[ please read till the end! tried my best

to describe my anxiety here, hope

you like it. ]

“head in my hands

heart held hostage,

how could i ever

hurt myself?

am i insane?

am i insane?

the words running

through my mind

are all blurred lines.

the blood stains

the pages of the book,

now all i can see

are deep, dark hues.

am i insane?

am i insane?

big breaths burn

my lungs,

beats of my heart

break apart.

the world collapses

as the guilt rises

it's all my fault,

it's all my fault.

am i insane?

am i insane?

incoherent voices

inch into my brain,

if i were normal

i'd be one of them.

whimsical whispers

wreck my head

when i walk away,

it starts again.

am i insane?

am i insane?

feelings fall apart,

fake faces tear

my heart,

five senses falter

and even

four seconds later

nothing feels better.

echoes ring through

my head

but i feel nothing instead.

am i insane?

am i insane?

i learnt love,

loss, lust and

law,

but love won't take away

the pain i saw.

truth is,

tales tell twisted truths-

you won't survive

a minute in this hell

if you buy the lies

they sell.

sooner or later

you will realize -

it never gets better.

if you stay sane,

no matter how loud

you shout;

you won't be heard

because insanity

is the only way out.”