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had said it yourself. Charming, cunning, manipulative, unable to change easily''.

''I can't even hear you talking right now Jimin. I just want you to shut up''.

Oh how much he was going to miss gorgeous...

Cause deep inside Jimin knew that what he did was unforgivable and Jungkook wasn't going to condone him that easily. Maybe not at all...

''Do you think I lack empathy? Don't you think I feel apologetic for the pain I have caused you? I ...I am sorry... I would never manipulate you, I swear... I love you too much to do that''.

''Sociopaths have no feelings. It's scientifically proven''.

''Then maybe I am not one. Maybe I am insane but perhaps I ain't a sociopath'' Jimin retorted. In his entire life he was being called names, exploiting these traits -lying, deceiving, seducing his way out of problems to his advantage- but he couldn't ignore the remorse he felt when he saw Jungkook's body trembling on the floor from the panic attack. The lust he sensed between their kisses, the love when skin and soul became one.

The more he thought about it, the more he believed he wasn't one. Sure, due to the certitude he had, he'd managed to convince everyone that he was one as well. He even developed some sort of traits during this period. Talking faster than usual, excessive obsession with cleaning even if he always despised it. Characteristics that as times passed faded away.

The younger of the two stood up and with heavy footsteps reached his bookcase searching between the tomes and books for something in particular. Avoiding the left corners- practically laughing with himself because people exploited his one and only phobia- he grabbed a book and with a nonchalant expression sat on the couch. Wiping his mouth and eyes from his earlier meeting with the sink, Jungkook opened the folio and pointed out at one line with his index. His eyes narrowed and his lips began to move.

''Aesop, ancient Greek author and story-teller like you... Do you know him?''.

''Where are you going with this Kook?''.

''Do, You, Fucking, Know, Him?'' he repeated.

''I do''.

''Do you know the myth with the lying shepherd?'' he asked next.

Jimin found himself drowning in guilt.

''No... I do't know it'' he replied. And he wasn't sure he wanted to learn it anyway.

''Then maybe it will reveal you your true self'' Jungkook muttered sternly. ''You see, in a small town where people used to always help each other and be empathetic of each other's pain, there lived a shepherd. Every person trusted him with its cattles, that's how much faith people had in him. Until the man decided to play a trick on them. Α blithe day, he started to shout that a wolf attacked the sheep causing the entire village to become agitated. The villagers ran all the way to the hills only to be met with the man's teasing smile. He repeated this so called ''joke'' three more times. That until a real wolf came and ate the entire flock and he was screaming and shouting for help but nobody came to his aid. What's the moral of this story ''gorgeous'' ?'' he inquired with a dolorous grin.

''Kook...''.

''How do you expect me to believe you after so many lies?'' Jungkook interrupted. ''And I asked you to not call me that. I am so fucking naive, I should have known. You knew so many things about sociopaths because you are one. Why did you even show me that movie? Why were you always trying to convince me that I am not one? Why did you choose to read ''The Talented Mr. Ripley'' out of all of my books? Is it because it talks about a fucking sociopath? I made love with a fucking sociopath!''.

Jungkook's sentences were not connected at this point. All the questions circling his brain like a tornado made him unable to think, jumping from topic to topic, reminiscing each painful memory separately.

''I was raised like one by my parents but I don't accept it anymore!'' Jimin growled, the attempts to hold a calm demeanor now lost. ''I am not a sociopath, you managed to help me change , why can't you at least believe that?''.

''Are you for real? Do you want me to believe a man that placed cameras in my house? That tricked me into falling for him? That almost turned me insane... Is this why you didn't want me to fuck you? So that your ''friends'' wouldn't see you succumb?'' he asked, Jimin moving his head in a negative manner.

''No! No, absolutely not. Everything I told you about my past is true... I really tried to relent but I couldn't bring myself to do it that day''.

''They were having cameras in my place for fuck's sake! Hoseok and I were fucking almost three times a week, hell he even pretended that he had feelings for me. Taehyung was supposedly my friend, he made me think I was a sociopath myself. Seokjin gave me the idea for the monologue... Every time I say it, it gets worse in my head. They heard us making love. A private moment of affection that I had never experienced before was a show for others! They were monitoring my daily life... and you allowed this Jimin''.

''Before I knew you! I never expected...''.

''Stop excusing yourself freak! You were manilpulating me and they were exploiting you to do it? Do you expect me to believe that?''.

''It's the truth'' he said in an undertone, tears threatening to escape his amber eyes.

''Wait a minute, wait a minute... I have written about you in the coffee shop as well. None of you were there. Taehyung didn't join me'' he came to the realization.

''Taehyung didn't... but Namjoon did'' he confessed.

''The fucking waiter? Is he a part of this too?!''.

''He works in the coffee shop. In a storage room behind ''Balter'', there are all the cameras and equipment. That's the place I call ''work''. Jin has hacked the cameras of the coffee shop that day so Hoseok had free access. Taehyung has also placed a small microphone in your jacket. He notified me about the right time, what to wear, to order... You know the rest''.

''Ιf I didn't love you, I would have already killed you with my bare hands'' Jungkook warned the older. ''Why did I have to meet you? Why did you fucking enter my life? I would choose loneliness instead of loving a manipulator''.

Out of all the insults Jungkook threw at him that night, this was the one which hurt Jimin the most. Jungkook despised being lonely to the bone but preferring solitude over being in love with him was the most painful thing he could say. Of course, Jimin didn't blame him. It was a rational, expected reaction. Maybe he didn't expect the slap but other than that he deserved everything the beautiful author called him.

''I have taken all the cameras down, the microphone as well. I will go and tell Yoongi the truth even if I know I might end up beaten up... or dead, I don't care at this point. I am sorry for all the deceit, coercion and intimidation I have caused. I will pack my things and leave but please Kook... Jungkook. Leave this town if you want to continue writing. He never had a motive, all he wanted was to be the best, that's it if you were out of the picture''.

''What's in the storage room of your apartment? If that's your apartment anyway'' Jungkook interrupted the older man.

''It is mine, for now at least. We use it to hide equipment there. Cameras, mics... we all used it as if it was our place''.

''And this obsession with cleaning? The habit that you talk faster than a normal person does?''.

''I have developed them through time. My parents had convinced me I was a sociopath. I was too young and I wasn't independent. I did my research and it said that all sociopaths have particular habits. And through the years my obsession grew. The fact that I talk fast has to do with lying. I try to hide them under the alacrity of my talking'' he confessed.

''You almost turned me into a schizophrenic!'' he growled, rolling his fingers through his hair. ''You should leave. There's no reason for you to stay here anymore''.

It was like a dagger pierced his skin and tore his heart in two. And he deserved that. He just gave the younger his most heartwarming smile and after wiping his eyes in a desperate attempt to prevent the upcoming tears , Jimin stared at the man a little longer than he intended not knowing if he should say ''goodbye''. People don't say goodbye to the ones they love anyway. It made the leaving look final and written in stone.

''Jungkook'' he haltingly brought his hand on the raven haired's arm who flinched from the sudden yet familiar silky touch. ''I can't force you to love me anymore but please. Don't hate me''.

The author easily withdraw from Jimin's grip, his mind still focused on the fact that people have been living his life along with him for the past months. He couldn't avert his gaze to the blond because he knew that if he stared at the man's enchanting irises, he wouldn't be able to let go.

''I wish I could trust you once again. Your voice won't stop being my favorite sound. But I have to try. I just want to turn back time on the day I crossed paths with you. I would go away the instant I saw you and I would have saved myself from so much pain. I just feel like because of you I might never love again. Loving you felt like losing me. Call me weak or whatever but Park Jimin... at least I have a heart'' he snarled. ''And you are empty inside''.

''I have a heart for you. I don't know for how long enough it will beat but it will always be with you''.

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Climbing down the stairs, holding his bag in his grip, with sluggish steps Jimin dragged his feet on the floor, the blond's eyes filled with tears when he saw Jungkook curled up in a ball in the middle of his living room. The once dominant male, with the incredible imagination and peaceful aura, with the childish smile and vividly glimmering eyes was now an effete mess, drowning in a madness that he didn't merit.

''Do you want me to stay?'' he asked in an undertone, laughing with his own question.

''Leave me Jimin''.

''I can help you Kook. Let me help you''.

''You are the reason behind all of this and now you want to help me? Really Park?''.

''No. I am staying. I will try to make you feel better and then I will leave you''.

''Then you will have to stay forever'' he chuckled bitterly. ''And I don't want that''.

''Βut...''.

''Stop being that stubborn and fucking leave. I am trying to forget you''.

''I love you cause you made me love myself first. I want to make sure you are alright'' Jimin exclaimed, falling on his knees next to the younger. And Jungkook made the mistake to look at him.

To fall for the welcoming sensation of the subtle innocence playing between his eyelashes. To drown in the chestnut brown that was now melting in the form of amber liquid trepidation, in the form of painful memories. To fall for the lips that threw lies at him yet devoured him with love and care.

And Jungkook couldn't know what was stronger. Lies or love?

''The right person never leaves Jungkook'' Jimin murmured and kissed the younger man's knuckles.

''You are making it harder for both of us'' Jungkook tried to push the older away but Jimin managed to entangle his hands around the author's waist, nuzzling his head in the man's neck. He was holding him tightly as if he was holding his heart trying to fix it with bandages and stop the bleeding.

''Look into my eyes and tell me that I don't love you''.

''I don't doubt your love Jimin. It's just that I lost my mind in an attempt to understand yours'' he retorted, the blond's breath warming his entire body like a blanket made of comfort and delicate gentleness. ''You touched my heart before even tracing my body. And then you broke it like it never meant nothing to you. Leave''.

''One day'' Jimin whispered, Jungkook's affectionate scent lingering in his mind. ''One day we will be nothing but stories. Yet the only thing that I want to remember in my life is the few months we spent together. I know I can't be the best for you... but let me try be something'' he closed his eyes calmly letting his tears soak the author's shirt.

''I am tired Jimin... My heart is so exhausted'' Jungkook muttered, his palms hesitantly caressing the man's back. ''I feel so tempted to touch you yet in the same time all I want is to never see you in my life again. Things won't ever be the same and I hate changes''.

''I know Kook''.

''Why didn't you tell me earlier? I could have helped you''.

''You barely have money for yourself Kook. And I was afraid of your reaction''.

''I feel so disgusted by myself. Did you ever see anything from the cameras?''.

''Only what they told me. I was never curious, I just wanted to do my job but your heart took over me'' he whispered, planting a small kiss on the man's neck, sensing the nervousness he was now bringing to the younger male.

''You are an asshole'' he uttered. ''And I am such a fucking fool''.

''My personality might be confusing to people but I only know one thing for sure. I love you Kook. And I will fix. Everything''.

''Saying it's so much easier than doing Jimin. What did I ever do to you to betray me like that?''.

''You fixed my heart while it was broken Kook. Don't tear it apart again..''.