After I heard those words come out of Colin's mouth I just ran. I ran into the house to get some air. I went into a bathroom and sat on the floor. This can't be happening right now. Why am I acting this way? I should be trying to get over her. She's engaged now. She will get married to Colin and carry his kids. She will never be with me. It's official I should move on.

I should probably try to find something to do to distract my thoughts. I can't be feeling this way. She means the absolute world to me and yet she's marrying him.

"Lena you in there?" I hear Robert ask from outside.

"Yeah. I'm here." I say not moving a centimeter.

"Can I come in?" He asks

"Where is Chris?" I ask him

"He's out drinking. Do you want me to call him instead?" He asks

I stand up and unlock the door. I open it and he steps inside. Closing and locking it behind him.

"Hey sweetheart." He says with his hands on my shoulders

"Hey." I say quietly.

"I didn't know he would do that." He says

"It doesn't matter now." I say wiping my tears

"Come here." He says and wraps his hands around me. I rest my head on his chest and sops erupt from my mouth. I begin to shake and I can faintly hear him muttering some words while he rubs my back gently. He lets me cry it out and when I separate from him I see that his shirt is soaked.

"I'm so sorry about that." I say putting a hand to the wet spot.

"Don't apologize. You're grieving. It's alright to cry." He says smiling at me.

"I ruined your birthday party. You should be out there drinking and dancing with everyone else. Not be standing here in a bathroom, comforting me." I say wiping my nose.

"I don't really care. How can I enjoy myself when I know you're in pain." He asks me

"I'm fine. I'm more than fine."

"Yeah the mascara on your chin really shows me how fine you actually are."

I turn to the mirror and see that it is true. My mascara is really down to my chin. He hands me some wet wipes and sits on the counter as I wipe down my makeup.

"Stay overnight. There is plenty of room." Robert offers.

"I can't. I have a room with Chris. I'm supposed to bring him there safely."

"Then both of you stay! He'll be wasted I don't doubt thatm" He says

"I don't know Robbie." I say quietly.

"Please just stay. Susan will get you clothes and you can have your own room. It will be fine." He says

"Alright. I'll stay." I say smiling at him

"Yess we're totally having a sleep over!" he chants getting back on his feet.

"Can I go out and take a walk around the property? I need to clear my head." I ask him

"Sure, follow me to the back door. There is a huge field and a trail if you want to explore. There are lights everywhere so don't worry." He says and we walk out the bathroom.

I listen to him and go down the trail. The villa is made close to the beach so I decided I'll head over there to calm my mind. I walk to a bench and sit down. In front of me all I can see is the ocean. The waves softly touch the shore and the stars softly shinning in the darkness of the sky. I turn around to see the house a lot farther than I expected it to be.

I start to think about how my life has changed in only half a year. It made so many friends and I met so many wonderful people. All because of her. She made me fall in love with her kindness. She made me fall in love with the cracks in her beautiful sculptured mind. I want her so much that sometimes I catch myself out of breath. She is going to be hard to get over. If I ever do. I'll be invited to the wedding and that will be another thing completely. Will I even show up? I hope so. I want to see her in a wedding dress. Even if that means I won't be the one waiting for her by the altar. I'll be there for her if she needs me. If she asks for me. I'll babysit her kids and I'll help any way I can. I'll love her and and her kids without a doubt. Her kids.. they'll look just like her. Imagine if they have her eyes.. or if they have her cute little nose.

I need to move on. I need to separate my heart from her and to reset it. I can't have her running around in there. She might make me do something I'll regret.

I look down at my phone. It's already midnight. How long was I out here? I peek back at the house and see less lights on. It seems the party died down a bit. I should go back. I should help clean up. I don't move for another hour though. I stay here. Just looking ahead of me. After I start shivering. I pick myself up from the bench and slowly walk back.

When I came back I saw a few cars still here. I guess not all of the guests are gone. I find Robert sitting outside with a glass of wine in his hand.

"There you are bud. How are you feeling?" He asks offering me a seat next to him.

"Better. I feel better."

"That's great. I talked with Susan and she set up a room for you. There are comfortable clothes for you to change into and everything is on the bed." He says sipping on his wine.

"Oh, thats great. Thank you. I think I'll go to sleep right away." I say getting up.

"You sure? We can stay here and make some s'mores if you want?" He offers.

"Thanks for the offer. I'm too tired to eat anything right now."

"Sleep well"

"Thank you"

"I love you!" he shouts as I walk in.

I walk up to Susan to ask which room she prepared for me. There are quite a few and I don't want to open random rooms to find it. I don't know who's also staying.

"Hey, pumkin. Let me show you your room." She says grabbing ny hand.

"I was just about to ask you about that." I giggle

We go upstairs and my room is right across the bathroom. Nice. At least I don't have to search the place for one.

"Everything I could think of is on the bed. If you need anything else. Feel free to ask." She says opening the room.

"Thank you guys so much." I say

"You're welcome dear. So, how are you holding up?" She asks me.

"I'm fine now. I had to cry it out of me."

"I know how much you love her. It's alright. We're here for you darling." She says cupping my cheek

"Thank you Susan" I say

"Please, call me mom!" She says and laughs

"Alright mum. I'm going to change and get ready for bed." I say and she waves goodbye.

I get inside and change into an Iron Man shirt and some shorts. I comb through my hair and sit down on the bed. I should brush my teeth and just go to bed. I take out a new toothbrush out of the box and toothpaste. I put on some slippers and head to the bathroom. I wash my face and take off my make up completely. While I was brushing my teeth I heard a knock on the door.

"It's busy." I say with the toothbrush still in my mouth. I rinse my mouth and the person is still knocking. I open the door to see none other than Scarlett standing there.

"Hey." She says.

"Hi" I say and head to my room.

"Wait, Lena." She says grabbing my arm

"What? What is it?" I ask

"I wanted to talk with you before I go." She says

"Come in then." I say and open the door.

She sits on the bed and I remain on my feet.

"Congratulations on you engagement." I say kindly.

"Thank you. I really wasn't expecting it. She says looking at her hand.

"What is it you wanted to talk about?"

"Where were you all this time?"

"Excuse me?" I ask confused

"Where were you all these years?"

"I was in New York?" I say

"I wish I could have met you sooner. In a different setting." She says

"you wouldn't want that." I say sitting next to her

"Why?" She asks

"Because if we DID meet in a different setting I wouldn't have any relations to you right now."

"Wouldn't you want that?" She asks

"I don't know. I believe everything happens for a reason." I say shrugging my shoulders

"Even me hurting you?"

"Yes I'll admit that was pretty shitty. But if you hadn't done that I wouldn't go to Palestine. I would miss out on that."

"You'd miss out on getting shot at too." She says quietly.

"We live in New York. The chance of getting shot over here is far grater." I say smiling at her.

"I'm going to Boston. Colin wants me to meet his entire family. And what better way than a family get together." She says

"Good luck with that. I don't know what you're worried about though"

"Well I AM meeting his parents for the first time." She says

"And they WILL love you. I'm sure of it." I say grabbing her hand

"What if they don't?" she asks

"Then there is something seriously wrong with them." I say and she laughs.

"Thank you Lena. You always seem to make me feel better." She says squeezing my hand

"What are friends for." I say quietly.

"Can I ask something of you?" She asks

"Anything. Whats up?" I ask

"Can you hold me for a minute?" She asks

"Is everything okay?" I ask

"Everything is perfect. I just need you to hold me close." She pleads.

I open my hands and she comes closer to me. The minute her body touches mine my hands react and I hold her close to my chest. She rests her head on my shoulder. Nuzzling her face into my neck. I can feel her breathing quicken and she starts to cry. I don't what what it is about I just enjoy the moment. The moment our bodies were tangled for the very first time.

My heart feels like it will explode with her touch and I hold onto her just as she holds onto me. She starts to sob and I rub her back. I guess she really needed this. She calms down after a few minutes and just stays in my embrace. She pushes us down onto the bed and I end up with her on top of my chest. She tangles her legs with mine and rests her hands on my waist. I draw circles on her back and she sniffles every now and then.

She raises her head and rests on her elbow. Looking down on me.

"For seven months. For seven months I've waited for that embrace." She says looking at me with teary eyes.

"Well I hope it was worth the wait." I say smiling at her

"Definitely was" she says as she gets up. I get up too.

"I guess this is goodbye. I don't know when I'll see you next." She says

"You can always phone me if you need anything. You know that." I say

"I don't want to disturb you though."

"Nonsense, you could never disturb me. You can text too." I say smiling at her.

"Thank you for everything." She says

"You're welcome."

I hug her again and she rests her head on my shoulder again.

"Are you okay Scarlett?" I ask. Her hands are still holding onto me tightly.

"I am now" She whispers and stands on her toes to press a kiss to my cheek. I can feel that part of my body just starts to burn after those very very I dare to say very soft lips touched me.

"Goodnight Scarlett."

"Goodnight Lena. Sweet dreams." She says flashing me one of her smiles and leaves. Just like that. With my heart in her hands..