I couldn't sleep at all last night.

I can understand how Rachel has changed, Or maybe she has always been like this and the person I knew for years was all an act.

I really hope she leaves Robert alone, maybe I should call him. Put my mind at rest.

I get my phone and dial his number.

"Hello?" he says on the other line.

" Hey, its Sarah, I need to talk" I tell him.

"How about you come over to the café, its not open for another hour" he suggests.

"Yeah ok I will be over in 15 minutes" I say hanging up.

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"So whats the matter?" he asks.

"Well it is.."

Before I can say another word the phone rings.

"Do you mind if I get that?" he asks.

"Sure" I reply.

He goes to get the phone.

"Hello..oh hi Rachel" he says.

Rachel!?.

" No I am not busy Friday.."

I shake my head and mouth no.

He give me a weird look before saying,

"Oh no sorry I just remembered I promised to baby sit for Sarah..Yeah I know..maybe another time" he says hanging up.

"What was all that about?" he asks sitting down again.

"It was what I came to talk to you about, last night when I went out from fresh air she was there and she threatened me, saying she would try and use you against me" I sigh.

"She could never do that. I am not interested in her anyhow but even if I was she couldn't turn me against you. Your the closest person to me right now" he smiles.

"You have been ever so kind too me..if you ever need something then just let me know" I tell him.

"All I need is you and ben, your family" he smiles.

"What will happen to this place?" I ask him.

"When I pass it will be sold, I really don't want it too but with no one to pass it on to in the family it can not be helped" he says.

I have to help..i have an ideas..crazy as it is I have to help.

"Do you want children?" I ask him.

" More than anything but fate doesn't seem to want me too" he sighs.

"I have an ideas, this is crazy but I want you too be happy" I tell him.

" What?" he asks confused.

"What if I had a child for you, like a surrogate. I would still see the child. I just want you to be happy and for this place to carry on" I tell him.

"I couldn't ask you to do that" he says to me.

"Your not though I am offering" I tell him.

"Would Benedict be ok with it?" he asks,

"I..i don't know but let me deal with him. Obviously I could not be your biological child as you can not have children but I really want to do this for you" I smile,

"Are you really sure" he asks,

"I haven't been surer of anything else".

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"No way!. I am sorry he can not have children but we are not going to have one for him" Ben says to me.

"You don't have to then. We can get a sperm donor. I have to do this for him!" I tell ben.

"And what happens when you have this child?, are you going to be able to hand it over so easily" Ben asks.

"Yes, I will still see the child most days" I tell him.

"You wont be able to bring it home though, Have you actually gave this proper thought?" Ben asks,

"I have thought for a long time about it, only now I am certain" I tell him.

"Well we are going to see professionals about this but it will not be my baby because I can not give it away. This is just madness" he says leaving the room.

Why can he not understand this is what I want to do!

Robert is like a brother to me and family help each other out.

I am going to give him the one thing he cant have and no one is going to stop me.

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*Knock. Knock*

"Open up ben. I know your in here" Rachel shouts.

He opens the door,

"What do you want Rachel" he asks annoyed.

" The truth, why the fuck did you tell the bitch about our little situation. You may have just of lost her forever" She says to him.

"Well I rather I lost her fairly. You were only doing all that for yourself. You don't care about me, her or anyone. everything has to be about you" He says to her,

"For once that would be nice" she says.

"Well your little stunt only pulled them closer so your so great at that aren't you" he says to her,

"Ah but you haven't heard the latest yet have you?" she smirks.

"What?" Tom asks,

"She is going to have a child for that Robert as he can not have any and apparently Ben is not happy about it" she says.

"Well it is none of our business" Tom says.

"Oh but don't you see the fun we could have with this. The press would have a field day. I already have a meeting today with someone from a newspaper and I am going to let slip of Sarah's little affair out of the bag" she tells him.

"No, you cant do that, that's our own business" Tom says.

" It wont make you bad, it might even make you look better. I want to make everyone hate her and this will be a starting point. Anyhow you cant stop me" she says.

"Get out!, Just get out!" tom says really annoyed.

"Ok, ok I am going but I just want you to remember who's side you should be on" She says to him

" I did not know their were sides, this is not a game you know, and anyhow If it was, I would always been on her side because your just a pathetic manipulative bitch" he says shutting the door on her.

"I may be a Bitch but i am a fucking powerful one!" she shouts.

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I pick up the paper and gasp,

"Ben!" i shout,

"What, what is it?" he says running through.

"Look" i say passing him the paper.

" The apparent good girl Sarah Pennington was apparently having an affair with Sherlock actor Benedict Cumberbatch at the time she was dating actor Tom Hiddleston a close sources says" he reads out loud

"How could they possibly have found out?" Benedict asks.

" Think about it, a close source. There's only one bitch who knows" i tell him.

"Rachel?" he asks.

I nod.

"And when i find her i am going to kill her" i say standing up....

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I knock on her door as hard as i can.

I am not letting her get away with this.

I keep banging and banging. I will wait for an answer.

Suddenly there's an answer/

"Oh Sarah, I take it you read todays newspaper" She smirks.

"Yes i did you stupid cow, now you better let me in because we need a serious talk" i tell her.

"Sure come in" she says opening the door,

She closes it and then follows me.

"Benedict not here?, shame i thought we could start where we finished off" she laughs.

I slap her right across the face.

" You better stay away from him" i warn her,

She looks at me and laughs.

"I guess i deserved that one. This isn't the end though trust me. I am going to make everyone hate you and your career will never take off" she says.

" Why, why do this. We were best friends" i say to her.

" Exactly 'Were" that's in the past now. You never treated me like your equal and lets face it, you would chose them over me any day" she says.

"Right now yes. You are completely horrible Rachel, where is that girl i called my best friend?" i ask her.

"She died a long with our friendship" She says looking away from me.

"I reckon she is still in their somewhere" i say.

"Well your wrong, now just get out. I take it you have said everything you needed too" She says.

" I have but i know their will be more you will throw at me. Just remember one thing though. I have one thing you don't" i say to her.

"And what's that?" she asks.

"People who love me" i tell her.

"I don't need that, i am doing perfectly fine on my own. Now get out!" she says.

I go towards the door,

I look back at her but she looks away.

I know my Rachel is in their somewhere....

A/N- What do you think of this chapter. What do you think of Sarah wanting to have a child for Robert?, do you think their is still any of the old Rachel left?. All comments and votes appreciated :)