"𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢"

as she combed through the journals and notes again let by the minimal survivors that tried to live in this depot. Most of them were written poorly, chicken scratch that she couldn't read. The words soon blurred moving around the page as the glided along like drops of water.

"Anastasia" she heard echo though the halls coming from where Bellamy left the depot. She popped her head out looking out not seeing anybody.

"Bellamy?" She questioned standing up from the chair she sat before walking out, there was no reply. The voice didn't sound like Bellamy's, it was sweet, like a lullaby. She swiftly move the red fabric opening up the exit hallway expecting to see somebody but it was completely empty, "hello" she questioned, suddenly feeling a sharp pain sent through her head. She screamed out in pain clutching her head throwing it to the ground, she felt a light touch on her back as the pain elevated from her. She looked up to see a familiar face that she had missed and a familiar place that she hasn't seen in weeks, "mom?" Anastasia questioned pulling the women into a hug. She looked around her as she stood in her mother's old crafting room that stood in its former condition before her dad transformed it. The grey and blue thread spread across a simple table.

"Anastasia, oh my god" her mother uttered clutching onto her head pulling her in close before letting go, grabbing onto her shoulders, "you grew up so beautiful" her mother said looking at her brushing through her hair, as there blue eyes molded together as they look at each other in love. Both with the princess way about them that commanded respect, especially as her mother was dressed in her Sunday best, glowing in her dress. There was a darkness about Anastasia that separated her from her mother, her hair darken by the dirt she's been throw into without a shower, and her skin slowly becoming darker as the sun baked her skin everyday. Anastasia's clothes were ripped to pieces without a clean spot present, "what has happened to you Anastasia?" Her mother questioned looking at her clothing and overall presence.

"Mom, I miss you" Anastasia said avoiding the question wrapping her in another hug as a tear feel from her eyes.

"I missed you too" her mom said sitting Anastasia down in one of the chairs. Anastasia finally looked around, questioning how she got back to the Ark, how her mother was alive until it hit her.

"You're not real, are you?" She said looking at her mother, in the way she always imagined her falling asleep after she died.

"I'm sorry sweetie" her mother replied laying a hand on hers.

"Why you?" She questioned as her eyes filled with tears as she could feel her mothers touch, but knowing it wasn't real killed her.

"That's only something you can answer" Her mother replied as the fabric of the old ark floated away, along with her mother.

Suddenly it all melted to black as a light on the horizon grew larger, suddenly the entire ground around her was a giant war zone, as she saw the dead bodies pile up, Clarke, Wells, Octavia, Bellamy, Monty, Jasper, the chancellor, Abby, her father, and her mother. She had a bloody knife in her hand and could see the fear laced on her friends and families faces.

Without warning their bodies floated up, they became zombies. They came for her with their arms out reaching out for her. They were preparing to attack her in the red haze of the wasteland before her. She started to run, but fell back as her head collided with the blank air, she got up and the dead people were standing over her reaching for her hair and body. The blooded knife was still stuck in her hand as she forced it upward, feeling the blade cut through skin. The zombie skin of her mother faded back to the alive, tan skin, as the others collapsed around her.

"Mom!" she called out but it was too late, "I'm sorry" she cried

"Whatever, crazy bitch" she heard an loud voice boom loudly through the sky. She felt a stabbing pain in the back of her dropping to the floor as everything went black.

She woke up soon back in the hallway in the depot. She could feel the tear stain, trying to remember the last few moments before she blacked out feeling a pain in the back of her head. She worried for Bellamy, standing up slowly and then running towards where the guns were grabbing one rushing out into the night as the moon shined fully into the sky.

She held the gun up heading up the hill searching for Bellamy. Her legs felt weak and she tried to push everything she learned down walking cautiously through the poorly lit forest. She emerged from the incline seeing a figure with a different build than Bellamy, but dressed the same, like someone from the Ark. She walked forward noticing the build because she saw them walk pass her today, Dax.

"Nothing personal" he said as she noticed her held a door and Bellamy collapsed on the ground laying defenseless as Dax stood over him with his gun aimed at him.

"Drop it, Dax" Anastasia said from behind causing Dax to turn around the look at her as she aimed a gun at him.

"Should've stayed down there, princess" Dax uttered aiming his gun at her now, "i tried not to kill you, but here you are, and Shumway said no witnesses"

"What is he talking about" Anastasia asked Bellamy keeping the gun on Dax.

"Shumway set it up" Bellamy said sitting up from the ground, "he gave me the gun to shoot the chancellor"

"Walk away now, and i won't kill you" Dax said looking at Anastasia.

"Put it down"she replied slowly grazing her hand over the trigger ready to fire.

"You choice" Dax replied, Anastasia pulled the trigger forcefully squeezing it between her fingers aiming directly for his chest, she watched as the gun clicked as no bullet escaped. She dodged behind a tree as Dax fired a few rounds at her. She expected more when she heard the click of his gun as his footsteps approached her, but instead she heard Bellamy cries

"No!" She fiddled with her gun frantically trying to get it to work as she heard grunts from them indicating they were fighting. She eventually gave up hearing the strains of Bellamy's voice. She lost it and ran at them, clutching her gun sideways, hoping to used it as a weapon in another way.

"Get the hell off him" she screamed running at him to only get punched back, as she watched as Bellamy drove an unused bullet through Dax's neck killing him. Anastasia strained towards a tree as Dax began to fall near her feet. She wheezed in pain clutching her stomach as she slid back to reach the base of the tree laying back once she did. She watched as Bellamy fell to her side, she reached out his hand noticing he was fine beside some minor injuries from being punched.

"You're fine" she said to him, gripping his hand and giving it a squeeze.

"No, i'm not" Bellamy replied as Anastasia turned to see his face, it was laced with sadness and grief, as she saw him finally started to cry, "my mother" he began getting sadder mentioning her, "if she knew what I've done, who i am" he said causing him to sniffle, as a tear fell down to his cheek, "she raised me to be better, to be good" he said

"Bellamy" Anastasia said placing another hand on his cheek, he moved it away as soon as it touched him.

"And all i do is hurt people" he spit out in guilt, and hatred, "i'm a monster"

"Hey" she began causing his head to turn towards her, "you saved my life today" Anastasia looked at him in his eyes that were on the brink of tears, causing them to glow more in moonlight, "you may be a total ass half the time" gripping her stomach, "but i need you, we need you" she said staring at his eyes, "none of us would've survived this place if it wasn't for you, you want forgiveness, fine, l'll give it to you, you're forgiven, ok?, but you can' run, Bellamy" Anastasia pleaded, "you have to come back with me, you have to face it"

"Like you faced you dad?" Bellamy asked picking on her. Anastasia turned back to facing the forest, forming her mouth into a slight smile nodding her head.

"You're right" she said nodding, "i don't want to face my dad, i don't want to face any of it" she added remembering what she learned today, "All i think about everyday is how we're gonna keep everyone alive, but we don't have a choice"

"Jaha will kill me when he comes down" Bellamy said laying his head on the tree.

"We'll figure something out" Anastasia looking back at him.

"Can we figure it out later?" Bellamy asked her

"Whenever you're ready" Anastasia said as she laid down watching the stars.