Prologue

"Congratulations, you're pregnant" the doctor said.

"What, how? This can't be happening. Are you sure he's pregnant? I mean, oh my God.. I'm going to be sick" Harry got up rushing towards the toilet whilst avoiding running into people but didn't succeed as he knocked over a chair, a magazine from a table and a plant on a window sill while trying to hold on, he was also feeling dizzy.

"Oh poor soul, morning sickness has got him bad" someone can be heard saying.

Zayn just rolled his eyes walking towards Harry.

"Haz, babe are you ok?" Zayn rubbed Harry's back while dry heaved over the toilet and put wet paper towels at the back of his neck hoping that will a soothing effect

"No..I'm not okay" Harry said. "I don't think I'm ready to be a father. I'm only 21, you know how I always dreamed about travelling the world. How can I do that with a baby on board. I can't do this." He shook his head looking at Zayn "I'm sorry Zee" tears fell down his face at the implications this might have on their relationship.

Zayn looked at Harry, the tears running down his cheeks, he should hate him right now for wanting to jump ship, but he can't. He loves Harry way too much. He knew all about his plans for back packing around the world, they stayed up all night talking about that. Mostly Harry as he daydreamed about possible adventures, but Harry never been one to be tied down, in one place. His first attempt at having a boyfriend lasted for two weeks, and he was not even . But not Harry, he was already planning a night out and getting smashed after his 'heartbreak'. Harry did confess to Zayn though that he never felt the 'zing' with Shawn and he wanted to break it off after two days but kept it going for his mom's sake as she always called him flighty and not good with commitments. Zayn laughed so hard when he heard that.

Now as he looked Harry he couldn't help that thought coming through his mind. Yes he loves Harry and probably fell in love with him the day he met him. He wants Harry so much in his life, he doesn't know how he will cope without him. But he also knows Harry can't cope with being tied down even by a possibility of having a family. And he would never force Harry to stay. So,

He did what felt right at that moment and gave Harry a big hug, squeezing really tight, reassuring. Letting him know he's forgiven. That he is after all his best friend and he doesn't hate him, he could never hate him. Harry clinged onto him, silently crying in Zayn's shoulder 'I'm sorry' over and over.

Zayn pulled away, looked at Harry's tear stricken face. He kissed his cheek, wiped his tears away, then kissed his forehead. His goodbye.

"I love you Harry and I wish you the best" he said, then walked away not waiting for him to answer back. He was trying not to have a meltdown. His legs took him to his car without giving way. Impressive. But he was not about to have a break down in the car park. And he wanted to be the one to walk away so Harry doesn't have to feel too guilty.

He took his phone out of his pocket as soon as he was safely inside his car. His hand was shaking as he dialled the only person who can always pick him up and put him together.

"Can I come home?" He cried down the phone after his mom picked up.

"Of course you can baby" his mom never asked questions.

Zayn cried some more after that as he drove off. Harry didn't miss the tears falling down Zayn's cheeks. He never wanted to be the one responsible for Zayn crying. His heart sank. What had he done?