these were the moments when i missed my brother,

how fireflies seemed to dance in his ashen eyes

how he always smelt of flowers

his honeyed voice and gentle smiles

his bumming laughter and bone cracking hugs.

how are you, sirius?

where have you been?

i miss you

all the time, i miss you.

i can't help but ask myself

if the girl i love will ever come back to me,

if she misses her brother the way i miss you

if her heart swells with tears

as the storm over the sea

as droplets of salt water thrown on the beach.

i'm hurt, dear brother

your absence feels like

the rings of saturn have been

placed around my neck

necklaces for me to never forget

the day you left my home.