I told him to come round. I hate texting people about something like this, but then again, i hate speaking in person when it's something like this as well. I mean fuck I don't even know how I feel towards him. Is this the right decision? Is this professional?

"hey" he said shyly as I opened the door

"hey.. let's go to my room"

We both sat on my bed not really knowing what to say. Awkward much.

"these past weeks.." he started "it caught me off guard and i got to know you more and now here i am with feelings for you"

"we hardly know each other jake.."

"so get to know me" he took my hand "i'm not as bad as you may think"

"okay" i gulped

"okay what?"

"i'll get to know you.. but that doesn't mean we are dating"

"no of course not, we can take it at whatever pace you want too, how about i take you out tonight, 7 sound good?"

"wait for real?" i asked

"yeah"

"7 is good.. it's just i've never really been taken out before"

"then i'll make it a good first date" he smiled

Jake stayed round for an hour or so, not too long as he had a work meeting with Robyn later that day. Did I just make the right fucking choice? I don't even know..

Fuck when Robyn founds out about this.. my feelings for Robyn are so strong and there's a possible chance that I have little for Jake, however my main priority it Robyn which means my feelings for her could be blocking my feelings for Jake

A date?? Wait hold a minute I swear I wasn't paying attention because my mind could only think about Robyn and the way she- why am I still thinking about that day? But anyways as I was saying I have a date tonight shit.