

and I ate quietly with her hands and we started talking.

Bhabhi and bhai just left telling me about that hussain left news and with lots of wishes on my anniversary and gifts.

In sab ka kia faida jab rishta he tuta hua ho...

(there's no need for this when the relation is whole broken)

Sitting there on the bed seeing my 1 year old baby sleeping I think 100 of times. Should I do this? Yes you should

My heart and my brain was assuring me I have to do this so I stuffed my bag with mines and Anaya's cloths taking the passport I was leaving quietly with my daughter when my eyes shifted to Hussain's picture on one of the walls and my eyes got teary

Sorry Hussain I have to do this

With that said with trembling hands I wrote a letter and stick it to the fridge and left the beautiful house taking good memories inside me.

(You are also sad for separation. I am also sad for separation but not to amaya and hussain don't even know about it)