*with mixed emotions of joy and sadness*

A shiny sunkeep hitting my face and make me to wake up myself a bit earlier but what I see was confusing. Anaya was there sitting as if she is waiting or something smiling happily towards her I asked her if she need anything and she shook her head in a no

coming closer to me she said papa so sweetly that my heart was so warmed

"ji papa ki jaan"

(yes papa's princess)

I said smiling.

"You asked me whom will I chose if I want to be with one of you"

She said and the tension started building up in me when she said this, I thought she has forgotten but this thing...

"yes princess so?"

I asked frowning

"It's you papa, I wanna live with you. I have chosen you please take me away with you"

She said and I was froze what she said

"But why princess"

I asked and she said nothing

"don't you love Rehan uncle or won't you miss mamma"

I asked again if she will change her decision

"no papa I will not miss mamma, and Rehan uncle. He can't be my dad but mamma. why mama marrying him I Hate her for this"

She said

"No princess don't say this, how can you when your mamma make you this much big and grown you up all alone when I wasn't here, you are wrong princess"

"yeah you are right but please take me with you"

"Anaya ki custody ap kay pass hai agar woh bhi chali jaegi to mera kiya hoga ....mera kia..."

(You have anaya's custody if she leave too what will happen to me... what about me)

No I can't take Anaya with me. Amaya want her more, she is amaya's daughter...

Amaya's voice made me to take decision and I said Anaya 'no' about taking her with me but as she has my blood inside. She kept saying the same thing to take her with me and then I made the decision which broke me inside

Thinking that the anger will be best I applied it on her

"papa I am going with you and that's final"

Anaya said

"no...nahi jarahi tum mere sath... samajh nahi ata tumhain"

(no...you are not going with me... cant you understand this)

I said showing the anger on my face, in short acting around my innocent daughter.

"You will be with your mom and that's final, UNDERSTOOD?"

I said and saw tears building up in her eyes. My heart ache me on what I did but my brain alerted that it's for Amaya and Anaya's own good, Rehan loves them both sho much and he even gives them time he will be the perfect father for my daughter and a perfect husband for my once wife.

Although this decision break me down but it was for something good. I saw Anaya crying but I didn't show and thing to her. I stayed the same in anger.

"Nobody loves me NOBODY you also hate me mama also marrying rehna dad. I want you with mamma I want my perfect family like my friends have, 1 mama 1 papa"

Anaya said and leave the room crying.

I also shed few drops of tears but then control myself to cry any further.

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Taking a short quick bath I quickly changed myself in casuals and started packing my stuff together when Vihaan came holding breakfast for me.

"What...this packing? Why"

He asked

"haan aj sham ki flight hai meri so apna sab sameet raha hoon"

(yes you are right I have my flight in the evening so packing up my stuff)

I replied smiling

"but it's the wedding... why are you going"

He asked tension building up on his face

"yeah will be there don't worry"

I said and he smiled..

"ok the eat something then we will be back to work. We have to prepare a lot"

Vihaan said and leave the room

Waqai. tayariyaan to bohot karni hai

(seriously. A lot to prepare)

I mouthed to myself taking the papers from the drawer

"Anaya will be going with Hussain Rehan. I thought to tell you this"

The last words of Amaya was keep repeating in my mind and don't know why I was feeling something awkward. shooking the thought away I walked again to my room from the balcony and gazed my shewani closely

2nd marriage. I never thought about that, I'm remarrying yet I didn't divorce my 1st wife. After some moments I will be committed to Amaya also.

But I'm happy I've found one for myself. Like...like I thought Sam was. But she wasn't like this, but Amaya is. I will be happy with her I know...

Wearing my creamy sherwani which my brother selected for me I was tucking my front buttons and was seeing myself in mirror when I saw door at my back opening.

A women in casual started entering in my room and I waited for her . My sight was glued at the mirror viewing the door oppositely when Sam show herself in

"hayat..."

She said while gazing me, I was shocked seeing her here,

aisay kaisay aa saktihai ye.

(How can she come like this)

I didn't expect her here.

"tum yahan kia kar rahi hoo"

(what are you doing here)

I asked showing nothing more than anger to her. She came running towards me and hugged me resting her head on my chest.

"Hayat please shadi mat kejeye I love you mai mai bus logon ki baton mai agai thye"

(Hayat please don't get married I love you, I..I was trapped in others consultation)

She said.

"batain..."

(Consultation)

I mouthed confused

"Jee hayat. The moment I got to know that you can't be a father I told this to my sister and she made me do this, wo bohot galat galat bolti thye aur phir log mujhay banj boltay thay main unhain bata bhi nahi sakti thye k I'm not the one like that so I just leave you like this. Mujhay maad kardein hayat. Mujhay maaf kardein"

(Yes Hayat the moment I got to know that you can't be a father I told this to my sister and she made me do this, she use to say so wrong about this, and people use to say that I can't me a mothers I couldn't even tell the that its not me who can't be a mother so I just leave you like this. Im so sorry hayat I am so sorry)

She said being in the same position

"ye baat tumnay mujhsay kabhi kiyoun nahi ki"

(why didn't you tell me this)

I asked and she broke the hug.

"mujhay laga k ap mera yaqeen nahi karengay aur apne ghar walo k sath hojyngay aap..."

(I thought you won't believe me and you'll be with you family)

"oh really family..."

I said a small chuckle left my lips.

"family k sath to mai tab bhi nhi that jab unhoon nay tumhain reject kiya tha samara. array ek baar keh kar to daikhti, itna pyar karta tha main khud duniya main cheek kar sab ko batata kay main baap nahi ban sakta. Kharabhi mujhmay hai meri biwi may nahi. Par nahe tum mujhay chor kar chali gai."

(I wasn't with my family when they rejected you samara. You should've tried telling me once. I loved you so much that I would've been shouting to tell everyone that it's me who can't be the father. That i has a fault in me not my wife. But no you left me.)

I said and she stayed silent

"kia kaha tha tumnay,mujhay koi nahi mil sakta. Daikho shadi hai meri aaj. Mujhay koi khush nahi rakh sakta jaisa tumnay mujhay khush rakha hai I found one"

(What did you said that I can't have anyone, see it's my wedding today. That nobody can keep me happy like you did but see I found one)

I said and this time she spoke up

"han kaha tha mainay ye sab par mujhay ye nahi pata tha k larki Amaya hai.aur mujhay daar hai k Amaya ap ko khush rakhlegi.woh cheen legi apko mujhsay mujhay ap bhul jaengay"

(yes I did tell you these but I didn't knew that girl was Amaya. I am afraid that Amaya can keep you happy. She will steal you from me, and you'll forget about me)

"to is liye tum wapis aai ho. Zindagi say to tum pehay he hata chuki ho mujhay ab mai hataounga tumhain samara main hataounga"

(so you are back because of this, you already replace me from your life. Now I will replace you samara I will)

I said and started leaving the room

"ruk jaye hayat,"

(stop there hayat)

She said staying in the same posture... but from her voice I felt she was crying.

"kia aap waqai Amaya say pyar kartay hain"

(do you really love Amaya)

Shee asked as if conforming

"haan"

(yes)

I said all in attitude but what come next. Made me froze at my place

pairon k nechay say zameen kheench li ho kisi nay aisa mehsus horaha tha...

(someone replaced the floor from my feet I felt like that)

"agar aise baat hai to talaq de dijeye mujhay hayat aap"

(If it's like this then divorce me hayat)

"And done..."

Sajida said putting a dupatta on my head.

ek baar phir say hanthon mai mehendi lagi thye.par naam Hussain ka nahi tha, ek baar phir say dulhan buni thye main par ye surkh jora Hussain ki ami nay nahi dilaya tha.

Main dulhan to bun gayi thye par dulhan ki woh masumiyat na thye. Who chehray par ronaq aur khushi na thye. Main dulhan pata nahi kiyoun...bus ban gayi thye...

(I had henna on my hands once again. But it wasn't for hussain, I got bride up once again, but this red dress wasn't by hussain's mother.

I got bride up but I wasn't looking innocent like one. That happiness and brightness on my face was missing, I don't know just why... but I got bride up again)

"Hey Amaya"

Sajida shook me out of my sad train of thoughts and I smiled hiding the pain I was going through this day

"See who's here"

Sajida said and I moved my gaze towards the door to see Hussain standing there smiling

"main pani pee kar aai"

(I'll have water for myself)

Sajida said and leave the room leaving the two of us there all alone.

"bohot pyari lag rahi hoo. Allah buri nazroon say bachaye"

(You're looking beautiful. May god protect you from evil eye)

Hussain spoke smiling a sad one. Seeing him like this my heart ached and I feel pain rushing through my eyes in the form of tears.

"ro mat please"

(Don't cry please)

Hussain said wiping the droplets just fall down but soon the new take space.

"here. a small gift from my side"

He said gazing the paper in his hand and I took it with a smile.

Opening it and reading I got a surprise. Well happy or sad I don't know.

A drop of tear rolled down my waterline

"these...Anaya's custody papers..." I

Said and he smiled

"Anaya ko tum achi tarah say paal sakti ho Amaya main acha shohar nahi ban saka baap kiya banunga"

(Amaya you can rise Anaya well I couldn't be a good husband even how can I be a good fathers then)

He said smiling

"aj itna bara khushi ka din hai tumhary liye. socha thora sa tum mere taraf say bhi muskura do"

(It's such a happy day for you. I thought you should smile a little because of me too)

She said and I smiled

"Thank you this is the real happiness for me"

I said smiling

"tum muskurai bus yahi kafi hai,chalo ab ijazat do. Khuda hafiz"

(you smile that's enough, okay now I'll be going. Bye)

"kiyoun kaheen ja rahy hain aap...?"

(Why are you going somewhere?)

I asked and saw him smiling

"ghar ja raha hoon apnay, ghar...wapis"

(going back to home, back...home)

He said and I don't know why I feel pain inside

"woh...shadi tak ruk jate to..."

(At least wait till the wedding...)

I said wanting a yes but he just smiled

"tumhare jaise himaat nahi hai Amaya mere andar k apnay pyar ko khud apnay hanthoon say kisi ki jholi mai daal sakoon main"

(I don't have guts like you Amaya. That I can give my love to someone else by myself...I cant)

He said and leaves the place smiling....

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Sitting on the chair I was all thinking about Hussain when someone knocked on my door.

"Come in"

I shouted and soon samara (amyra's sister) came in. her eyes red and puffy as if she had cried a lot.

"tum yahan..."

(you're here)

I asked and she came towards me

"I want to request for something"

She said and I blinked my eyes saying her to speak up

"please don't marry hayat Amaya please, i...I love him so much"

She said crying in front of me

"tum...tum rehan ki biwi h"

(you...you are rehan's wife...)

I asked unable to believe, she nodded and make me more shock.

"tum rehan say kiyoun baat nahi karti"

(why don't you talk to rehan)

I suggested her and she cried even harder

"he said that he loves you and wants to marry you"

She said crying.

"sorry samara if rehan disagreed I can't help then if he is happy with me so I can't back off. but If he says so I will"

I said and she leave the room after a small pleading session.

"ye kia kar diya mainay. Samara ko mana. Rehan ki wife hai who how can i? but main Rehan ko chor bhi nahi sakti how can I hurt him...kiya karoon mai kia karoon"

(What have I Done. I disagreed to samara. She is rehan's wife how can i? But I can't even leave rehan how can I hurt him....what should I do)

After samara leaved the place I kept moving in the room thinking for a solution but nothing came in my mind but when my gaze shifted to the thing I got a solution

Taking the sleeping pills bottle in my hand I think for a while.

What if I die? What if I get away from samaar's path, it wo'nt hurt rehan neither samara. And anyways I love Hussain but I can't be with him.

Yess this is the best idea.

Opening the bottle I glum all the tiny tablets with a lot of water and waited for something. just a few moments passed when Sana came in saying me that Qazi Sahab is here for the nikkah.

Suddenly my hands began to sweat. I feel my body getting numb but still I smiled and walked out with Sana.

She made me sit on the comfy sofa opposite to Rehan and he smiled seeing me there. Soon Qazi Sahab came and started the nikaah reciting some dua for us

"Rehan Hayat wald Choudhary ap ka nikkah Amaya wald Haroon say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Rehan hayat s/o choudhary do you accept your wedding with Amaya d/o haroon)

Qazi Sahab asked Rehan

"Qabool Hai"

(I do)

I heard his voice and all the men hugged each other in happiness

"Rehan Hayat wald Choudhary ap ka nikkah Amaya wald Haroon say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Rehan hayat s/o choudhary do you accept your wedding with Amaya d/o haroon)

qari asked again as per the Islamic rules

"Qabool Hai"

(I do)

Rehan said again the same and I feel my heart beats getting faster to his each Qabool. The last qabool left and qari asked him again

"Rehan Hayat wald Choudhary ap ka nikkah Amaya wald Haroon say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Rehan hayat s/o choudhary do you accept your wedding with Amaya d/o haroon)

"Qabool Hai"

(I do)

Rehan speak the same and all of them clapped happily but my inside wants to scream

Why aren't these pills working? I should be dying by now, I don't want to die being rehan's wife....

Soon the Qazi Sahab came towards me asking the same thing which he asked Rehan a moment ago

"Amaya wald Haroon ap ka Rehan Hayat wald Choudhary say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Amaya d/o haroon do you accept your wedding with Rehan hayat s/o Choudharay)

He asked and I stayed silent and Qazi Sahab repeated the words

"Amaya wald Haroon ap ka nikkah Rehan Hayat wald Choudhary say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Amaya d/o haroon do you accept your wedding with Rehan hayat s/o Choudharay)

He said again and this time I gulped the lump in my throat

"Amaya wald haroon ap ka nikkah rehan hayat wald choudhary say teh kiya jata hai kia apko ye nikkah qabool hai?"

(Amaya d/o haroon do you accept your wedding with Rehan hayat s/o Choudharay)

The qari asked again and this time I thought to reply as I heard whispers surrounding me. Holding my sweaty hand tightly I started saying what I wasn't about to say

"Qabool..."

(I d....)

"mat kehna Qabool Hai Amaya... please mat kehna"

(don't say I do Amaya.... Please don't say it)

Soon Rehan's voice make my voice died I my throat saying not to say those words and I keep quite

"Sorry Amaya but I don't love you. You were leaveing that day so to stop you I said it to you cox Anaya was leaving with you I have a connection with Anaya but I still love samara I love my only wife"

Rehan said and soon I saw tears of happiness in eyes of samara

Coming closer she hugged Rehan who was now standing hushing her up saying not to cry.

"Please ab kabhi aisa na karna Sam"

(please don't ever do this again sam)

He said

"kabhi nai...kabhi bhi nahi"

(Never... never ever)

She replied smiling

going closer to them I smiled myself and gazed samara

"khushnaseeb ho tum k tumhe tumhara pyar wapis mil raha hai nahi to nahi milta aur talaq kay baad to bilkul bhi nahi"

(you are very lucky that you are having your love back because if no then you couldn't and after divorce it would be impossible)

I said

"talaq kis ka talaq"

(Divorce whose divorce?)

soon I heard someone saying from behind

"mera..."

(mines...)

I said seeing Qazi Sahab asking about it

"par ap to shadi..."

(but it's your....)

Qazi Sahab asked and I smiled making him known about the situation

"Qazi Sahab ye meri doosri shadi hai. mere pehlay sohar nay mujhay talaq di thye."

(Mr. qazi this was my 2nd marriage my ex husband divorced me)

I said

"acha, kitni talaq di thye"

(okay... how many time)

He asked making me frown

"kia matlb kitni talaq"

(what you mean how many)

I asked him confuse

"matlab kitni talaq teen di thye kiya"

(I mean how many time was it three times)

"naahi...ek baar kaha tha baas"

(no....he just said it once)

"to phir talaq kahan hui beta ,ap log to ab tak mean biwi hain"

(so that wasn't a divorce my child you are still a couple)

Qazi Sahab said and tears started flowing mixed with emotions