How can you be so stupid Amaya...how can you lose your baby

but I didn't even knew what is my fault. it's all your fault you just want to make Hussain feel the same jealousy and see what you did. Hussain is so hurt after that you should do something for him. But...no buts just make him forget soon otherwise you'll hurt yourself.

"Ouch...."

Chopping some fresh vegetables to make food I got a fight between my heart and my brain and I went so deep in that, that I cut my own finger, I saw dark red blood coming out of my finger and to make my finger stop bleeding I put my finger in my mouth. only to revolve memory around me.

Flashback....

I was cutting something when Hussain slowly move forward towards me and make me scared

"Boo"

"ahh" I shouted and mistakenly cut my figure

"uh..sorry sorry chot laga di mainay sorry"

(uh.. sorry sorry I hurted you sorry)

He kept saying sorry and the next moment i saw him taking my finger in his mouth sucking some blood so my finger will stop bleeding.

"Hussain ap chorain mai kar lungi"

(hussain leave it I'll do it)

"No I made you hurt I will be the one now to take care of you"

He put a band aid on my finger and all the food was then made by him, all the food for all family he made it set it on the table and after that I didn't even worked for 1 week until each mark of that cut was vanished

Flashback ends

Kitna acha waqt tha wo, Hussain kitnay achay thay us waqt aur hum sub sath rehtay thay ek family ki tarah umeed hai kay hum sub phir se wapis saath rahain like a family forever.

(It was such a great time, hussain was so nice at that time and we all were living together like a family, I wish that we will live together again like a family forever)

Making all the food on time I walked in my room where my baby was playing with the toys peacefully

"ammi ki shehzadi bacha,bilkul tang nahi karta mama ko haina mera jaan"

(mama's princess daughter, never irritates her mom right my sweety)

I said to her and she smiled

"dada dada dada"

" aww....papa ki yaad arahi hai, don't worry papa abhi ajaengay"

(aww...missing papa, don't worry papa will also be back)

After that I made my baby sit on the bed and started putting all her toys in a bucket when she shouted

"naaaaaaaaa"

(nooooooooo)

"ya Allah Anaya itna gussha han....mama nalaj apshay"

(oh my god Anaya why so angry... mama is upset with you*with a baby tone*)

"aanu naaj se"

*baby mimic*

She mimicked what I did in her cute baby tone and I started playing with her inertly thanking god for blessing me with her in my life

nahi to abhi mai toot kar bikhar jati is ghum se na nikal pati

(or else I would've been shattered with this pain, I could'nt escape it then)

dukh ab bhi tha apna bacha khoya hai mainay, par itminan bhi tha k mujhay aur Hussain ko sambhalnay k liye hamari parri hmary sath hai

(I was sad still for losing my baby, but I was relived at the same time because we had our angel to support us)

Don't know how time passes away playing there with Anaya when I heard a bell on my door

ye Hussain to nahi warna me pehchan jati

(this isn't hussain or else I would've sensed it)

Thinking that who will be there I walked to open the gate reviling ashraf (Hussain personal assistant) at my door

Quickly covering my head with the dupatta I asked him the reason why he is here

"ashraf bhai ap yahan? aur ye log kon hain ap k pechay?"

(Ashraf you're here, why? And who are they behind you?) I asked seeing some other people interring my house

"jee maam wo mujhay Hussain sir nay bheja hai in k sath they will all hel you for the event"

(yes mam actually hussain sir have send me with them they will all help you for the event)

"Event...kaisa event"

(event...what even?)

"mam hussain sir ne humain khas hire kea hai for his wedding aur kaha hai humhain ap guide karaingi"

(mam hussain sir have specially hired us for hs wedding and he said you'll me guiding us )

"Hussain ki shadi..."

(hussain's wedding...)

The last word he said make me froze and to conform it I asked him again and he nodded, I was confused, hurt, i was in pain all in one time but more I was thinking about what he said last

ab to rishtay se laounga

(I'll bring her with a relation now)

I was still in trance when I feel hussain's presence around me running to the door I saw him parking his car at the corner, without waiting any second I ran to him and asked what the crap they all were saying

"Hussain acha hua ap agaye daikhay na ashraf bhai pata nahi kis ko le kar aye hain wo log kehtay hain mujhay ap ki shadi ki tayari karni hai Hussain kia bakwas hai ja k samjhaye unhain "

(hussain its god that you came see ashraf have bring these people with him speaking nonsense that I have to prepare for your wedding, that's all rubbish go speak to them)

"sahi keh rahay hain woh"

(they are right)

He said making me shocked and get biggest shock of my life, I stumbled but then balanced myself from his car

"Par Hussain ap to shadi shuda.."

(hussain but you are already married...)

"han to? Islam main 4 shadiyan allowed hain Amaya"

(so what? Islam allows us to get married 4 times amaya)

"Hussain ap kaisay kar sakty hain mere sath, no Hussain please don't do this please ap kiyon kar rahy hain"

(hussain how can you do this with me, no hussain please don't do this, please why are you doing this)

I said grabbing him from both shoulders and in return he did the same, he grabbed me from both my sides and asked

"tum nay socha jab tum sid k sath dance kar rahi thye tum ne kiyoun kia mere sath Amaya aisa qoun nahe bataya mujhay kay tum hamal se the, qounnnn?"

(Did you thought when you were dancing with sid why did you did that to me why didn't you tell me that you were pregnant, just whyyyy?)

"hogayi galti maf kardijye Hussain par aisa kiyoun kar rahy hain ap...ye shadi"

(I did a mistake ussain forgive me for that but why are you doing this, this wedding)

"han ye shadi tumhe nay kaha than a kis rishtay se laounga main Amyra ko la raha hoon rishtay say"

(yes this wedding you asked me with what relation I'll bring amyra here so I am making a relation now)

"Amyra"

Wiping my fallen tears I snatched hussain's car key from him and drove off to amyra's place

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At Amyra's place

Hitting the breaks in a parking lot I ran up to amyra's apartment and rang the bell she opened it just in seconds and I walked in

"Amyra listen i wanna talk"

"pata hai pata hai phir wohi puranay ghissay pitay dialog Hussain mere hai chor do ussay please"

(I know I know again those old dialog hussain is mine leave hussain please)

Joining my palms in front of her I begged her

"please Amyra chor do hussain ko wo ek bachay ka baap hai mai bohot pyar karti hun apne sohar se"

(Please Amyra leave him he is a father of a daughter and I love my husband so very much)

Tears again got a place in my eyes and I begged the one who can do the entire thing now. She came closer and separated my palms and spoke right in front of my face

"main na karti shadi Amaya trust me mai nahi karti par mai bhi to karti huna pyar"

(I wouldn't marry him amaya trust me I wouldn't but I also love)

with a pause she started again

"pyar tumhare sohar se"

(love your husband)

I heard her evil laugh on which I cried loud but she showed no mercy on me and then I walked out again thinking

Hussain is mine I'll talk to him

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Coming back to home I found no one except Hussain sitting there with Anaya when I got near and his face facial changed seeing me

"kiyoun gayi thye Amyra k ghar han?"

(why did you went to Amyra's place?)

"bheek mangnay gayi thye us say k who apko chor day"

(I went to beg her so she will leave you)

I spoke and saw more anger

"daikho tum aisa kuch nahi karogi, mai bata raha hoon"

(listen you won't do anything like this, I'm telling you )

"kiyoun Hussain ap mere sohar hain hamari ek bachi hai ap is tarah kaisay shadi kar sakty hain kisi say anaya kay bary main to sochay is ki zindagi par ka asar parega"

(why hussain you're my husband we have a daughter how can you get married like this with anyone have you thought about Anaya how will it effect her life)

I said gazing anaya

"Anaya ki zindagi par kuch asar nahi parega ab zara over react na karo samjhi"

(it won't affect Anaya's life in anyway so don't over react now understood)

"mai apko is shadi ki ijazat nahi doongi"

(I won't allow you for this marriage)

"tumhain deni paregi Amaya"

(you have to Amaya)

"mai nahi dongi"

(no I won't)

"theek hai phir ye sunlo ya to tum chup chap sath raho aur ijazat do mujhay ya phir alag hojao mujhsay azad karta hoon main tumhain"

(okay then listen, either you give me permission to get married and live here with us or else separate yourself and live alone I free you )

The moment he said that I was in deep pain,

Aj Amyra mujhsay itni upar hogai k us k liye mujhay talaq dainay ko razi hain ye, chor do Hussain ko Amaya chali jao yahan say, mai chali gai to Anaya ka kia hoga, maa ya baap ek ka pyar khona parega ussay aur gai to kahan jaoungi mai Hussain k ilawa koi to nahi mera ab abba se bhi nata chor ai hu main kiya kroongi ab?

(So now amyra is above me that he can even divorce me for her, leave him Amaya escape from here, if I leave what will happen to Anaya, mom or dad she have to sacrifice either love and even if I want to go where will I go I have nobody except hussain I left my father because of him, what will I do now?)

"5 min hain tumhary paas aram se soch k batado "

(you have 5 minutes to think about it then tell me)

"mujhay tumhari doosri shadi karna manzoor hai"

(I accept you getting married again)

I spoke in pain and walked to my room leaving my all life there the moment I accepted his demand.

Coming to my room I shut it tight and as I always do I quickly opened some loud music channel so nobody can hear me crying nobody can see how weak I am so that nobody will judge me being me.

Tum todo na dil mera

Nahi jeena yun tere bin

Nahi jeena yun tere bin..

(Don't break my heart

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to live without you)

A song started describing what my heart want to say loudly to Hussain, why this always happens to me... whenever I'm crying everything wants me to cry more.

Tum todo na dil mera...Nahi jeena yun tere bin

(don't break my heart... I don't wanna live like this without you)

"Na toro mera dil please Hussain. Kia kami hai mere pyar mai,mat karo aisa mere saath please"

(please don't break my heart hussain. Where does my love lack, please don't do this with me please)

I spoke while sobbing

O tum bin main dekho to, Kya se kya ho baithi

Tumko jo khoya to, Khudko bhi kho baithi

tu Mujhko dhoonde toh, Main khudko paa loongi

Main tere badle mein, Ab Jannat bhi na lungi

(Look without you what I've became

since I've lost you, I've lost myself

If you search for me, then I'll find myself

in exchange of you, I won't even except heaven)

Mera dil tera hai, tera dil mera

Suchhe Sachhe Saathiya

Aaye mujhe math, Jo Thond unga dil

yeh kayi kasme

tu ban ke lahoon, Hai Naas Naas main

My heart is yours, your heart is mine

together we are soul mates

I may die if I break your heart

this is the promise that I've taken

you're like a blood flowing through my veins.

Tum todo na dil mera (Oh.. dil mera) Nahi jeena yun tere bin

Tum todo na dil mera (dil mera) Nahi jeena yun tere bin

Tum todo na dil mera Nahi jeena yun tere bin

(Don't break my heart... I don't wanna live like this without you

don't break my heart... I don't wanna live like this without you

don't break my heart... I don't wanna live like this without you)

Tum todo na dil mera...Nahi jeena yun tere bin...Tum todo na dil mera..

(Don't break my heart... I don't wanna live like this without you...Don't break my heart)

The song ended leaving the loud thud on my door and making me cry even more

"Amaya bloody dam it open the door"

Hussain spoke from outside and I opened the door after cleaning my face.

"Hmm...?"

"Ap kay dost aye hain...sid"

(your dear friend came...sid)

He spoke and asking for a minute I closed the door again to get myself ready so I can meet him.

Splashing some water on my face and applying a layer of kajal to hide redness of my eyes I walked out of the room to find sid standing there with a red rose flower in his hands.

"For the beautiful lady on this earth"

He spoke and passed the flower to me and I took it smiling

"shukriya, tou batao kaisay ana hua?"

(Thanks, so te me how did you came?)

"actually I was worried for you"

"pareshan, mere liye? kiyoun yaar mujhay kia hua hai?"

(Worried, for me? Why what happened to me?)

"woh amaya me yahan maafi mangnay aya tha, kalki waja se, im so sorry wo sub na hota agar mai dance ke liye na kehta"

(Actually amaya I came here for an apology regarding yesterday's issue, only if I haven't ask you to dance, this wouldn't have happened)

"koe bat nahe sid isme tumhari koe galti nahe mujhay bhi nahi pata tha shayad mere bachay ko kho dena he taqdeer ko mazoor tha, tum baitho mai tumhary liye chai buna kar laai"

(It's okay sid it's not your fault I didn't knew myself maybe my miscarriage was the destiny's fate, you can sit I'll make tea for you)

"chai...kisi cook ko bol do wo buna lega Amaya tum kiyoun"

(tea... ask for it to the cook, why should you make it)

Listening to this I laughed a bit and answered

"mai apnay ghar k kaam khud karti hoon sid, cooking bhi cook se karwaoun to shadi bhi phir hussain ki usi se honi thye"

(I do my house hold by myself sid, if I ask cook for cooking then hussain should've get married with him)

I spoke and saw his shocked face

"Seriously... mera matlab aj kal aisa kon sochta hai or woh bhi jis k paas itna paisa ho, they all want 24/7 rest you know"

(seriously... I mean now a day who thinks that way especially for those who have enough money, they all want 24/7 rest you know)

"but I'm not like that I feel good when I do something for my loved once"

I replied being just ME

"yeah your are so like my dream girl"

he said while maybe being sweet towards me

"okh to umeed hai tumhain tumhari dream girl jald mil jaye"

(okay so I wish you'll find your dream girl soon)

I spoke and walked to kitchen to make tea.

Amaya walked off and sid sat there still waiting for her when I go near sid and sat on the next couch with Anaya in my hands.

"hey Hussain kaisay ho?"

(hey hussain how are you?)

He asked making me shocked

Aj chand kaha se nikal aya?

(where did the moon risen from)

We never talked

"bohot khush, aur sukun mai"

(extremely happy, and in peace)

I spoke teasing him

"Nice and how about shooting?"

He asked again

"ahm han sab acha hai bekar bethnay ka waqt he nahi"

(ahm everything good don't have much time to sit freely)

I spoke making him jealous

"hmm I can see that"

He spoke back fired me and I was about to walk away from that when he called me

"Hey Hussain sorry man, see the thing is umm lets be friends"

what friends...really?

"kiyoun pehlay Amaya se dosti ab mere say chakkar kia hai dude?"

(Why being friend with amaya in the first place and then me what's the matter dude?)

"nothing it's just your wife's magic she is great, she said me to do this and then I decided for no war now"

The moment he mansion Amaya between I don't know from where anger built up in me and I spoke again

"Oh please keep your friendship just with amaya, I don't want any kind of friendship with you, you are a bastard and will always be"

Hussain started walking back when Amaya came holding the tray in her hands and Hussain said something to her and walked off

I listened and in my thinking it was,

"taqreeb ki tayari karo"

(prepare for the function)

"here's your tea" Amaya spoke smiling

"kis ki shadi ki tayari kar rahi ho tum han?"

(for whose wedding are you preparing for?)

I asked sipping the tea from my cup

"Hussain's"

She said and I spilled all my tea out of my mouth

"what"

'han Hussain ki shadi chalo ab tumhai bohot help karni hai meri tayari mai"

(yes hussain's wedding okay so you need to help me with the preparations)

"Amaya tum pagal hogai ho kia wo shadi shuda hai you are his wife"

(amaya are you insane he is married you're his wife)

"Islam mai 4 shaadiyan jaiz hai ek waqt main sid"

(Islam allows to get married 4 times in once sid)

"han par ye galat hai 2nd wife kiyoun?"

(okay but it wrong why second wife?)

"please sid don't ask me that just help me please"

He spoke and I shut my mouth

I left Amaya's place and drove off from her house to mines only thinking one thing, Hussain is marrying and she is not crying even preparing the things for him.

Aise kia majboori hai k who aisa kar rahi hai, aur Hussain... Hussain itni achi biwi ko aisay kiyoun chor raha hai?

(What's the reason that she is doing this and hussain, why is he leaving his wife like this?)

I don't understand what's happening, anyway I have to help Amaya Cox I know she is not happy with this and I will help her, I'll talk to hussain so that he won't be marrying anyone else ... I have a plan so I just have to wait for the right time.

(my fingers are hurting, someone massage them please)

(I am so tired)