Today was Zayn and I's 4 month anniversary and it's also been about 2 months since we took a break from social media and I was kind of missing it. I would love to post about it being 4 months today but I just didn't know if Zayn would want to go back to that. I should ask him still, maybe if he doesn't then I just can, that's not a problem right?

I was so nervous and anxious about seeing him tonight. We haven't seen each other for about two weeks and I missed seeing his face. We did FaceTime and all but it wasn't the same as face to face. I wasn't able to kiss him, hold his hand or anything like that.

He had no idea where I was taking him and I loved that he didn't. Even though he kept bugging me about where we were going, I never told him and tonight is the night. We were just going to a restaurant that I reserved just for us, it wasn't anything special.

But tonight I was thinking about telling him the three special words. I just don't know how he would react and if it's still too early in the relationship. We've known each other for more than 5 years so I didn't think it was too early for me. If he's not ready then I shouldn't pressure him right? And if he doesn't say it back then that's okay, that would just mean he's not ready.

I shook the thoughts that I had been thinking about all day now out of my head, whatever happens tonight, happens, we'll see how everything goes.

Our reservation was at 6 and the clock read 3:59 pm. I better start getting ready so I can pick up Zayn on time and also be at the restaurant in time. I got up and walked to my room looking for my towel. Once I found it I went to the bathroom, turned the water on, and started to undress. I stepped in the shower and cleaned myself and washed my hair. I then shut off the water, stepped out of the shower, and dried my hair. Once I wrapped the towel around me I went into my room looking for something to wear tonight. I had to look nice for Z.

I had decided to wear black jeans, a grey sweater, and a black coat over it with some sunglasses. I don't know why I chose them but I did. Once I was all dressed and sprayed some cologne, I grabbed my keys and headed for my car. Luckily there were no paparazzi at this time and I was hoping it stayed that way.

I got in my car and was on my way to Z's. Once I arrived he got in the car. I turned to look at him and wow he looked amazing. He had a button up shirt with a horse print, an unbuttoned black vest over, and black dress pants. His shirt was barely buttoned enough to see his tattoos across his chest, which were gorgeous.

"You look good" I said looking at him head to toe.

"You too babe, maybe even better than me, and I do look good" he said with a wink and a chuckle.

"You can't take a compliment to save your life."

"I can, I just choose not to."

"Whatever you say, let's just go, it's almost time for our reservation."

"I got you something" Zayn said as he put his hand in his pocket and took something out.

"I didn't want anything babe, I told you this."

"Well I still got you it and you're gonna accept it."

"Fine" I said as he handed me the box.

It was a ring. White gold ring with black and white diamonds. It had a saying but was in a different language.

"It says 'be kind to everyone' in Latin" Zayn must've saw I was confused and told me.

"It's beautiful, I love it Z. Thank you so much."

"No problem love."

"I also got you something" I felt a smirk on my face as I dug for it in my coat pocket. I really didn't know what to get him so I just made him a bracelet that says 'I'm with you.' I thought it would be a nice gift since it came from my heart, but now I just felt bad since he got me something so nice and beautiful and expensive probably and I just got him a plain old bracelet.

As I pulled it out and handed it to him I said, "It's nothing like yours but it came from my heart so I really hope you like it."

"Oh babe, I love it. Thank you."

He leaned over to kiss me and at that moment, everything seemed so peaceful and I wanted it to stay like that forever.

"Come on, let's get out of here" Zayn implied.

And with that we were off. Next thing I know we were at Zayn's place in his bedroom just appreciating each other's presence as we sat on his bed.