"Fuck Colin." She says and all of a sudden I feel the touch on her lips on mine. It takes me a second to process everything but once I realised what was happening I joined in.

Oh how her lips ignite a fire deep inside me I never knew existed. I strive for her touch as right as that thought coursed through my head her hands began to clasp at my waist. Leaving me out of breath. We separate after what felt like seconds but also years at the same time.

"What are you doing to me Scarlett?"

She giggles and kisses me again. This time the kiss is filled with passion and love. I pack all I have for her in this kiss. Almost everything. We stumble back to my bed and she lays me down. I don't even gather the time to protest when she starts to devour my neck. She's gentle at first but when she got impatient because she couldn't find my sweet spot she started biting. I couldn't stop myself. I released moans I never knew I could produce.

"Wait wait." I say painfully separating her from my neck.

"What? Is something wrong?" she asks

You can't be serious..

"Do you really want this? I mean do you really want me?" I ask

"Of course I want you. Where is this coming from?" She asks

"I don't want you to regret what we're about to do." I say truthfully

"What makes you think I won't?" She asks kissing my neck.

"I'm serious Scarlett. I..I care for you and I don't want you to end up hurt or to despise me." I say lying my arse off.

I still love her. I never stopped. But the truth is I want her to love me. I want her to want me just as much as I crave her. I crave her touch and just now I never knew I could crave her lips on my neck.

"Stop being so brave for one god damn minute. Let go." She says and continues kissing my neck.

"But Scarlett-

"Let go and I'll make you release." she purrs into my ear.

"No more talking, unless you're screaming my name." She says and continues kissing my neck. I let go as she says and I start to melt once more. Her lips do wonders and I just can't believe this is truly happening. How is my moral compass turned up side down right now is crazy to me.

I move up the bed and she straddles my hips. I take off my shirt and her eyes glisten with mischief as soon as she's met with my chest. Her hands trace my skin and I wait impatiently as she slips off my bra, strap by strap. Her breathing matches mine and I can see her pupils are already dilated. The're filled with lust and I.. I couldn't ask for more right now. She finally unclasps my bra and throws it on the side.

"Beautiful Lena." She whispers as her fingers trace my abs and the valleys of my breasts. She cups one breast and looks at me in the eyes as if she's asking for permission. I nod my head and she takes it as a sign to attack. Her lips attach themselves to my nipple while her other hand massages my other breast. She is fully clothed sitting on top of me. And I, well I'm laying down beneath her topless and a moaning mess while we're at it. I can't hold back any longer. I bite my lip and I try to muffle my sounds of pure euphoria.

"Oh god even your moans are british." she mutters in between kisses.

I take my hands and roam her body. I pull at her shirt as if I could get any closer to her. She takes it as a sign and takes it off. I end up breathless at the sight. She takes off her bra right away and my eyes grow twice in size. I feel a pool form in my heat and I know I am fucked. She is the death of me.

I trace my fingers on her delicate skin and follow patters of tattoos. I flip us over and end up on top of her. I need time to worship her body. Her beautiful beautiful body. She seems to be caught off guard and blushing like crazy.

"Sweet sweet Scarlett mm" I mutter as I kiss her stomach and chest.

"I think you just made me believe in God again. Because this.. this is not by mother nature. This is created by the same thing that created the Andromeda galaxy. This is godly even. Magnificent dare I say." I whisper and her eyes look at me with a softness I never saw before.

She flips us and pulls me by my legs. I am left shocked and excited by that. She takes off my trousers and throws them across the room.

"The only godly thing in this room is you Lena." she says and grazes my leg with one of her hands. She grabs my hips and falls to her knees.

"Oh for how long I've waited for this." she says and starts kissing my thighs. I flinch at first but then it starts to become way to sensual. She picks up my legs and swings them over her shoulders. Kissing my inner thighs I can feel my juices about to spill. My impatience got the best of me and I bucked my hips in anticipation. She holds onto them tight and doesn't let me move.

She slips her fingers at the sides of my underwear and slides them off of my legs like they were never there. Her eyes go wide as she her gaze falls onto my heat and I just want to know what is it that is happening in her head right now. She blows onto my heat first. Teasing me like before. Her tounge comes in contact with my clit and I let out a moan. Her smile widens and she begins to use her tounge to pleasure me whole. My breathing quickens and I feel immense heat wash over my whole entire body. Her tounge changes it's route and I am close to my high already.

"Scarlett...I'm.. I'm close." I force out.

She takes that as he signal and she closes her mouth around my heat. In a matter of seconds I start to reach my high and when I do I lose it. My legs begin to shake my moans echo off the walls and she doesn't stop. Just as soon as I am down this high she starts to circle my entrance with her magic tounge.

"Scar.. please." I pant out

"Don't call me that." She warns.

"What should I call you then?" I ask

"Ms Johansson." she says smiling devilishly.

She continues her work with her tounge until she stops to enter me with it. I feel a rush through me when all of a sudden she licks her middle finger and pumps it into me. She leaves it inside and starts to pump into me very slowly.

"Faster Ms. faster please." I wine.

"of course angel." She whispers and picks up her speed. She adds another finger to my surprise and I am close to another high already. Either I haven't been fucked this good in a long time of she is really good at this. Either it is a win win situation for me.

"mmm..please." I moan out. She continues pumping into me only this time she is on top of me again.

"Tell me whats on your brilliant mind." She whispers into my ear

"I'm sorry for running away." I admit in the heat of the moment.

"Are you that fucking prideful that only now you're able to admit such a thing?" She asks thrusting into me hard.

"Ohhh..I stayed away from you because ...oh yeah...I knew I wouldn't..mmhmm... be able to resist you if we're close and alone." I say.

She picks up her speed and kisses me while I finish so I don't wake up half of New York with my moans. Once I am panting she lays down next me as we both catch out breath.

"Wow.. that was.. wow." I mutter and try to calm my breathing.

"I'll take that as a compliment" She says putting a stray strand of my hair behind my ear.

"I never thought you would be such a screamer." She says

"Oh my god Alex. He definitely heard everything." I say sitting up.

"Yeah and?" She sits up as well.

"Have you forgotten what we just did right?" I say

"Yeah. I just made you scream 'Ms Johansson' at the top of your lungs while I was in between your legs. Thats something I don't think I'll ever forget." She taunts.

"You're crazy." I say and lay back down.

"Do you still love me Lena?" She asks

"I.. I-

"Like you loved me before you left?" She asks

Should I tell her the truth?

"Not like before." I lie

"thats fair." She says

"Is it true what you said to me earlier?" She asks

"What excatly?"

"How you distanced yourself from me?"

"Yes, it is true. I didn't want to get too close to you." I say looking into her emerald eyes.

"Why?"

"Because you're magnetic Scarlett. You have a force field around you that just draws me in. I want to know more. Hell I want to know everything there is to know about you. But I know I can't." I say

"You never noticed the effect you had on me?"

"I don't think there was one."

"Oh trust me. There was." She admits.

I get up and go to the bathroom. I brush my teeth and go back into the bedroom to get dressed into something. I put one some shorts right after underwear of course and a big t shirt over it. She sits there staring into space. She's already taking back the words she said. I just know it.

She sees me and gets up herself. I toss her a pair of shorts and one of my band t shirts. She takes it gladly and gets dressed as well.

"There is another toothbrush in the bathroom. You're free to use it." I say and she nods thanking me on the way. I lay down in bed and turn off the lights. I turn on the lamp on my bedpost and wait for her to emerge from the bathroom.

But she never did. I woke up alone in bed with a note left beside my head. I didn't even read it. I knew what it was about. I sit down to read it anyway.

My dear Lena

I am sorry I am leaving this way I just can't continue on. I have no courage to do so. Last night was the best night of my life. I saw a part of you, a fragile state and I enjoyed it. I loved the sound of my name on your lips and I loved my lips on the inside of your thighs. Your presence is intoxicating and every time I am with you I have to fight the urge to stay in my clothes and not to rip yours off of your body. My dear Lena. Last night should have never happened. It.. It started something we can never finish. I started something I can never finish. Again I am sorry for the way I am telling you this, but believe me when I say. I would not be able to resist you after last night. I would not be able to say what I just said without doing it all again. You're a wonderful being darling. You seem to find the good in people even when they can't see it themselves. The invitation for my wedding still stands. Even though I find it stupid of me to even consider your arrival. After this you will probably burn everything you have of mine and I will be the target for your darts. I wouldn't blame you if it were that way. I just hope you can understand. This is for the best..

-Scarlett Johansson

I stand up from my bed and pace my bedroom. I can't believe I let this happen. I can't believe I let her take the one thing I had to offer. I humiliated myself for her and she just left. She used me as a thrill, as a game and left. I am so stupid. Oh my god I am a complete idiot. I can't believe I let myself get hurt again.

I go to the bathroom to wash my face and when I look into the mirror I see bruises on my neck. Her bruised. Out of pure anger I shatter the mirror infront of me and every reflective surface I could find with my fist. My thoughts begin to spiral and I fall to the ground. I feel dizzy. My hand is burning, but also tingling. I think I just broke my fist..