Xander p.o.v.

Anger, sadness, disappointment and guilt. That's all I can feel.

I knew I shoul not have showed her what we are. Who we are. I wish i could be selfish one last time and just have her in my arms.

I feel guilty for scaring her. I didn't want to scare her. I had hoped it didn't scare her. I failed as a mate already. How do I expect to be a good alpha if I can't even be a good mate.

I feel guilty for shutting my family away. They are only trying to help and I shut them away. I feel guilty for also shutting xavier away when he needs me the most.

At first I felt angry at xavier for saying it's time. For drilling in my head that we should do it. But now i realise I would rather it had been now then further on when the bond would get even stronger then what it is not.

I sighed but decided to get ready for another day at school that precious won't show up at.

Xavier's p.o.v.

Guilt. I feel so guilty for making xander let us tell her. He told me himself it wasn't time but I pushed it to happen. I wish we could of had one last time with her where it was normal and all of us laughing.

I miss her smell. I miss her laugh. I miss her blushing. I miss everything about her. But I also miss my brother. I even miss him being grumpy but now he is nothing but like a walking zombie.

I guess we are both taking it really hard. Sometimes we forget he has emotions to because he is always so cold. I wish that my brother would let me in. Let us both be there for eachother because god knows we need eachother. I sighed but got ready for school.

I heard my sister come in yesterday. She even slammed her bedroom door shut on aria and that is saying something. I realised my brother and I are not the only ones that lost our mate. Skylar and aria lost there best friend to which makes the guilt worse.

I walked downstairs and noticed my mom cooking breakfast. She smiled softly at me.

"She said softly.

I was about to decline when I noticed she had been crying. She looked at me with pleading eyes for me to eat. My eyes softened and I nodded.

"I whispered.

Her eyes lit up and she smiled happily. My heart broke realising I have been hurting other people to. She passed it me just as xander walked in. He looked exhausted not that I look any better.

He walked up to me and hugged me, suprising me.

"he said softly.

Tears came to my eyes and I nodded.

"I said softly.

He nodded and looked at my mom. He walked to her and hugged her. She cried in his chest.

"my mom said softly.

"we said at the same time.

"my sister said coming in.

We smiled at her and gave her a hug.

"she said crying.

"we said together.

We all ate breakfast in silence to lost in thought then headed to school.

We pulled up to school and got out. All of a sudden my wolf perked up and I got a swift of chocolate. I could smell our mate. She was in school.

My eyes widened in surprise and I looked at xander who looked just as suprised.

We headed to our first lesson that precious would also be In. As we walked in she was already sat down with her head down. I could see she was lost in thought and was nervous as she was biting her lip.

When we noticed her biting her lip myself and xander growled making her jump and snap her head towards us. Her eyes widened when she noticed me, xander, skylar and aria and jacob stood at the door.