i miss everything that we almost had,

what we almost were.

i keep running it over and over in my mind,

all the should have,

would have,

could have's.

i often think back to the moments when

i should have made a move,

and i would have if i didn't screw it up,

i could have saved us from this sinking ship.

a vessel that was once deemed the most unsinkable of its kind.

but here i float, stranded in the middle of the ocean and i gave you all of the life jackets.