h i m ( p a r t 2 ) - N O A H

noah,

the boy whose hair i loved,

the boy with honey dripping lips,

the boy misunderstood.

noah,

why couldn't you wait?

was i really that easy to forget?

middle school,

the boy whose hair a girl loved,

the boy with honey dripping lips,

noticed her scars.

the girl despised you.

i couldn't bare for anyone to know

the gut wrenching sickness

i carried along.

a girl with half a heart,

and a boy with too much to give can

never be together.

noah,

don't you know,

two broken hearts don't make

a whole one?

don't you know,

the venom in my veins and the burns on my bones aren't beautiful?

noah, oh dear noah,

don't you know

the curiosity killed the cat?

you sat behind me and

people called you lovestruck,

but it was a tragedy.

for i liked the guy you hated

and he liked the girl i hated,

you liked me and my best friend

liked you.

noah,

don't you know,

that distance doesn't always

make your heart feel longingness?

365 days passed

and a boy returned in our lives again,

the boy whose hair i loved,

the boy with honey dripping lips,

the boy misunderstood.

the boy hadn't changed but

i had.

noah, dear noah,

didn't you know

it was better to leave me alone?

didn't you hear

the whispers of my name being called out in disgust?

i no longer liked affection.

the girl whose smile was contagious became

the girl without a heart.

i no longer felt anything.

the girl who yelled at bullies now

flinched at the slightest raise of voice.

noah,

don't you know

that you shouldn't pick up shards of

broken glass?

didn't you know

i would hurt you?

high school,

the boy whose hair a girl loved,

the boy with honey dripping lips,

helped a girl with half a heart

whose heart was an earthquake

and she was tied to ropes no one could see.

winter swept in and

the girl decided to give it a chance,

i hoped i wouldn't fall again.

or the boy with honey dripping lips

would catch me when i do.

noah,

don't you know

secrets kept can break the trust which was just beginning to form?

don't you know

verses unspoken can be a shot at the heart?

i wish i hadn't known.

i wish i hadn't known the honey

dripping lips had a cigar between them.

i wish i hadn't known

about the substances you inhaled

or the ecstasy you got from it.

noah,

don't you know

how it feels like to let go of

someone who gave you hope?

you were the last string of

hope,

she could almost see the light

at the end of the tunnel.

noah,

don't you know

forcing a person who can't feel to

say 'i love you' hurts them

more than yourself?

why couldn't you

give up on the half-hearted

girl?

why did you have to see her scars?

why did you have to return?

why did you have to make her feel again?

noah, oh dear noah,

you were the misunderstood boy

the girl with half a heart almost had.

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[ also, the third part may not be published immediately. its going to take a lot of time writing and proof-reading.

- angel ♡]