"Of course you can. You don't have to ask anymore." I say smiling. She shifts her legs and basically straddles me. She hugs me and lays her head on my shoulder. I don't know where to put my hands so I just put them down next to me. I have to admit this is something I've dreamt of many times. I just never thought is would happen like this.

She starts to shake all of sudden and I can feel tears on my neck. She's obviously crying. I rub her back and whisper reassuring words into her ear. She shakes her head and starts to mutter 'sorry'. She muffles it with my shoulder and holds me closer to her. There is literally no space between the two od us.

"Scarlett, you're worrying me." I whisper. She moves back and looks at me. I can see bags beneath her bloodshot eyes. I wipe the tears off her face and cup her cheek. She leans into my touch and we just look at each other.

"Why were you apologizing to me?" I ask her. She looks down to her hands that are rested on my chest. I take her hands into my hands and hold them i mine.

"I didn't mean for it to happen." She says avoiding my eyes.

"What happened?" I ask carefully.

"We were at a lake and I was sunbathing when all of a sudden Colin decided to throw me into the water. I guess it fell into the water. I didn't notice it until we got back home." she says looking everywhere but my eyes.

"What are you talking about?"

"The necklace. Your necklace. I lost it." She say and I can see a tear roll down her cheek.

"Hey, look at me." I say and tilt her chin slowly to look me in the eyes.

"You don't have to apologize. It's alright." I say

I have to admit I'm not completely okay with the fact that she lost it. I loved that necklace. It was a gift from my mother, but I gave it to her. I gave it to the woman I loved most because I knew it suited her more than it will ever suit me.

"I really loved the necklace." She says looking at her hands.

"I know you did. But, we can find another." I offer.

"It won't be the same value."

"Hey I'm sure I can find a more valuable one for sure." I say

"You're not listening to me. The necklace..it..well you were the last person who touched the clip." She says shyly.

"Back on the plane?" I ask

"Yeah." I nod.

"I can get you another and then put it on you just the same." I say.

"You don't have to do that." She says

"Fine, I won't." I lie. I know I'll get her something similar. I just don't know when.

The air gets thick and she keeps glancing at my lips. I sit up, with her still on me and she loses her balance and falls on me.

"I'm sorry about that." I say smiling at her.

"No worries. You're comfy." She says leaning her head on my shoulder. I can feel her breathing on my neck and I get chills all over my body. I can't be feeling this way. She is engaged to him. No matter what. Even is she is incredibly sexy in only pajama shorts and a beatles shirt. She looks amazing as per usual.

Her left hand travels and touches my right arm, then the shoulder and finally it rests on my neck. I look forward trying to calm myself down. I feel like I'm on fire. I will explode if I continue on like this. She does what I never expected her to do and kisses my neck, right below my ear. I feel a pool of emotions run through my body as her soft lips touch my neck.

"How ab-b-bout I make y-you something t-to eat?" I stutter out. I can't form a sentence after her lips attacked my neck.

"Maybe later." She whispers and goes back to devouring my neck. I feel my whole body burning. I have chills everywhere and I think if I open my mouth a moan will escape.

She sits up and tilts my head back so she could have better access I persume. I bite my lip as she grazes my sweet spot with her tounge. My breathing fastens and I am scared of hoe big of an effect she has on me. We should stop. I should make her stop. Why am I not doing that though? It feels magnificent. It feels like I'm getting high on her and all she is doing is kissing my neck. I can't let a moan out. That would just motivate her even more. She finally backs away and looks at me with lust in her eyes. She looks like she wanted to do that very much.

"Scarlett." I say trying to catch my breath. She looks at my lips with such desire that it just fuels me even more to do what I wanted for a very very long time.

She does it for me. She takes my face into her delicate hands and smashes our lips together. Her scent fills my nose and her lips melt with mine. It takes a second for me to react but when I do I grab her neck and pull to closer to me. I can't stop. She is like heroin. She makes me crazy and sane in the same minute. I feel my heart beat out of my chest and my hands are shaking. This is a big deal. Her tounge grazes my lip, asking for entrance and I don't let it. Instead she bites onto my lower lip making me release a groan into her mouth. She takes the opportunity and explores the inside of my mouth, fighting with my tounge in the process.

We separate to catch our breath and press our foreheads together. I can't believe what just happened. I did it. I kissed Scarlett. No, she kissed me. She wanted to kiss me.

"Scarlett."

"No talking." she says and kisses me again. I follow her lead and continue on kissing her. She takes my hands and puts them onto her thighs. I can't even begin to explain the sensation. Her body is a work of art. Just the fact that she let me touch it gives me great honor and need for it. She starts to kiss my neck again and this time I won't let it slide. I pick her up by her thighs and flip us on the bed. She looks surprised I even did that. I am on top of her. I am on top of Scarlett bloody Johansson.

I start to kiss her neck and she melts at my touch. I move hair out of the way and start to kiss using tounge. I hear a moan come through her mouth as I lick a specific spot under her ear. Found it. I stay there and she starts pleading for more. She starts panting and moaning. Her hands go under my shirt and graze my stomach. I shudder as her cold fingers hold my sides in place. She holds the end of my shirt and raises it, leaving my lower back bare.

"Take it off." She pleads.

I sit on my knees straddling her and take off my shirt in one swift moment. Her eyes are glued to my stomach. She observes me before I tug her hands gesturing for her to get up. I hold the hem of her shirt and she gets the cue and raises her hands into the air. I take of her shirt and I am revealed with the most beautiful skin I've ever seen. I've seen in before, but only in bits. I push her body down and press my lips onto her stomach.

"Lena." She moans out.

I kiss my way up and kiss her lips once again. I just love doing that. Her tender skin on my skin just fits. I don't have a way to explain it. It just does. As I am kissing her neck once again she holds onto my waist and flips us again. Leaving me under her. Her hands reach my belt and they unbuckle it. I watch her beautiful hands grip the edge of my trousers and pull them down. I feel extremely bare right now. I think she realized this because she threw my trousers to the floor and took of her shorts along the way.

I just freeze when I see her only in her black lace underwear. She looks godly. I I've never been religious but I think this is what shows how mesmerizing God's creations really could be. She can leave me dazed for days. She lays down next to me and we take a second to look at each other.

"You're absolutely beautiful Scarlett. I mean.. wow." I say looking over her body.

"I could say the same. Your body is just unique." She says

"Thank you darling." I say kissing her again. She holds me in place and straddles me again. Only this time I am laying down and she is on top of me. Something scratches my neck and when I open my eyes I see that it is her ring. Her engagement ring. Oh shit. I flip us again and hurry to stand up.

"Hey hey, it is alright." She says grabbing my hand.

"No this is not." I say taking my hand out of hers. I hurry to put on some clothes at least. I put on my trousers and she just sits there in her underwear, watching me.

"Don't feel bad. You did nothing wrong." She says quietly.

"Oh but I did exactly that. I almost slept with an engaged woman! And on top of that I almost slept with her when she was vulnerable and sleep deprived!" I say pacing the room.

"Hey, I came onto you." She says

"And I should have said no. Oh God how will I see Colin again. He even came to my place so I could talk with you." I say

"Colin doesn't matter right now. Sit down you'll make me dizzy." She says

"I can't sit down. I did something I never thought I would. I acted on my feelings" I say grabbing my shirt.

"And was that so bad?" She says grabbing my arm again.

"I'll make some pasta with meatballs. You go and take a shower. Then we'll eat and I'll go home." I say getting out of her grip. She nods and walks over to the bathroom. I take another glance at her body and I feel a sting of guilt. I put on my shoes and hurry down to the kitchen.

As I am making the food images of her almost naked self flash through my head. Her sweet sweet moans and her hands and how they were grabbing my sides. How she traveled all over my body and wanted to do it. She really did want me. No shut up Lena. She was just desperate. Just wait a few hours and she'll regret it, no doubt.

I'm a horrible person. I took advantage of her. I did the thing I never want anyone to go through. I came here to talk to her and almost ended sleeping with her. What is wrong with me? God why am I so god damn stupid.

I finish making the food and she walks in. She sits down and I carry our plates to the table. I go back to grab her some water and I sit back down with her.

"I'm sorry Lena." she says all of a sudden.

"You don't need to apologize, you have no reason to." I say.

"Well then why did you just stop?" She asks

"Have you forgotten the rock on your finger or are you just messing with me?" I ask

She stays quiet and until she is finished she doesn't speak.

"Do you regret it?" She asks

"Depends om what you refer to" I say sipping on my water.

"Almost sleeping with me." she says looking forward.

"No.. I don't regret that." I say

"Then what do you regret?"

Not being the one who gave you that ring.

"Almost sleeping with you while you're engaged." I say.

"I'm not married." she says

"But you will be."

"How do you know that?" She asks

"I don't." I say picking up the plates. She follows behind me not done with the conversation.

"Why did you even bother coming here then?"

"Don't you see it?!" I say

"I..I .. I care for you.. so much. I want the best for you. I want you to be happy and I just thought that it would be easier for me to move on once you're settled." I say again

"Move on? What are you talking about?" she asks

"I like you okay?! I like you so much it hurts me physically and mentally. I distanced myself from you because you're so intense. Your effect on me is something I've been trying to resist for months now."

"Why didn't you tell me this sooner?" she asks

"Because I want what's best for you."

"How do you know what is best for me?" she asks

"I know it is not me. I know I'll end up screwing everything up and I don't want that. I don't want to lose you out of my life because I.. I feel a connection to you. One I've never felt with anyone alive or dead. You.. you thought locked you out of all of my walls. Darling you're the key to all of my lockets and all of my chains. You want to see what lays in my heart? Look into a god damn mirror. I love you. There I said it. I love you enough to leave you be. I love you enough to want you to be happy. You deserve happiness and I think Colin could give you that. He loves you and you love him and the rest of it is irrelevant." I finally say and try to catch my breath.

She just stares at me in shock not saying a word.

"I'll walk myself out. I'm glad you're feeling better." I say walking past her.

I open the front door and she runs after me and falls into my arms.

"Don't run away." she says

"What?"

"Don't run away to another country for months on end."she says

"I won't." I say

"Good. I need you here." She says and I nod.

I separate from her and leave her place. I am the most horrible person I've ever met. I just almost slept with an engaged woman. Then I confessed my love to her and then I lied to her.

I'm going back to England. I can't have this. I can't be here. Colin will take care of it. He loves her. I can tell. She can manage without me. It is better if I leave now and come back after everything is done and healed.

Oh Colin you lucky bastard..

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until next time..