it has been hard for me lately.

i say I'm fine but I'm not.

i don't want to go out.

i want someone by my side.

we don't even need to talk.

let's just watch the shadows,

my desk lamp creates.

will you come?

i don't think you will come,

it's not important to you.

it isn't something you can post online.

so, I tell you to have fun with the others going out,

and I sink further into my bed.