Every night I'm almost scared to shut my eyes and go to sleep, not wanting to have another nightmare. I wish I could have a perfect night sleep, but that's not going to happen. I notice that I'm not the only one who can't ever sleep, most night I look over and see Felix either at his desk or laying on his bed with headphones in his ear listening to music.

Sometimes it's comfortabling knowing I can see the dead, so nothing can sneak up on me. I'm safe everyone else just hears the noise while I see them. I still don't understand why me of all people was brought back and now able to see the living and the dead. Maybe I need a excersist or something?

I hear my alarm go off, im not even sure I closed my eyes.

I get dressed for school and put some makeup on today so I might look like I actually got some sleep.

School is a blur today and before I know it I'm back in the car with Felix.

He starts driving me to my therapist office in our usual silence that really doesnt bother me anymore.

He pulls into a parking space. I look up at the building not really wanting to go in but at the same time really wanting to talk to someone before I explode.

We get out the car and I check in and sit in the lobby until It's my turn

"You okay?" Felix asks me all of a sudden

"Yeah why?" I ask a little confused

"You just seem quiet and I can tell your stressing about something" he tells me

I don't really know what to say "I'm okay" I tell him because I know that's what people like to hear

"No your not" he shakes his head like he's not buying it "if you don't want to tell me. Tell her" he gestures to the therapist "that what she's here for"

"Yeah" I say looking down

The receptionist calls my name "good luck" Felix tells me

I go to her office and open the door. She's sitting in her chair waiting on me. "Hello Jessica" she says emotionless

"Hello Dr. Jones" I greet back

I sit on the couch and we both stare at each other. Her waiting for me to talk and me not knowing what to say.

"How have you been?" She asks me since I haven't said anything

"Good" is all I say

She nods "any nightmares?"

"I mean I've had some but not a lot" I say trying to word it right

"Do they feel real when you are asleep?"

"Yes I do forget that I'm only dreaming" I tell her the truth

"Is it things that has happened in the past or things your worried about?" She asks me

"Uh it's sometimes both or just random things or even people" I say back and watch as she writes something down

"Have you talk to anyone about your nightmares?"

"Yes my friend Mary and my aunt Lora"

"What about Felix?" She asks me with a raised eyebrow "did you two talk about it since he came over to comfort you that night?"

I fidget a little "um I really just asked him not to tell anyone"

"Are you two friends?"

I shake my head "I really don't know" because I don't

"Does he make you feel safe?" She tilts her head

I think about her question for a second. Does Felix make me feel safe? I'm not scared of him and I feel comfortable around him, but I don't think I could every count on him. Even though he did defend me to that guy that was talking bad about me. Felix confuses me....

"I don't really know" I finally answer

She nods and then writes something down. "So these nightmares did you start having them when you moved into your new house?"

I think about it and I've always had nightmares, maybe since my parents died it's gotten worse. I'll go through a period of having them constantly and then I'm fine. "Started back up. Yes"

"Interesting" she mutters